"We've come for him, sir," said the taller one of them, pointing at me.
"Stable lad, name of Daniel Roke."
"Yes, he reported Miss Tarren's illness…"
"No, sir, it's nothing to do with a Miss Tarren or her illness. We want him for questioning on another matter."
The doctor said, "He's not in very good shape. I think you had better go easy. Can't you leave it until later?"
"I'm afraid that's impossible, sir."
They both came purposefully over to where I sat. The one who had done the talking was a red-headed man about my own age with an unsmiling wary face. His companion was slightly shorter, brown eyed, and just as much on guard. They looked as if they were afraid I was going to leap up and strangle them.
With precision they leaned down and clamped hard hands round my forearms. The red-head, who was on my right, dragged a pair of handcuffs from his pocket, and between them they fastened them on my wrists.
"Better take it quietly, chum," advised the red-head, evidently mistaking my attempt to wrench my arm free of his agonizing grip as a desire to escape in general.
"Let… go," I said.
"I'm not… running anywhere."
They did let go, and stepped back a pace, looking down at me. Most of the wariness had faded from their faces, and I gathered that they really had been afraid I would attack them. It was unnerving. I took two deep breaths to control the soreness of my arm.
"He won't give us much trouble," said the dark one.
"He looks like death."
"He was in a fight," remarked the doctor.
"Is that what he told you, sir?" The dark one laughed.
I looked down at the handcuffs locked round my wrists: they were, I discovered, as uncomfortable as they were humiliating.
"What did he do?" asked the doctor.
The red-head answered, "He… er… he'll be helping in inquiries into an attack on a racehorse trainer he worked for and who is still unconscious, and on another man who had his skull bust right in."
"Dead?"
"So we are told, sir. We haven't actually been to the stables, though they say it's a shambles. We two were sent up from Clavering to fetch him in, and that's where we're taking him back to, the stables being in our area you see."
"You caught up with him very quickly," commented the doctor.
"Yes," said the red-head with satisfaction.
"It was a nice bit of work by some of the lads. A lady here telephoned to the police in Durham about half an hour ago and described him, and when they got the general call from Clavering about the job at the stables someone connected the two descriptions and told us about it. So we were sent up to see, and bingo… there was his motor-bike, right number plate and all, standing outside the college door."
I lifted my head. The doctor looked down at me. He was disillusioned, disenchanted. He shrugged his shoulders and said in a tired voice, "You never know with them, do you? He seemed… well… not quite the usual sort of tear away And now this." He turned away and picked up his bag.
It was suddenly too much. I had let too many people despise me and done nothing about it. This was one too many.
"I fought because they attacked me," I said.
The doctor half turned round. I didn't know why I thought it was important to convince him, but it seemed so at the time.
The dark policeman raised an eyebrow and said to the doctor, "The trainer was his employer, sir, and I understand the man who died is a rich gentleman whose horses were trained there. The head lad reported the killing. He saw Roke belting off on his motor-bike and thought it was strange, because Roke had been sacked the day before, and he went to tell the trainer about it, and found him unconscious and the other man dead."
The doctor had heard enough. He walked out of the room without looking back. What was the use of trying? Better just do what the red-head said, and take it quietly, bitterness and all.
"Let's be going, chum," said the dark one. They stood there, tense again, with watchful eyes and hostile faces.
I got slowly to my feet. Slowly, because I was perilously near to not being able to stand up at all, and I didn't want to seem to be asking for a sympathy I was clearly not going to get. But it was all right:
once upright I felt better; which was psychological as much as physical because they were then not two huge threatening policemen but two quite ordinary young men of my own height doing their duty, and very concerned not to make any mistakes.
It worked the other way with them, of course. I think they had subconsciously expected a stable lad to be very short, and they were taken aback to discover I wasn't. They became visibly more aggressive:
and I realized in the circumstances, and in those black clothes, I probably seemed to them, as Terence had once put it, a bit dangerous and hard to handle.
I didn't see any sense in getting roughed up any more, especially by the law, if it could be avoided.
"Look," I sighed, 'like you said, I won't give you any trouble. "
But I suppose they had been told to bring in someone who had gone berserk and smashed a man's head in, and they were taking no chances.
Red-head took a fierce grip of my right arm above the elbow and shoved me over to the door, and once outside in the passage the dark one took a similar grip on the left.
The corridor was lined with girls standing in little gossiping groups.
I stopped dead. The two policemen pushed me on. And the girls stared.
That old saying about wishing the floor would open and swallow one up suddenly took on a fresh personal meaning. What little was left of my sense of dignity revolted totally against being exhibited as a prisoner in front of so many intelligent and personable young women. They were the wrong age. The wrong sex. I could have stood it better if they had been men.
But there was no easy exit. It was a good long way from Elinor's room to the outside door, along those twisting corridors and down two flights of stairs, and every single step was watched by interested female eyes.
This was the sort of thing one wouldn't be able to forget. It went too deep. Or perhaps, I thought miserably, one could even get accustomed to being hauled around in handcuffs if it happened often enough. If one were used to it, perhaps one wouldn't care. which would be peaceful.
I did at least manage not to stumble, not even on the stairs, so to that extent something was saved from the wreck. The police car however, into which I was presently thrust, seemed a perfect haven in contrast.
I sat in front, between them. The dark one drove.
"Phew," he said, pushing his cap back an inch.
"All those girls." He had blushed under their scrutiny and there was a dew of sweat on his forehead.
"He's a tough boy, is this," said Red-head, mopping his neck with a white handkerchief as he sat sideways against the door and stared at me.
"He didn't turn a hair."
I looked straight ahead through the windscreen as the lights of Durham began to slide past and thought how little could be told from a face. That walk had been a torture. If I hadn't shown it, it was probably only because I had by then had months of practice in hiding my feelings and thoughts, and the habit was strong. I guessed correctly that it was a habit I would find strength in clinging to for some time to come.
I spent the rest of the journey reflecting that I had got myself into a proper mess and that I was going to have a very unpleasant time getting out. I had indeed killed Adams. There was no denying or ducking that. And I was not going to be listened to as a respectable solid citizen but as a murdering villain trying every dodge to escape the consequences. I was going to be taken at my face value, which was very low indeed. That couldn't be helped. I had, after all, survived eight weeks at Humber's only because I looked like dregs. The appearance which had deceived Adams was going to be just as convincing to the police, and proof that in fact it already was sat on either side of me in the car, watchful and antagonistic.