But as love grew from their lust and their daily interactions progressed to a true joining of the minds, Marguerite realized how layered her lover was and how brilliant was his disguise. The proliferation of mistresses had not been entirely an affectation, of course, but he was not heartless. To this day he felt remorse for luring her to her "downfall."
When she had professed a similar regret for leading him away from his wife, he'd held her and revealed a surprising truth: Marchioness Saint-Martin-so pitied in private discourse for her husband's excesses-maintained her own lovers. Theirs was a marriage of duty. It was not unpleasant and they were both content to proceed with separate agendas.
Marguerite watched him shrug into his robe of black silk, then walk to the door. "I will miss you," she said. "If you are gone too long, I might cry out in the streets for you."
He paused on the threshold and arched a brow. "Mon Dieu, do not believe that nonsense. It was one woman and her brain was afflicted."
"Poor thing. However, I doubt it was her brain you were attracted to."
Philippe growled. "Wait up for me."
"Perhaps…"
He blew her a kiss and made his egress.
As he shut the bedchamber door behind him, Philippe's smile faded. He belted his robe more securely and descended the stairs to the lower floor. Good news was rarely delivered at this hour, so he approached the coming discussion with grimness. With the scent of sex and Marguerite still clinging to his skin, he was more aware than usual of how vital her presence was in his life. She kept him connected with his humanity, something he feared had been lost by years of pretending to be someone he was not.
The door to the parlor was open and he entered without slowing his stride, his bare feet crossing onto the rug from the cool marble of the foyer.
"Thierry," he greeted, startled by the identity of his visitor. "You were to report to Desjardins this evening."
"I did," the young man replied, his cheeks still flushed from his ride. "That is why I am here."
Philippe gestured for the courier to take a seat on the settee while he sank into a nearby chair.
Travel-stained and disheveled, Thierry sat gingerly upon the edge. Philippe smiled at the care displayed to protect the new burgundy velvet. When the home had served as a bastion for secret du roi agents, the furnishings had been abused without thought. But the house had been abandoned after a time, an oft-used tactic to avoid suspicion, and he had removed all traces of the house's former use and refilled it with luxuries suitable for the love of his life.
"I apologize for disturbing you," Thierry said wearily, "but I have been ordered to depart again in the morning and I could not chance missing you."
"What news is so urgent?"
"It regards Mademoiselle Piccard."
Straightening from his semireclined state, Philippe studied the courier alertly. "Yes?"
"When I arrived at Desjardins', he had a visitor and I was asked to wait outside his study. I do not think he realized how clearly his words travel."
Philippe nodded grimly, having always found it noteworthy that such a slightly built man would have such a booming voice. He did not, however, find it interesting that the man would be discussing Marguerite. It was alarming because, quite simply, his very sanity rested with her well-being and proximity. Comte Desjardins was young, ambitious, and hungry for the king's regard. Those qualities made him dangerous to those who stood in his way.
"I heard the name Piccard," Thierry said softly, as if he might be overheard, "and though I attempted to turn my thoughts elsewhere, I could nor help but listen more closely."
"Understandable. You cannot be faulted for hearing conversations spoken within earshot."
"Yes. Exactly." The courier offered a grateful smile.
"About Mademoiselle Piccard…?"
"Desjardins was discussing how preoccupied you seem of late and how best to manage it. It was suggested that Mademoiselle Piccard was to blame for your decreasing participation."
Philippe tapped his fingertips atop his knee. "Do you know who this visitor was?"
"No, I am sorry. He departed through a different door than the one I waited outside of."
As he blew out his breath, Philippe's gaze moved to the banked fire in the grate. This parlor was considerably smaller and less appointed than the one he shared with his wife, yet this residence was home to him. Because of Marguerite.
Who could have foreseen how a reluctantly accepted invitation from the Fontinescus would become the turning point of his life?
Thoughts of Marguerite filled his mind, and he smiled inwardly. He had been unaware of how the many diverse and competing aspects of his life had been affecting him negatively until she'd brought his attention to it.
"You are so tense," she noted one night, her slender fingers kneading into the sore muscles of his neck and shoulders. "How can I help?"
For a brief moment, he had considered forgetting his troubles with a few hours of passionate sex, but instead he found himself telling her things he told no one else. She had listened, then engaged in a discourse with him that brought to light alternate solutions.
"How clever you are," he'd said, laughing.
"Smart enough to choose you," she replied with a mischievous smile.
There was no doubt that even had he known how meeting her would affect him, he would change nothing. Her beauty was astonishing and a source of endless delight, but it was her pure heart and innocence that won his deeper regard. His love for her filled him with contentment, an emotion he had come to think was not meant for a man such as himself. His joy was nearly complete; his only regret was his inability to offer her the security of his name and title.
Philippe inhaled deeply and looked again at Thierry. "Is there more?"
"No. That is all."
"You have my gratitude." Philippe rose and moved to the escritoire in the corner. He opened it and withdrew a small purse. Thierry accepted the proffered coin with a grateful smile, then departed immediately. Philippe exited the parlor after him and sent the butler back to bed.
A few moments later he rejoined Marguerite. She lay curled on her side, her lustrous blond curls scattered atop a pillow, her sapphire blue eyes blinking sleepily. In the light of a single bedside taper, her pale skin glowed with the luminescence of ivory. She extended her hand to him and his chest ached at the sight of her, so soft and warm and filled with welcome. Other women had told him they loved him, but never with the fervency that Marguerite expressed. The depth of her affection was priceless. Nothing and no one would ever take her from him.
He shrugged out of his robe and rounded the bed to slip between the sheets behind her. He draped an arm over her waist and her fingers linked with his.
"What is it?" she asked.
"Nothing for you to be concerned with."
"Yet you are concerned, I can feel it." Marguerite turned in his arms. "I have ways to make you tell me," she purred.
"Minx." Philippe kissed her nose and groaned at the feel of her warm, silken limbs tangling with his. He related the conversation with Thierry and stroked the length of her spine when she tensed. "Do not be alarmed. This is a minor irritant, nothing more."
"What do you intend to do?"
"Desjardins has high aspirations. He needs to feel as if every man working with him is as committed. I am not, which was proven when I began rejecting any mission that would send me to Poland."
"Because of me."