Whatever, each time his soft, slender fingers touched the envelope, they jumped away, as if stung or shocked.
There would be an appropriate time, an appropriate place, to open the letter.
Soon now, he told himself as he moved along the sidewalk in and out of the shadows cast by the streetlight.
Soon now.
Guild had to be careful with the stuff. Put too much on and he smelled too sweet. A little was all he needed.
As he stood fresh from his bath in new black trousers, Leo Guild looked at the way the flesh of his chest had started to sag some beneath the wiry salt-and-pepper hair.
As if the stuff would magically make him younger, he splashed on a generous amount of the bay rum he’d bought at the barber-shop a few days earlier. He next combed his hair and then pulled on a newly laundered white boiled shirt.
Putting on a false grin so he could get a look at his teeth, Guild at the same time began patting his stomach. Even if his chest was starting to go, his stomach was pretty damn flat for a man his age. Pretty damn flat.
He went over and sat on the bed and pulled on clean white socks and then his black Texas boots.
He wanted a steak and some bourbon. Most especially he wanted the company of Clarise Watson.
He started thinking of the litde girl. It was usually like this. Anytime he was about to have himself some fun, the little girl came to mind. A priest had explained to him that this was one way of continuing to punish himself. The litde girl was always there to remind him of that day. Of his mistake. Of his guilt.
He went over and sat on the edge of the bed. He looked around the hotel room. He thought of all the men who had stayed in this room before him. Of their pleasures and of their shame, of their loneliness for families far away. It was as if this room was haunted by all of them, a jumble of ghostly voices and griefs, but no voice, no grief was any clearer than that of the little girl’s. He had never given a name to her, even though during the course of the trial-Guild ultimately acquitted-he heard it daily. But a name made her real in a way he could not deal with. She would always be just “the little girl.” It was easier that way, somehow.
He opened the door on the third knock. He carried his.44 along with him. When he saw who it was, he leveled the gun to point directly at the man’s stomach.
Victor Sovich was once again dressed like an opera star, complete with cape. This time he’d even added a top hat and cane. He said, “What’s that smell?”
Guild flushed. He felt like an eight-year-old discovered doing something terrible. Sovich was referring to the bay rum. Guild said, “Some goddamn man before me must have spilled a bottle of bay rum.”
Sovich sniffed. Then he smirked. “That must be it, Guild. Some man before you must have spilled a bottle of bay rum.” He seemed to take as much pleasure from mocking Guild as he had yesterday from beating him.
“What do you want, anyway?” Guild said.
“I wonder if you’d like to talk some business.”
“What kind of business?”
Sovich said, “Why don’t we go downstairs and have a drink?”
“You can tell me right here.”
“Is it all right if I come in?”
“No.”
“You’re still mad about yesterday?”
Guild didn’t say anything.
“It wasn’t anything personal, Guild. It’s just that you’re working for Stoddard. You know how it is.”
“Why are you working for Stoddard?”
“What?”
“You heard me. You keep saying he cheats you yet you keep right on coming back. There’s only one way to explain that.”
“And what would that be?” The smirk was back.
“He’s got something on you. Something he could use against you with the law.”
Now the smirk grew icy. “I’m going to assume Stoddard didn’t tell you anything, that you had this notion yourself.”
Guild just wanted Sovich out of his sight. “What kind of business do you want to talk about?”
“He’s going to short-count me again. He’ll take eighty percent and give me twenty percent. If I’m lucky.”
“That’s between you and Stoddard.”
“He’ll probably have you guard the gate money and the betting money.”
“So?”
“So you could take it all and give it to me.”
Guild hefted the.44 again. “Now why the hell would I do that?”
Just then an old man in a flannel robe came down from the bathroom. He smelled of hot water and sweat. It was much too hot for a flannel robe. He kept walking, but he gave them both a big blueeyed stare.
After the old man passed down the hall, Sovich said, “You’d do it because I’d pay you to do it. Fifteen percent of what you take from Stoddard you keep.”
“Maybe the fight won’t be as successful as you two think. Some of these fights people just don’t show up for.”
“Oh, they’ll show up for this one.” He smirked again. This expression was slightly different from the others. It was colder. “White folks always show up when a nigger’s going to get killed.”
“You ever think it could go the other way?”
“I never think that at all. Because it’s not going to.”
“I won’t do it.”
“You could make yourself a lot of money.”
“I could make you a lot of money, you mean. And that I’m against on principle.”
“You’re going to be old pretty soon, Guild. Principle won’t get you jack shit then. You’ll need money.”
Guild waved the.44 at Sovich. “Go on. Get out of here.”
“Fifteen percent, Guild. You could make yourself a lot of money.”
Guild slammed the door, but not before Sovich had a chance to smile again.
Guild went and sat on the edge of the bed until it was time to leave. He thought of the little girl. He wondered what she’d be doing now if she’d lived. Getting ready for the fall and high school, he thought. That was how he measured her years. Where she’d be in school.
Ninth grade now.
But of course that wasn’t going to happen.
He had seen to that.
Chapter Twelve
“Well,” said Clarise Watson, “I was bom in Illinois and I moved to Connecticut when I was twelve, where a white man was very much taken with me. He saw to it that I was educated and that I learned how to dress properly and that I had proper dental work. He was grooming me to work in his house, which meant, among other things, being his mistress. His wife was this very cold white-haired woman who was difficult for everybody to get along with, including her husband. I’m told that he’d had other mistresses before. She knew about them and would tease him with them. She would get one of the mistresses’ undergarments and leave it under his pillow. Or a gift he had given his mistress would be on his desk in the morning. She was the one with all the money, and all the power, and she never wanted to let him forget it. Finally she would make him so nervous and anxious that he couldn’t have sex with his mistress. He’d keep trying, but his wife leaving all these little hints would undo him. She took more pleasure in handling it this way than in just throwing the girls out. She liked humiliating him.
“As I said, I was told all this. When it was my turn-he liked his mistresses to have just turned sixteen-he took me by the hand and led me out to this guest house they kept down by a stream. He took me inside and took my clothes off one layer at a time. I’ve never seen a man more appreciative of a woman’s body. He was crying, and it was with pleasure.
“He carried me over to the bed and set me down on it and started to kiss me, and then it happened. I had no idea what was going on. He just started making these funny noises in his chest and throat, and then his eyes sort of started bugging out. I tried to help him, but I didn’t know what to do. I ran up to the mansion to get somebody to help, and I was so terrified that I didn’t even care that I was naked. Then she saw me, his wife. She came running out of the house with a riding crop, and I kept screaming that her husband was dying. But instead of running down to the cabin to see if she could help him, she started beating me. She must have beaten me for fifteen minutes. Finally I just passed out. She had them put me in the bam, in the haymow. They were under strict orders not to help me in any way. I stayed there for four days. I had to drink from the same trough the horses did. I got the chills so badly one night that I had to steal a blanket from a horse who was cold, too. I never forgot the look in his eyes. He seemed to know what I was doing and forgave me for doing it.