6
C i n n a m o n K i s s
“You mean like the Mafia?” I asked.
“Naw, man. That’s just a club. This here is straight business.
There’s a brother in Chicago that has men goin’ around the country scopin’ out possibilities. Banks, armored cars, private poker games — anything that’s got to do wit’ large amounts of cash, two hunnert fi’ty thousand or more. This dude sends his boys in to make the contacts and then he give the job to somebody he could trust.” Mouse smiled again. It was said that that diamond was given to him by a rich white movie star that he helped out of a jam.
“Here you go, baby,” Ginny said, placing his frosty glass on the pitted round table between us. “You need anything else, Easy?”
“No thanks,” I said and she moved away. Her footfalls were silent. All you could hear was the rustle of her black cotton trousers.
“So this guy knows you?” I asked.
“Easy,” Mouse said in an exasperated whine. “You the one come to me an’ said that you might need up t’ fi’ty thousand, right? Well — here it is, prob’ly more. After I lay out Jack Minor, Rayford gonna let you hit him in the head. We take the money an’ that’s that. I give you your share that very afternoon.”
My tongue went dry at that moment. I drank the entire glass of cola in one swig but it didn’t touch that dryness. I took an ice cube into my mouth but it was like I was licking it with a leather strip instead of living flesh.
“How does Rayford get paid?” I asked, the words warbling around the ice.
“What you care about him?”
“I wanna know why we trust him.”
Mouse shook his head and then laughed. It was a real laugh, friendly and amused. For a moment he looked like a normal 7
W a lt e r M o s l e y
person instead of the supercool ghetto bad man who came off so hard that he rarely seemed ruffled or human at all.
“The man in Chi always pick somebody got somethin’ t’ hide.
He gets shit on ’em and then he pay ’em for their part up front.
An’ he let ’em know that if they turn rat they be dead.”
It was a perfect puzzle. Every piece fit. Mouse had all the bases covered, any question I had he had the answer. And why not? He was the perfect criminal. A killer without a conscience, a warrior without fear — his IQ might have been off the charts for all I knew, but even if it wasn’t, his whole mind paid such close attention to his profession that there were few who could outthink him when it came to breaking the law.
“I don’t want anybody gettin’ killed behind this, Raymond.”
“Nobody gonna die, Ease. Just a couple’a headaches, that’s all.”
“What if Rayford’s a fool and starts spendin’ money like water?” I asked. “What if the cops think he’s in on it?”
“What if the Russians drop the A-bomb on L.A.?” he asked back. “What if you drive your car on the Pacific Coast Highway, get a heart attack, and go flyin’ off a cliff? Shit, Easy. I could
‘what if ’ you into the grave but you got to have faith, brother. An’
if Rayford’s a fool an’ wanna do hisself in, that ain’t got nuthin’ to do with what you got to do.”
Of course he was right. What I had to do was why I was there.
I didn’t want to get caught and I didn’t want anybody to get killed, but those were the chances I had to take.
“Lemme think about it, Ray,” I said. “I’ll call you first thing in the morning.”
8
2
Iwalked down the small alleyway from Cox Bar and then turned left on Hooper. My car was parked three blocks away because of the nature of that meeting. This wasn’t grocery shopping or parking in the lot of the school I worked at. This was serious business, business that gets you put in prison for a child’s lifetime.
The sun was bright but there was a slight breeze that cut the heat. The day was beautiful if you didn’t look right at the burned-out businesses and boarded-up shops — victims of the Watts riots not yet a year old. The few people walking down the avenue were somber and sour looking. They were mostly poor, either unemployed or married to someone who was, and realizing that California and Mississippi were sister states in the same union, members of the same clan.
I knew how they felt because I had been one of them for more 9
W a lt e r M o s l e y
than four and a half decades. Maybe I had done a little more with my life. I didn’t live in Watts anymore and I had a regular job. My live-in girlfriend was a stewardess for Air France and my boy owned his own boat. I had been a major success in light of my upbringing but that was all over. I was no more than a specter haunting the streets that were once my home.
I felt as if I had died and that the steps I was taking were the final unerring, unalterable footfalls toward hell. And even though I was a black man, in a country that seemed to be teeter-ing on the edge of a race war, my color and race had nothing to do with my pain.
Every man’s hell is a private club, my father used to tell me when I was small. That’s why when I look at these white people sneerin’ at me I always smile an’ say, “Sure thing, boss.”
He knew that the hammer would fall on them too. He forgot to say that it would also get me one day.
I drove a zigzag side street path back toward the west side of town. At every intersection I remembered people that I’d known in Los Angeles. Many of those same folks I had known in Texas.
We’d moved, en masse it seemed, from the Deep South to the haven of California. Joppy the bartender, dead all these years, and Jackson the liar; EttaMae, my first serious love, and Mouse, her man and my best friend. We came here looking for a better life — the reason most people move — and many of us believed that we had found it.
. . . You put a pistol to the back of the neck of the one come in last . . .
I could see myself, unseen by anyone else, with a pistol in my hand, planning to rob a big oil concern of its monthly payroll.
Nearly twenty years of trying to be an upright citizen making an 1 0
C i n n a m o n K i s s
honest wage and it all disappears because of a bucketful of bad blood.
With this thought I looked up and realized that a woman pushing a baby carriage, with two small kids at her side, was in the middle of the street not ten feet in front of my bumper. I hit the brake and swerved to the left, in front of a ’48 wood-paneled station wagon. He hit his brakes too. Horns were blaring.
The woman screamed, “Oh Lord!” and I pictured one of her babies crushed under the wheel of my Ford.
I jumped out the door, almost before the car came to a stop, and ran around to where the dead child lay in my fears.
But I found the small woman on her knees, hugging her children to her breast. They were crying while she screamed for the Lord.
An older man got out of the station wagon. He was black with silver hair and broad shoulders. He had a limp and wore metal-rimmed glasses. I remember being calmed by the concern in his eyes.
“Mothahfuckah!” the small, walnut-shell-colored woman shouted. “What the fuck is the mattah wit’ you? Cain’t you see I got babies here?”
The older man, who was at first coming toward me, veered toward the woman. He got down on one knee even though it was difficult because of his bum leg.
“They okay, baby,” he said. “Your kids is fine. They fine. But let’s get ’em out the street. Out the street before somebody else comes and hits ’em.”
The man led the kids and their mother to the curb at Florence and San Pedro. I stood there watching them, unable to move.
Cars were backed up on all sides. Some people were getting out 1 1
W a lt e r M o s l e y
to see what had happened. Nobody was honking yet because they thought that maybe someone had been killed.