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Lokesh and Shan left before dawn, while the others still slept. As they left the valley the last stars of the night were twinkling on the surface of the lake, and the reflected blush of dawn made it seem as if the water were glowing. In the dim light he made out two figures at the far side of the lake, watching them. Even from the distance Shan knew it was Tenzin and Lhandro. The former abbot of Sangchi, who had died and been re-born, and the farmer who had lost his valley and found it again. The two men raised their hands in farewell, and lifted a long pole with a prayer flag attached to its end, as if in salute.

Tenzin had knelt by him when Shan had settled into his blanket the night before, and stared at him in silence so long Shan had asked if he needed to grow a new tongue again.

"I do not know if ever again I will have a journey such as that we have been on," Tenzin had said at last, closing both his hands around one of Shan's, pressing hard. "But if I do, I pray you will be with me."

When they stopped to eat cold tsampa on a flat ledge lit by the early rays of the sun, Lokesh was buoyant, speaking first of how Rapjung would look when he returned in a year's time, and then of how Somo had told him of a noodle shop in Beijing where he could get tsampa.

"There is a place I used to go," Shan said in a tentative voice. "A Taoist temple. The monks there will give you food and a pallet if you have no money. They may remember my name."

Lokesh looked at Shan warily.

Shan sighed. "I will draw you a map."

Lokesh uttered a sound like a laugh that echoed off the rocks, and Shan sensed the wall that had risen between them was melting away. They spoke in eager voices about Shan's old neighborhood and the dangers of walking in a city with so many automobiles.

Finally they packed away the food, and Lokesh lifted himself on the staff. "I am going to Beijing!" he shouted out, for no apparent reason. But when he took his first step the staff would not move. He pulled it, hard, but it did not budge. It was stuck in a fissure in the rock.

Lokesh stared at Shan, his eyes wide as he rubbed his white whiskers. "Was that crack in the rock there before?" he asked in a whisper. "I did not see it before."

"I don't know. I suppose so," Shan said in confusion.

Lokesh pulled again, to no avail, then let Shan try. The staff was lodged firmly in the stone. Lokesh twisted it, and pushed it, and pulled it again. Still nothing.

A strange cloud settled over the old Tibetan's face, and he sat on a nearby rock, staring at the staff- Jokar's staff- that held fast, protruding almost vertically from the ledge.

"I could bring some water to put on the stone," Shan suggested.

"It's not that," Lokesh said in a grim tone, and he began a mantra. After five minutes he tried the staff again, without effect. He wrapped both hands around the end of the staff, and stared at the top of Yapchi Mountain. "There are people to be healed in Beijing," he said in his loud voice again. "They have heart wind there, an epidemic of heart wind." He tried the staff again, without luck.

"I will find something else for a staff," Shan suggested. "You can lean on my back until then."

Lokesh did not look at him, just shook his head grimly. He spoke another mantra, looking at the mountaintop all the time as if conversing with it. Nearly a quarter hour passed, then he tried the staff again, without moving it. Finally he hung his head on his arms, still raised around the staff, and sighed. He looked back at Shan with a weary expression. "I never expected this," he said, and turned back to sit on the rock again. He stared into his hands for nearly five minutes, then rose to the staff again and fixed the mountain with a deliberate stare. "I will not go to Beijing to see that Chairman," he offered in his loud voice. He twisted the staff and it came free.

"All right," the old Tibetan said to Shan after examining the staff for a long time. "We will do it your way."

Shan cocked his head in inquiry.

"You know," Lokesh sighed. "We'll have to keep patching deities one at a time."

Shan said nothing, but picked up their bags and followed Lokesh as he hobbled down the trail. His old friend studied Yapchi Mountain while he walked, then picked a purple flower which he examined in silence.

After half a mile Lokesh paused again. "If we go to Rapjung," he called back, "we have to go on the low trail, the easy trail, because of my foot. I am sorry."

They walked along the stream until they reached a small rise in the land, where Lokesh raised his hand for Shan to stop, lowered himself onto a wide boulder, and reached into his pocket. His letter to the Chairman appeared in his hand and Shan watched, perplexed, as Lokesh unfolded the letter and seemed to read it. Then Lokesh straightened the paper over a rock and carefully began making new folds in it. He labored over the paper for several minutes, then hobbled to the top of the rise, his back to the wind. Shan followed, and as his old friend raised the paper in his extended arms Shan recognized it. Lokesh had crafted it into one of his spirit horses. He waited for Shan to reach his side, extended the horse over his head and released it. The paper floated lazily in the breeze, then suddenly a gust seized it and the paper soared away, scudding high toward the northeast horizon, toward Beijing.

"That Chairman in Beijing," Lokesh said in a cracking voice, "he could be driving in the mountains someday. His limousine could break down and he could be stranded. When he finds my paper it will work its magic. So he can travel to a new place on a good Tibetan horse."

They watched the paper until it was a tiny dot in the sky, and then it was gone. Lokesh turned back toward the old flooded road and without a word stepped away. For a long moment Shan watched him hobble across the rough landscape, then silently followed.

They had walked for another hour, following the rush of water from the valley, when Lokesh paused again, putting both hands on his staff as he studied the rock formations at the top of a low ridge across the stream, half a mile away.

Shan recognized the expression on his friend's face, and set the bags down.

"That rock," Lokesh said slowly, squinting toward the ridge, rubbing the white bristle on his jaw. "It is very like a formation my mother described once. She said it was actually a turtle deity just pretending to be a rock, that it would soar over the mountains at night." He looked at Shan with apology in his eyes. "She said it spoke the words of Buddha."

Shan studied the swift, shallow stream that separated them from the ridge, and the vast open landscape beyond. "It's going to take us a long time to get to Rapjung, isn't it?" he asked his friend.

Lokesh shrugged. "I could collect herbs along the way," he suggested, and extended his staff to Shan as he balanced on his good foot. "And you need to learn how to look for tonde."

Suddenly, unexpectedly, Shan smiled. Anchored to the earth by the lama's staff, he bent to let Lokesh climb onto his back, stepped into the stream, and set off in search of the turtle Buddha.

Glossary of Foreign Language Terms

Terms that are used only once and de.ned in adjoining text are not included in this glossary.

Amdo. Tibetan. One of the traditional provinces of Tibet, constituting the northeastern lands of historic Tibet. Renamed Qinghai Province by the People's Republic of China.

Bardo. Tibetan. A term used for the Bardo death rites, specifically referring to the intermediate stage between death and rebirth.