But the tailor was defeated. He sank to the ground, a man who would hang himself if he had a rafter and a rope, his eyes dazed by the light that was consuming his life’s possessions, as if he had been displaced from his home by a visiting dragon. He looked vaguely in the direction of the ambulance siren and returned his stupefied gaze to his daughter, the girl who had left her homework on the heater. She was a plump girl who looked like she wished she were already dead. He lifted his eyes to his wife, who looked to Harry like a wrung-out rag, beyond tears. It wasn’t just their shop and home, it was their neighbors’ homes and shops, too, which involved the idiocy of honor and face. As a third house collapsed the tailor sucked air through his teeth and seemed to draw in his eyes to avoid the unbearable sight.
Harry opened his billfold and found a hundred-yen note. And another hundred-yen note, which cleaned him out. He pressed the money into the wife’s hand.
The tailor’s boy ran toward the fire, not directly in but obliquely around the firemen. A sack he had been holding had slipped from his hands, spilling small boxes. The boy bent forward as he ran, and Harry saw that he was chasing beetles perhaps two inches long. Every boy kept pet beetles at some point, kept and fed and pampered them. The beetles scuttled nimbly ahead, a miniature menagerie flying in short bursts, not so much drawn to the flames as confused by the fiery heat and glow. Even after a fireman seized the boy by the scruff of his neck and dragged him away from the flames, he struggled to break free. Harry followed the beetles through puddles of water and picked up the insects one by one, depositing them in his jacket pockets. The beetles were black beauties, some equipped with antlers, some with horns. Four had disappeared underfoot into the crowd, but Harry was satisfied that he had rounded up the majority, and when he delivered them, the boy identified each by name as he replaced them in their boxes.
From the peak of a ladder, a fireman swung his pole like an executioner’s ax and the house next door came down, front punched in, sides sliding together, a house of cards in a city of cards. Glutted, the fire took on a rosy glow that made Harry feel thoroughly baked. He noticed that his pants and sleeves were wet and smudged. He finally noticed by a reflection of the fire in sequined lapels that Michiko was in the crowd, watching him instead of the flames.
HARRY STANK SO MUCH of smoke that he went straight up to the apartment while Michiko closed the club. He undressed and soaped thoroughly at a bucket, sucked in his balls and sank into a tub of water so hot the steam was suffocating. When he was settled against the velvety wood, he lit a cigarette and let his head rest against the rim. A bath for Harry was both ritual and amniotic fluid. It was his context, the sea he swam in. His missionary parents had been too busy wearing out shoe leather on the byways of Japan to enjoy salubrious moments in a bath, but Harry had been brought up on his nurse’s back. That was how Japanese learned how to behave, bowing whenever their mother-or nurse-bowed. Who had washed him but his nurse? And what followed the washing? A bath veiled in steam, where Harry was as Japanese as the next man.
Through the steam, he noticed Michiko enter the narrow bathroom with Hajime’s gun. She aimed it at Harry. “Did you call her?”
“Who?”
“You know who.”
“Ah, this is one of those circular conversations.”
“Her.” The gun bobbed for emphasis.
“She couldn’t talk. Her husband was there.”
A Japanese face could be flat as paper, slits carved for the eyes and mouth. Michiko showed no emotion at all. “If we were married, you could have a mistress, I wouldn’t care. But I am your mistress. I could kill you and then me.”
She aimed at his head, his heart, his head. It was distracting. Also, he was too old for this. Suicide was for the young.
“Have you ever fired a gun before?” Harry asked. It was amazing what he didn’t know about Michiko.
“No.”
“I’ll bet you a hundred yen you can empty that gun at this range and not hit me.”
“Your life is worth that little? A hundred yen?”
“Eight shots, Michiko. You’re not going to get better odds than that.”
“I could do it so easily.”
“Keep your elbows flexed. You know, it’s moments like these that make me wonder what marriage with you would actually be like. Michiko, if you’re not going to shoot me, could you get me a drink?”
“So irritating. Why do you have a gun?”
“An old friend came by.”
“And left you this?”
“I’ll give it back tomorrow.” He pointed to the water. “Michiko, I do believe there’s room for you.”
“Harry, we know from experience there is not. Why are you giving a speech to bankers tomorrow?”
“Why not? I’m a respectable businessman.”
“Respectable? Have you ever looked at yourself, Harry?”
“Well, you’re not exactly the girl next door, either. Okay, I’m going to see bankers in the morning to screw them out of some money. I’m going to be charming and well rested. That means that right now I will enjoy a soak and a cigarette. Unless you are going to shoot me, of course.”
“You’re leaving, aren’t you?”
“I explained before that I can’t.”
“But you always have an angle.” The Nambu had a dart-shaped sight. Harry waited for it to waver. Not a millimeter. “Who is this?” Michiko asked.
Harry wafted steam aside and saw that in her other hand, Michiko held the newspaper picture of Ishigami. “Where did you get that?”
“Your German friend. Who is it?”
“An officer we knew in China. I guess he’s back.”
“Yes. He came to the club tonight after you left.”
As the news sank in, the bath seemed warmer.
“Tonight?”
“Yes.”
“Exactly what happened?” Harry asked.
“He went to the bar and asked for you. Kondo said he didn’t know where you were. The colonel asked where you lived, and Kondo said he didn’t know that, either. They talked a little.”
That was okay, Harry thought. The bartender had four sons in the military. Ishigami wouldn’t hurt Kondo. “Did he talk to anyone else?”
“The German.”
“Willie? What did Willie say?”
“He doesn’t speak Japanese. The colonel saw this picture on the table and was amused.”
Ishigami amused? That didn’t sound pretty.
“Was he in uniform?”
“Yes.”
“Did he threaten anyone?”
“No.”
Harry was relieved at that. Sometimes soldiers busted up cafés out of patriotic fervor. Harry paid for protection from that sort of agitation, and whether he was leaving town or not, he disliked being out good money.
“As soon as he was gone, I came looking for you.”
That was pure Michiko, Harry thought. She saw no contradiction in holding a gun on him while expressing concern for his safety.
“Then nothing really happened, right?”
Her eyes narrowed, and Harry waited. He could tell she was mustering an attack on a new front. “If there’s a war, what will you do?”
“There won’t be a war.”
“If there is.”
“There won’t be.”
“If.”
A man stands on a rock in a river, and sooner or later he slips. Harry regretted his words even as they left his mouth: “I’ll tell you what I’m not going to do. I’m not going to be a sucker, a fall guy, the chump left holding the bag.”
She lowered the gun.
“Ah. That’s all I need to know.”
“Michiko, don’t take that the wrong way. That doesn’t mean I’m skipping-”