“I don’t mind,” she called over the running engine as he hoisted his holdall back onto his shoulder and made to extinguish the cigarette, “as long as you keep the window open.”
He climbed inside, shoved his bag into the back and slammed the door.
“You can’t make it smell worse than it already does,” said Robin, managing the stiff gears with her usual expertise. “It’s pure dog in here.”
Strike pulled on a seatbelt as they accelerated away from the pavement, looking around at the interior of the car. Shabby and scuffed, a pungent fug of Wellington boot and Labrador certainly pervaded. It reminded Strike of military vehicles that he had driven across all terrains in Bosnia and Afghanistan, but at the same time it added something to his picture of Robin’s background. This Land Rover spoke of muddy tracks and plowed fields. He remembered her saying that an uncle had a farm.
“Did you ever have a pony?”
She glanced at him, surprised. In that fleeting full-face look he noted the heaviness of her eyes, her pallor. She had clearly not slept much.
“What on earth do you want to know that for?”
“This feels like the kind of car you’d take to the gymkhana.”
Her reply had a touch of defensiveness:
“Yes, I did.”
He laughed, pushing the window down as far as it would go and resting his left hand there with the cigarette.
“Why is that funny?”
“I don’t know. What was it called?”
“Angus,” she said, turning left. “He was a bugger. Always carting me off.”
“I don’t trust horses,” said Strike, smoking.
“Have you ever been on one?”
It was Robin’s turn to smile. She thought it might be one of the few places where she would see Strike truly discomforted, on the back of a horse.
“No,” said Strike. “And I intend to keep it that way.”
“My uncle’s got something that’d carry you,” said Robin. “Clydesdale. It’s massive.”
“Point taken,” said Strike drily, and she laughed.
Smoking in silence as she concentrated on navigating through the increasingly heavy morning traffic, Strike noted how much he liked making her laugh. He also recognized that he felt much happier, much more comfortable, sitting here in this ramshackle Land Rover talking inconsequential nonsense with Robin than he had felt last night at dinner with Elin.
He was not a man who told himself comfortable lies. He might have argued that Robin represented the ease of friendship; Elin, the pitfalls and pleasures of a sexual relationship. He knew that the truth was more complicated, and certainly made more so by the fact that the sapphire ring had vanished from Robin’s finger. He had known, almost from the moment they had met, that Robin represented a threat to his peace of mind, but endangering the best working relationship of his life would be an act of willful self-sabotage that he, after years of a destructive on-off relationship, after the hard graft and sacrifice that had gone into building his business, could not and would not let happen.
“Are you ignoring me on purpose?”
“What?”
It was just plausible that he had not heard her, so noisy was the old Land Rover’s engine.
“I said, how are things with Elin?”
She had never asked him outright about a relationship before. Strike supposed the confidences of two nights ago had moved them onto a different level of intimacy. He would have avoided this, if he could.
“All right,” he said repressively, throwing away his cigarette butt and pulling up the window, which marginally reduced the noise.
“She forgave you, then?”
“What for?”
“For completely forgetting that you had a date!” said Robin.
“Oh, that. Yeah. Well, no — then, yeah.”
As she turned onto the A40, Strike’s ambiguous utterance brought to Robin a sudden, vivid mental image: of Strike, with his hairy bulk and his one and a half legs, entangled with Elin, blonde and alabaster against pure white sheets... she was sure that Elin’s sheets would be white and Nordic and clean. She probably had somebody to do her laundry. Elin was too upper middle class, too wealthy, to iron her own duvet covers in front of the TV in a cramped sitting room in Ealing.
“How about Matthew?” Strike asked her as they moved out onto the motorway. “How’d that go?”
“Fine,” said Robin.
“Bollocks,” said Strike.
Though another laugh escaped her, Robin was half inclined to resent his demand for more information when she was given so little about Elin.
“Well, he wants to get back together.”
“Course he does,” said Strike.
“Why ‘of course’?”
“If I’m not allowed to fish, you aren’t.”
Robin was not sure what to say to that, though it gave her a small glow of pleasure. She thought it might be the very first time that Strike had ever given any indication that he saw her as a woman, and she silently filed away the exchange to pore over later, in solitude.
“He apologized and kept asking me to put my ring back on,” Robin said. Residual loyalty to Matthew prevented her mentioning the crying, the begging. “But I...”
Her voice trailed away, and although Strike wanted to hear more, he asked no further questions, but pulled down the window and smoked another cigarette.
They stopped for a coffee at Hilton Park Services. Robin went to the bathroom while Strike queued for coffees in Burger King. In front of the mirror she checked her mobile. As she had expected, a message from Matthew was waiting, but the tone was no longer pleading and conciliatory.
If you sleep with him, we’re over for good. You might think it’ll make things even but it’s not like for like. Sarah was a long time ago, we were kids and I didn’t do it to hurt you. Think about what you’re throwing away, Robin. I love you.
“Sorry,” Robin muttered, moving aside to allow an impatient girl access to the hand-dryer.
She read Matthew’s text again. A satisfying gush of anger obliterated the mingled pity and pain engendered by that morning’s pursuit. Here, she thought, was the authentic Matthew: if you sleep with him, we’re over for good. So he did not really believe that she had meant it when she took off her ring and told him she no longer wished to marry him? It would be over “for good” only when he, Matthew, said so? It’s not like for like. Her infidelity would be worse than his by definition. To him, her journey north was simply an exercise in retaliation: a dead woman and a killer loose mere pretext for feminine spite.
Screw you, she thought, ramming the mobile back into her pocket as she returned to the café, where Strike sat eating a double Croissan’Wich with sausage and bacon.
Strike noted her flushed face, her tense jaw, and guessed that Matthew had been in touch.
“Everything all right?”
“Fine,” said Robin and then, before he could ask anything else, “So are you going to tell me about Brockbank?”
The question came out a little more aggressively than she had intended. The tone of Matthew’s text had riled her, as had the fact that it had raised in her mind the question of where she and Strike were actually going to sleep that night.
“If you want,” said Strike mildly.
He drew his phone out of his pocket, brought up the picture of Brockbank that he had taken from Hardacre’s computer and passed it across the table to Robin.
Robin contemplated the long, swarthy face beneath its dense dark hair, which was unusual, but not unattractive. As though he had read her mind, Strike said:
“He’s uglier now. That was taken when he’d just joined up. One of his eye sockets is caved in and he’s got a cauliflower ear.”