“You look under the bed?” Rhys asked her.
“Not an idiot,” Kendra said. “Good thing, too. Found an empty beer can. I’ll do a walk-around outside, in case he tossed any.”
Rhys dangled a set of car keys from his index finger. “I’ll take the Hyundai. Let’s load as much as we can into the car. Anything that won’t fit, we’ll throw into the van. Hit the funeral home first, then the junkyard.”
She glanced at her watch. “Nearly two.”
“Any luck, we’ll have everything done by daybreak. I’m gonna sleep for a day.”
“You wish.”
They each took an end of the body bag and tossed it into the trunk of the Hyundai. They managed to get several bags in there, too, then filled the back seat. The remaining bags went into the back of the van.
They took a moment to catch their collective breath.
“I reek of bleach,” Kendra said. “Calling us cleaners, that’s supposed to be a euphemism.”
“You want to follow me or you want to head out first?”
“I’ll follow you. Not sure I remember the turn.”
“Shit. The phone.”
“I bagged the phone. It was by the laptop.”
“No, that was a burner. Cheap flip phone. He must have had a personal phone. There was a Verizon bill by the laptop.”
Kendra said, “It’s probably with him, in his pocket, in the body bag.”
“We’ll look for it later.”
They were both silent a moment. Rhys tipped his head back, put his right hand to his forehead as he looked up at the stars.
Then he brought down the hand, let out a long sigh, and said, “Two down. Seven to go.”
Three Weeks Earlier
One
New Haven, CT
“You’re dying.”
Dr. Alexandra Nyman was expecting some reaction when she delivered her diagnosis, but Miles Cookson was busy looking at his phone.
“Did you hear me?” Alexandra asked. “I know that’s blunt, but you’ve always told me to be straight with you. There’s no way to sugarcoat this.”
She’d come around her desk and was sitting in a leather chair next to Miles’s, angled slightly so that her right knee was inches away from his left. She held a file folder with half an inch of paperwork stuffed into it.
Miles, still staring at the phone, both thumbs tapping away, said, “I’m looking it up.”
“You don’t have to look it up,” she said. “I’m sitting right here. Ask me anything you want.”
He glanced at her. “You’re wrong, Alex. I can’t be dying. I’m fucking forty-two years old. It’s something else. Has to be. Look at me, for Christ’s sake.”
She did. Miles presented as someone in good shape. Five-eight, trim at 160 pounds. She knew he’d run marathons into his thirties, and still jogged a few times a week. Nearly bald, but he made it work in a Patrick Stewart kind of way.
“Miles, we did the tests and they—”
“Fuck the tests,” he said, putting down the phone and looking her in the eye. “All my so-called symptoms, you can put them all down to stress. Are you telling me you’ve never been short-tempered, or restless, or have things slip your mind now and then? And yeah, okay, I’ve been a bit clumsy. Falling over my own feet. But it can’t be what you’re saying.”
She said nothing, but decided to let him vent.
“Jesus,” Miles whispered. “How could I... It’s tension, stress, simple as that. You fucking doctors, you’re always looking for trouble where there isn’t any. Finding a way to justify all those years you went to school.”
Alexandra frowned, but not critically. She understood the anger.
“Sorry,” Miles said. “Cheap shot.”
“It’s okay.”
“It’s... it’s a lot to take in.”
“I know.”
“It’s not stress, is it?”
“If all you had was some restlessness, a bit of forgetfulness, even the odd mood swing, I would agree with you. But stress doesn’t explain the involuntary body movements, the jerking, the twitching you’ve been—”
“Fuck,” he said. “Fuck fuck fuck.”
“And I should clarify what I said, about you dying. There’s no cure, there’s nothing we can do. I can prescribe tetrabenazine, which will help with your symptoms when they become more pronounced, but it’s not a cure.”
Miles laughed sardonically. “Why couldn’t it have been cancer? There’s stuff they can do for cancer. Cut it out, hit it with chemo. But this?”
“There’s no getting around it,” Alexandra said. “Huntington’s... it’s like you take Alzheimer’s, ALS, and Parkinson’s and put them all into a blender. Your symptoms are very similar to any of those.”
“But worse.”
She said nothing.
“The other day,” he said, “I wanted to put one foot in front of the other, something as simple as that, and my brain was like, no way, Jose. Not happening. And then, a second later, it was okay. Dorian, my assistant, had set up a meeting, told me all the details. Five minutes later, I could barely remember any of it.”
“I know.”
“I go through periods, I feel restless, like my skin’s crawling, I have to do something, I can’t relax.” He paused. “How bad will it get?”
“It’s a brain disease,” she said matter-of-factly. “You’ll lose more and more motor control. Unlike ALS, where you can remain mentally sharp while your body’s ability to do things deteriorates, Huntington’s will impact your cognitive abilities.”
“Dementia,” Miles said.
The doctor nodded. “There will come a point where you will need constant care. There is no cure. They’re working on it, and they’ve been working on it for some time. One of these days, it’ll happen.”
“But not soon enough to help me,” he said.
Alexandra said nothing.
“Who’s doing the research? How much money do they need? I’ll cut them a check so they can get off their asses and do something. What do they need? A million? Ten million? Tell me. I’ll write them a check tomorrow.”
The doctor leaned back in her chair and folded her arms. “This isn’t something you can buy your way out of, Miles. Not this time. All the money in the world won’t bring about a cure overnight. There are some very dedicated people working on this.”
Miles turned his head, looked out the window as he took that in. “How long?”
“Well, that’s the thing. Whether it’s Huntington’s, or cancer, or your heart, whatever, predicting life expectancy is a mug’s game. Look at Stephen Hawking. When he was diagnosed with ALS — you know, Lou Gehrig’s disease — they gave him two years. He lived for several more decades. Last year, I had someone in for a checkup, gave the guy a clean bill of health. Dropped dead two days later of a heart attack.”
“This isn’t helpful,” Miles said.
“I know. For you, it could be four or five years, maybe less, or maybe you’ve got twenty years. When we did your genetic test, we were looking for a high nucleotide repeat. Below thirty-six the likelihood of Huntington’s is much less, but when you get up around thirty-nine, then you’re—”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about. Apps, I understand. DNA stuff, not so much.”
Alexandra nodded her understanding. “Sorry. Too technical. Look, we’re going to want to do regular assessments, see how you’re doing. That may give us a better understanding of your long-term prognosis.”
“I could live a long time, but it could be hell,” he said.
“Yes. Here’s the bottom line. You know what you’ve got. If there are things you want to do, things you want to accomplish — amends you want to make — now is as good a time as any. Maybe you end up doing it with plenty of time to spare. But a diagnosis like this, it sharpens your focus. Helps you set priorities.” She sighed. “I’m sorry, Miles. I’ll be with you every step of the way.” She paused. “There’s something else we should talk about.”