“Have you met many?”
“Pirates? Not as many as I’d like.” She patted the grass and I dropped down next to her, easing my satchel from across my chest. “I used to pretend my grandfather was, though. He was always gone, traveling.”
“Sailing the seven seas?”
“Nearly. Africa, India, the Far East. He’s a linguist, you see.” She said this with an air of confession, as though it were a shameful secret. “I haven’t seen him in years. I don’t even know where he’s at now. His last letter came from Ceylon.”
I cleared my throat. “Does he know about…”
“Yes.” Her hair swung out over her shoulders so that I couldn’t see her face. “I wrote to him. I told him about Father.”
A bird fluttered up from the tree, sending down a leaf onto Ripper’s nose. He sneezed and rolled over. “And your mother?”
She busied herself with her sketchbook. “Oh, I wrote to her, too. I’ve written to her almost every day for the past four years.” Her pencil scraped across the paper so hard the tip broke. “I only wish I had an address.”
I didn’t know the right thing to say. What to say to a girl whose mother ran off without a backward glance? Maman said that Maud Ross was passionate, vain, impulsive, and stubborn as a she-goat. She loved her friend to the end, but knew Maud would never return.
Cicadas filled the silence. I scooted closer. “So what are you drawing?”
“Nothing.” She hunched her shoulders. “A castle.”
The hem of Clare’s dress brushed my leg. “You’re drawing Mille Mots, aren’t you?”
“Are there any other castles around?”
I stretched. “It isn’t really, you know. Just the fantasy of a silly vicomte some centuries ago. He had royal aspirations.”
Maman fell in love with the château instantly, and Papa had his easel set up outside the tumbled-down old chapel before the first crate was unpacked. The gardens were left wild and overgrown, at her express instructions, and she spent all summer carefully cultivating that wildness. I spent my early years with the outdoors as my classroom. I learned to read amidst the scent of roses and river. Mille Mots was our little heaven.
“If I had such a house,” Clare said, “I’d have royal aspirations, too.”
“Not if you knew how much it cost to keep it from falling the rest of the way down.” I regretted the words right as I said them. This girl, with her fancy green dress, buttoned boots, proper British country house, she wouldn’t understand. With all of the money going towards this ragged château, to preserving this precious little bit of paradise, there was nothing left over, even for my tuition. I pushed out a smile, hoping she wouldn’t take me seriously. “But you’re right, it does look like a castle, lost here in the countryside.”
“I half expected a drawbridge to lower when we arrived.”
“I was always sure I’d find a sleeping princess hidden behind the roses and thorns.”
She glanced up from her sketchbook, a look of amusement in her eyes. “I didn’t realize boys read fairy tales.”
“They do when their fathers found their fame illustrating an edition of Perrault’s Les Contes de Ma Mère l’Oye.” I made a face.
“Perrault’s fairy tales?” The astringent smell of crushed grass rose as she sat up and brushed at a smear of green on her skirt. “Of course! ‘C. Crépet.’ It’s a pale blue book, isn’t it?”
I wasn’t surprised she knew it. The book had dogged me through my childhood. In boarding school the boys called me “Prince Charming.” “That’s the book.”
“It’s…what do they call it…art nouveau?”
“Don’t say that over the tea table if you want to avoid an argument. It’s the Glasgow School style, of course. Can we talk about something else?”
She settled herself back on the grass. “I hate fairy tales anyway.”
“That’s ridiculous. Who hates fairy tales?”
She tugged on a hair ribbon. “You do. You should’ve seen the look on your face when I mentioned I’d read the book.”
I hated that I was that easy to read. She, on the other hand, wasn’t. “You’re baffling.”
From her seat on the grass, she executed a mock curtsey. “Thank you.”
“Was that a compliment?”
“Wasn’t it?”
“Boys are so much easier. Nothing we say to each other is a compliment. We just expect everything to be an insult and we all get along fine.”
And for that, she smiled. It was only a little smile, but unexpected. It filled her whole face with light. I wondered how I could keep it from slipping away again.
“I know where Papa keeps his extra pencils,” I said quickly. “He won’t notice if we go to borrow a few.”
“Pencils?” She sat up straighter.
“Conté pencils,” I said. I stood up. “Freshly sharpened.”
She followed without further question, her sketchbook tucked under her arm, walking quickly as though any pause would cause me to reconsider the offer of the pencils. Ripper stayed under the tree, but Bede trotted along with us. I led Clare inside, up the stairs, to the part of the house that always smelled comfortingly like turpentine and linseed oil.
“We’re going to Monsieur Crépet’s studio?” she asked in a whisper. “Is it allowed?”
“Definitely not.” There were few things Papa disapproved of. Academic art. Yellow journalism. Spain. Anti-Dreyfusards. And people rummaging around in his studio. “Why do you think he keeps dueling pistols?”
She stopped stock-still in the hallway.
“Or blades? He’ll offer you a choice.”
“Stop teasing me,” she said, but she didn’t move from her spot on the hall rug.
“Don’t worry. I’ll be your second.” I reached out and tugged on her arm. “Don’t you remember? You’re safe with me.”
She looked down at my hand on her arm until I let go. “As long as you’re not leading me into trouble.”
“I thought ladies were impressed by feats of daring?”
“We’re certainly not impressed by assumptions.”
I bowed. “And the mademoiselle has won that duel.”
The hallway outside of Papa’s studio was quiet, but I waited a moment with my fingers on the door. I wasn’t as offhand as I pretended. Even Bede took one look at the studio door and bounded back downstairs, toenails clicking. Only when I was sure that there was not a sound from within did I push open the door.
The room was almost blinding after the dim, ruby-papered hallway. Windows stretched from ceiling almost to floor and, with no curtains anywhere, light shot enthusiastically into the studio. Papa was too enamored with shadow and changing light to let the south facing windows worry him. Overhead, cords crisscrossed the ceiling, with sockets for electric bulbs. Only the doorway was darkened, with piles of furniture and hatboxes and stacks of filmy fabrics on either side.
“It’s magnificent,” Clare exclaimed, stepping in.
Though I’d been in the room dozens of times, I understood. Papa’s studio had always filled me with an awe that I’d never admit. Not when I’d brushed aside his hopeful suggestions for the Glasgow School of Art or, as much as it pained him to suggest, “even the Académie des Beaux-Arts, if you must.” I couldn’t admit that, like a cathedral, Papa’s studio exuded a peace that I sometimes wished I had.
Clare traced a finger over the arch of the curved mauve sofa Papa used to pose subjects. “Is this where he painted the fairy-tale illustrations?”
“Some.” I went to the cabinet where I knew he kept supplies. “In the mornings he likes to work outside, by the river. Afternoons he’s in here.”
“The easel is empty.” She caught up the end of a diaphanous scarf and swirled it over her shoulders. “Where does he keep his paintings?”
I found new brushes, oil pastels, tubes of pigment, but no pencils. “The walls of the château.” I peered into the dark at the back of the shelf but only saw more tubes and a jumble of empty jars. “Or the walls of other châteaux. He does take commissions at times.”