He straightened his leg, dragging the chain along the floor with him, and stretched out face down on the pallet, doubling his chilled arms under him for warmth.
Nothing the Tamurlin had done to him could equal the humiliation of this; the worst beating he had ever taken was no shame at all compared to the look with which Ylith t’Erinas had touched him. They had insisted on washing him, which he would gladly have done, for he was filthy from his confinement in the hold, but they leveled spears at him, forced him to stand against a wall and remove what little clothing he still wore, then scrub himself repeatedly with strong soap. Then they hit him with a bucketful of cold water, and gave him nothing with which to dry his skin. There was a linen breechclout, not even the decency of a ctan;that and an iron ring and a cup of water from which to drink: that was the consideration Lhe afforded him.
Hours passed, and the oil lamp on the ledge burned out, leaving only the light that came through the small barred-window from the outer hall. He managed to sleep a little, turning from side to side, warming first his arms and then his back against the mattress.
Then, without warning or explanation, men invaded his cell and forced him from the room under heavy guard, hastening him along the dim halls, the ring on his ankle band a constant, metallic sound at every other step.
Upstairs was their destination, a small room somewhere in the main building, warmed by an ordinary fire in a common hearth. A single pillar supported its level ceiling.
To this they chained his hands, passing the chain behind him around the pillar; then they left him, and he was alone for a great time. It was no hardship: it was warm in this room. He absorbed the heat gratefully and sank down at the base of this pillar, leaning against it and bowing his head, willing even to sleep.
“Human.”
He brought his head up, blinking in the dim light. Ylith had come into the room. She sat down upon the ledge beneath the slit of a window and regarded him curiously. She was without the crown now, and her massive braids coiled on either side of her head gave her a strangely fragile face.
“You are one of the human woman’s companions,” she said, “that she missed killing.”
“No,” he said, “I came independently.”
“You are an educatedhuman, as she is.”
“As educated as you are, Methi.”
Ylith’s eyes registered offense, and, it was possible,—amusement. “You are not a civilized human, however, and you are therefore demonstrating your lack of manners.”
“My civilization,” he said, “is some twelve thousand years old. And I am still looking for evidence of yours in this city.”
The Methi laughed outright. “I have never met such answers. You hope to die, I take it. Well, human, look at me. Look up.”
He did so.
“It is difficult to accustom myself to your face,” she said. “But you do reason. I perceive that.—What is the origin of humans, do you know?”
It was, religiously, a dangerous question. “We are,” he said, “children of one of the brothers of the earth, at least as old as the nemet.”
“But not light-born,” said Ylith, which was to say, unholy and lawless. “Tell me this, wise human: does Phan light your land too?”
“No. One of Phan’s brothers lights our world.”
Her brows lifted. “Indeed. Anothersun?”
He saw the snare of a sudden, realized that the Indras of the shining city were not so liberal and cosmic in their concept of the universe as human-dominated Nephane.
“Phan,” she said, “has no equals.”
He did not attempt to answer her. She did not rage at him, only kept staring, her face deeply troubled. Not naive, was Ylith of Indresuclass="underline" she seemed to think deeply, and seemed to find no answer that pleased her. “You seem to me,” she said, “precisely what I would expect from Nephane. The Sufaki think such things.”
“The yhia,” he said, venturing dangerously, “is beyond man’s grasp, is that not so, Methi? And when man seeks to understand, being man and not god, he seeks within mortal limits, and understands his truth in simple terms and under the guise of familiar words that do not expand his mortal senses beyond his capacity to understand. This is what I have heard. We all—being mortal—deal in models of reality, in oversimplifications.”
It was such a thesis as Nym had posed him once over tea, in the peace of the rhmeiof Elas, when conversation came to serious things, to religion, and humanity. They had argued, and disagreed, and they had been able then to smile and reconcile themselves in reason. The nemet loved debating. Each evening at teatime there was a question posed if there was no business at hand, and they would talk the topic to exhaustion.
“You interest me,” said Ylith. “I think I shall hand you over to the priests and let them hear this wonder,—a human that reasons.”
“We are,” he said, “reasoning beings.”
“Are you of the same source as Djan-methi?”
“Of the same kind, not the same politics or beliefs.”
“Indeed.”
“We have disagreed.”
Ylith considered him in some interest. “Tell me, is the color of her hair truly like that of metal?”
“Like copper.”
“You were her lover.”
Heat flashed to his face. He looked suddenly and resentfully into her eyes. “You are well-informed. Where do you plant your spies?”
“Does the question offend you? Do humans truly possess a sense of modesty?”
“And any other feeling known to the nemet,” he returned. “I had lovedyour people. Is this what your philosophy comes to, hating me because I disturb your ideas, because you cannot account for me?”
He would never have said such a thing outside Elas; the nemet themselves were too self-contained, although he could have said it to Kta. He was exhausted; the hour was late. He came close to tears, and felt shamed at his own outburst.
But Ylith tilted her head to one side, a little frown creasing her wide-set brows. “You are certainly unlike the truth I have heard of humans.” And after a moment she rose and opened the door, where an elderly man waited,—a white-haired man whose hair flowed to his shoulders, and whose ctanand pelwere gold-bordered white.
The old man made a profound obeisance to Ylith, but he did not kneeclass="underline" by this it was evident that she knew of his presence there, that they had agreed before hand.
“Priest,” she said, “look on this creature and tell me what you see.”
The priest straightened and turned his watery eyes on Kurt. “Stand,” he urged gently. Kurt gathered his almost paralyzed limbs beneath him and struggled awkwardly to his feet. Of a sudden he hoped; he did not know why this alien priest should inspire that in him, but the voice was soft and the dark eyes like a benediction.
“Priest,” urged the Methi.
“Great Methi,” answered. the priest, “this is no easy matter. Whether this is a man as we understand the word, I cannot say. But he is not Tamurlin. Let the Methi do as seems just in her own eyes, but it is possible that she is dealing with a feeling and reasoning being, whether or not it is a man.”
“Is this creature good or evil, priest?”
“What is man, great Methi?”
“Man,” snapped the Methi impatiently, “is the child of Nae. Whose child is he, priest?”
“I do not know, great Methi.”
Ylith lowered her eyes then, flicked a glance toward Kurt and down and back again. “Priest, I charge you, debate this matter within the college of priests and return me an answer. Take him with you if it will be needful.”
“Methi, I will consult with them, and we will send for him if his presence seems helpful.”
“Then you are dismissed,” she said, and let the priest go.
Then she left too, and Kurt sank down again against his pillar, confused and mortally tired and embarrassed. He was alone and glad to be alone, so he did not have to be so treated before friends or familiar enemies.