My wife and I were holding hands. I was in a dark suit with a black-and-gray tie and looked pretty snappy; Peggy was a vision in black crepe, her shoulders and midriff bare beneath misty black lace, her dark hair down and flouncing, mouth lushly red-lipsticked. She may have only been a bit player, but every male eye found her, as we wound through the tables. Partly it was her beauty-but some of it had to be her resemblance to the dead girl whose picture had been so prominently in the papers.
We had already had a fight, a little one back at the hotel, and had kissed and made up, after a bigger problem had taken centerstage.
The little fight had been over this late-night (our reservation was 11:30 P. M.) engagement to go dancing and drinking with several old friends. One of those old friends was Barney Ross, as Peg-without me knowing-had set this up with Barney’s soon-to-be-ex-wife, Cathy, who was seeing him for the first time since his release from the drug rehabilitation hospital.
When Peggy informed me of this, I had already agreed to go out, and we were getting ready in the big bathroom in the Beverly Hills Hotel bungalow, me in my shorts, at the mirror, shaving, with Peggy in the tub, also shaving-face and legs, respectively.
“Barney’s going to be there? Does he know I’m going to be there?”
“No. Cathy thinks it will be good for him.”
“You can’t spring me on Barney like this! We haven’t spoken in years.”
She shrugged and then returned her attention to her soapy, nicely formed calf, stroking it with her Lady Gillette. “I know he was a little put out with you…”
“Put out! He was a dope addict, and I dried up his hometown street supplies!”
“But he’s well, now,” she said.
And all I could think of was Lloyd Watterson saying the same thing.
“Do you have any idea how few addicts make it?” I asked her in the mirror, royally pissed at her, loving the way the water made her breasts look so smooth and round and shiny. “Almost none!”
“You were friends since childhood. He’s trying to make a new start. You have to help him.”
“Surprising him like this is no way to do it!”
She began to drain the water, stood, and began adjusting the shower nozzle, so she could wash her hair. Over the tub gurgle, she said, “Then I’ll just go without you and when Barney asks, I’ll say you didn’t want to see him.”
And she turned on the shower, cutting off anything I might say in response.
My mirror began steaming up, and I was steamed too, rubbing a place on the glass for me to finish shaving, muttering to myself, watching her shower, cutting myself when I was paying too much attention to the way the water was streaming down her slender shapely frame, cascading over the tiny cliff of her perfect little breasts, a rivulet trailing through her dampened pubic tuft…
I was in my underwear sitting on the bed when she came in with her hair wrapped up in a towel and her body tied into a terrycloth robe with the hotel’s gold BHH monogram.
“I’m not going,” I told her.
“You have to go,” she said. “Besides, you told Eliot we were going out for a late supper.”
She came over and sat next to me and sighed heavily, even dramatically, and announced, “Anyway… there’s something more important than that we should, well…”
I frowned at her. “What?”
“Can we talk?”
Those three words again: now I was starting to know just how deadly they were in married life, trumped only by the fatal four: “We have to talk.”
But I could tell something was really wrong. The violet eyes were troubled, the smooth brow managing a wrinkle.
Melting, I said, “Sure, baby.”
“What I have to tell you is going to make you sad.”
I slipped an arm around her. “What is it?”
“Oh, Nathan… I know you’re going to be so disappointed…” She was tearing up; lips trembling.
“What, doll?”
“… I got my friend today.”
“Your friend?”
“My friend… you know-my period.”
“You can’t get your period-you’re pregnant.”
“No, I’m not. That’s what I’m trying to tell you-it was a false alarm.”
She explained that she’d always been as regular as clockwork with her periods (which of course I already knew-just as I knew the bad ones put her in bed for a day or two) and when she’d been late, a week and a half ago, she had assumed the worst. (Exactly how she put it: “The worst.”)
“But you went to the doctor…”
She swallowed; looked sheepish. “No. I made an appointment, but I never kept it… didn’t bother… I’ve never missed a period, never had one arrive so late-oh darling, I know how dearly you wanted a child, but we can have another.”
I felt empty. The emotional roller coaster Peg and I had been riding lately, where this now nonexistent kid was concerned, had finally jumped its tracks; and this very long day suddenly caught up with me, and I flopped back onto the bed. For some reason, I began tearing up, too. Emotions getting away from me…
Peggy crawled onto the bed and leaned over me; her face, with no makeup, at all, was lovely. “Nate, darling, when the time is right, we’ll have as big a family as you want-I’ll be your personal baby-making machine.”
She was so earnest, hovering over me, making that silly statement, that I had to laugh. Smiling, she cuddled close to me.
“Are you all right?” she asked.
“Yeah.”
“I’ll make you better.” She slipped her hand into the fly of my boxer shorts, found me, and brought me out for a look. “He’s tiny.”
“Just what every man hopes to hear from a beautiful woman.”
“Let’s see what I can do.”
Then she knelt over me, making me grow, her head bobbing up and down, sliding up and down slowly, quickly, slowly, and it was dizzingly sensual, making me giddy with pleasure, and when I had to come, I warned her, but she didn’t stop, wouldn’t stop…
It was the best I’d ever had.
Next to Elizabeth Short.
A man who has been paid that kind of attention will follow a woman anywhere, and so I was now in the Mocambo, hand in hand with her, Al Capone’s nemesis trailing faithfully behind us, walking over to where my other best friend sat with his former showgirl wife.
My partner Fred Rubinski was there, as well, seated next to Barney in a spacious corner booth. Everybody had drinks already, and Fred was inflicting a Havana on them.
Just above and behind where Barney sat with Cathy at the linen-covered table, concealed lighting glowing upward, a huge tin sculpture seemed to float. The life-size figure of a South American native in a headdress of curled tin stood on a round pedestal, exotic fronds and flora at his feet, skeletal body festooned with webbing and ball fringe, arms outstretched, an elaborate electric candelabrum in one hand, a small iron cage in the other.
The tin figure would have been at home in Welles’ Crazy House, or possibly in a dope addict’s dream.
Though this surrealistic statue seemed to be springing from his head, Barney Ross did not look like a dope addict. In fact, he just looked like Barney Ross-a slightly pudgy bulldog-pussed brown-eyed ex-boxer in his late thirties, his hair prematurely stone gray, looking pretty spiffy for just getting out of rehab, in a brown-and-white-checked sportjacket and red bowtie.
I stood swallowing spit, feeling just a little awkward, no worse than the time I farted on the witness stand.
Cathy looked great-a Maureen O’Hara type with the flowing dark tresses to prove it. In her powder-blue dress with dark blue embroidered flower at one shoulder, she looked as chicly beautiful as the movie goddesses around us.