He felt the presence of fire on his skin and in his memory. He saw a crouching figure wrapped in sheets of flame. He had to burn the evidence. Had to. Had he?
He tried to get up but felt he was standing already. Leaning against a cold wall. If he stood up he would fall over. Logic. Somebody had been playing with the world.
Buildings, trees, leaned over him.
Someone appeared. Pressed against the warped shape of everything. Corn and husk. Hands closed in prayer. Flowing upwards and inwards in sickening curves. A woman. Her head blending with the tops of — or perhaps just the sky. Was that Hilda?
‘Hilda?’
He couldn’t hear his voice, couldn’t tell if he had spoken. Only this rushing sound as if the night, the whole night with him inside it, was travelling somewhere very fast.
Now she was speaking. He strained to hear. Her mouth opened and closed like the mouth of a fish. Stretched at the corners sometimes. Painful. Water spilled out of his ears.
Her head moved closer, liquid at the edges. Was it Hilda?
He had to talk. He could see the words, but couldn’t get a grip on them. Slippery as fish and his lips like clumsy hands.
‘Tell Dolphin,’ he wanted to say. ‘Tell him Moses is alive.’
Simple.
Had he said it then?
Had Hilda understood?
Ah, so many pieces missing from this jigsaw.
He tried again. The same words. And something else.
‘And tell him — ’
Everything was caving in above him. The pain, the weight of the sky, the woman’s face, came crashing down through the darkness. He only had seconds.
‘— to kill Moses,’ he cried.
The woman held his head in her cool papery fingers.
She watched his lips turn the colour of his uniform.
She knelt there until she could no longer feel her legs, until the fire-engines blared round the corner.
The snow in her hair melted and ran down her face.
‘Christos,’ she whispered.
The man was dead.
*
Still clutching his giant pink teddy-bear, Dolphin swayed up the garden path. He was singing.
Oh I do like to be beside the seaside
Oh I do like to be beside the sea —
Policemen weren’t supposed to sing songs about being beside the seaside (or being anywhere, for that matter — apart from New Egypt, that is), but seven pints of homebrew with Hazard and the boys had washed away his usual circumspection. They had been celebrating the end of Pelting Day. A triumph, it had been. His triumph, in many ways. The most well attended Pelting Day in living memory. And if that didn’t deserve a celebration, what did? So they had celebrated. And now he was drunk. And when he was drunk he liked to sing songs about water. Sea-water, preferably. The ocean. Those expanses of water where his namesakes swam, expanses so vast that they filled his somewhat limited imagination many times over. Ocean. What a wonderful watery word.
‘Ocean,’ he said. ‘Ohhhhsssshhhun.’
His wife, Laura, opened the door. ‘Ssshhh,’ she said.
‘Ohhhhsssshhhh — ’ he began again. Thought she was joining in, you see.
‘Roger, please. Mrs Peach has phoned three times. Where’ve you been?’
‘Who?’
‘Mrs Peach.’
‘What’s she want?’
‘She’s worried. The Chief Inspector’s disappeared.’ She scraped a few strands of hair away from her creased white forehead.
‘Disappeared? Where?’
‘If she knew that,’ Laura said, ‘he wouldn’t have disappeared, would he?’
Dolphin let this piece of sophistry sink without trace in the swirling waters of his drunkenness. He lifted his right wrist. ‘Laura, it’s two-thirty in the morning, for Christ’s sake.’
‘The Chief Inspector’s been missing since nine o’clock, Roger, and you can leave Christ out of it,’ said Laura, who was religious.
Dolphin sighed.
‘Where’ve you been all this time anyway?’ she went on. ‘And what’s that thing?’
He pushed past her and walked into the dining-room. Then he wondered why he had walked into the dining-room. Peach had disappeared. Peach had been missing for almost six hours. Peach never went missing. Nobody ever went missing. This was bad. Very bad.
He had stopped in front of the mirror. When he looked up he suddenly saw the new Chief Inspector of New Egypt standing there. The new Chief Inspector of New Egypt was holding a giant pink teddy-bear. He would have to get rid of it, he decided. Otherwise nobody would take him seriously. Putting the teddy-bear down, he walked back into the hall. Then he picked up the phone and dialled Peach’s number.
In future fluffy animals would always remind him of death.
The Wooden Triangle
‘Thank you for driving me to the station like this.’
‘Don’t be silly, Moses.’ Auntie B’s face never lost its china stillness, its placidity, even when she chided him. ‘It’s been lovely to see you. You’ll come and see us again, won’t you?’
Now she was being silly. That hint of uncertainty (the legacy of his having discovered his real father?). He dismissed it with, ‘Of course I will.’
He had spent Christmas in Leicester — he had stayed over two weeks, in fact — grateful for the warmth, the soft ticking of clocks in the hallway, the small-scale dramas (the cat moulting, a blocked drain, a wine-stain on the dining-room table). He had eaten three meals a day and slept ten hours a night. Uncle Stan and Auntie B knew nothing and in their ignorance he found relief. His unease dissolved in their everyday routines. He left London behind, as he had once left the orphanage behind, and felt a great calmness settle. He told them about the contents of the suitcase, the trip down to New Egypt, the meeting with his father. He described his father as a sort of eccentric invalid and the village as one of those dull places in the middle of nowhere that nobody ever leaves, and was surprised at how much truth his carefully censored version of the facts contained (he only hid what might have worried them; about Peach, for instance, he said nothing). They listened and nodded, made all the right noises. They asked very few questions, thinking it no business of theirs, perhaps, or simply content with the parameters he had set. They had never tried to expand their role into areas where it didn’t belong, and they didn’t now. Their occasional references to the subject, though oblique, told him all he needed to know about the way they were thinking. For instance: ‘Well,’ Auntie B had said one night (and her eyes never once wandered from the TV screen), ‘you know you can always come here, Moses. You’ll always have a home here.’ He knew. Or as now: ‘You’ll come and see us again, won’t you.’ Of course he would.
‘Thank you for everything, Auntie B.’ He leaned over, kissed her on the cheek. ‘See you soon.’
He walked through the damp acidic air of the station — its draughty arches and its stained dripping brick had always reminded him of urinals — and boarded the train to London. His eyelids prickled. It was nine in the morning.
He was looking forward to late nights again. He wanted to sit at his fourth-floor window and feel the music ride up from below and gaze at those golden zips of light that ran down the slim dark buildings of the city. He wanted to thrash Elliot at pool, drink Eddie into oblivion, drive Vince to hospital, tease Jackson about the weather. He longed to be back. Where things happened. Among friends. He had even invented one or two strategies for dealing with the Peach threat (he would park his car further away, fit extra locks on the doors, buy a toy periscope for the kitchen window), and if they were a bit frivolous it was only his new confidence asserting itself.