“But can’t you have both?” she said. “A career and still be true to your art?”
“Well, sure. But it only seems to work at a grassroots level. For every multi-platinum artist, there are any number of bands making far more interesting music that have trouble selling even two or three thousand copies of an album.” He shrugged. “You can still make a living at it, but you have to be willing to do most of it on your own—all those things the labels and a good manager used to be able to do for you. Promotion, setting up the tours, even getting together the money you need for recording and then pressing your CDs.”
Ellie supposed it was depressingly true for all the arts. The only thing that was different was the medium one picked to work in. Some chose music, some dance, some fine art…
Don’t focus on it, she told herself. She’d come here tonight to get away from that kind of thinking, however true it might be.
“One of the things I like about this music,” she said, to change the subject, “is how it appeals to such a diversity of people while still remaining true to itself.” She looked out at the dancers. “Yuppies and punkers, rich and poor, old and young. There’s a complete cross section of people out there on the dance floor—not to mention those who’d rather just listen. Like those guys standing at the back there. I mean, do they seem to be the sort of people you’d expect to like this music?” She laughed. “Though maybe ‘like’ is too strong a word. They don’t seem to be having much of a good time—at least not nearly so much as the dancers.”
Hunter glanced in the direction she indicated, then looked away.
“The hard men,” he said.
Ellie nodded. “That’s what Donal calls them. You see them in The Harp from time to time, and they never seem to be having any more fun there either. I wonder why they bother to come out.”
“Donal says they beat him up one night.”
“I remember. It was like some stupid macho initiation. First they beat him up, then they’re all friendly with him the next time they see him. Or what passes for friendly with that bunch. It really makes you wonder about people, doesn’t it?”
“I’m guessing that they must be carrying around a lot of anger,” Hunter said.
“But that shouldn’t be an excuse.”
“I wasn’t excusing them.”
“I didn’t think you were,” Ellie told him. “I just get frustrated about that kind of thing. I see so much of that on the streets. You wonder how all those people who must once have been so full of hope grow so lost. And angry. Some take it out on themselves, some take it out on others.”
Hunter turned to look at her. “That’s right. You’re involved with one of Angel’s projects, aren’t you?”
“Part-time. We’re the ones that drive around in the vans at night.”
“I don’t know how you can do it. Where do you find the time?”
Ellie smiled at him. “Well, it does play havoc with my social life. It seems like half the time I can’t date because we’re out in the van and the other half I’m too tired to do anything but veg at home. It doesn’t exactly make me scintillating company.”
“Is that what happened with you and…”
Hunter’s voice trailed off and he got an embarrassed look on his face.
“Me and Donal?” Ellie finished for him.
“Sorry. I didn’t mean to pry.”
“That’s okay.” Ellie looked out at the dancers again, not really seeing them, before she went on. “No, it wasn’t that. It was more that I ended up realizing we’d make better friends.” She returned her attention to Hunter. “Not that lovers shouldn’t be friends as well. I never can understand why people don’t concentrate on the friendship part of their relationship more than they do. There’d be a lot less divorces and breakups if they did.”
“I think you’re right. That’s what got to me with Donal’s teasing the other night. I started thinking about how Miki and I are such good friends, and how that seemed to automatically preclude us having any other sort of a relationship.”
Ellie smiled. “So Donal was right. You do fancy her.”
Hunter shook his head. “No. I keep finding myself looking at her and wondering about it, but I know it’s not like that. What it really got me thinking about was how that lack of a solid friendship was what made my last relationship fall apart. After that big buzz that comes when you first connect, we just became a habit to each other. Turns out we weren’t so good at the friendship part.”
“You’re talking about Ria?”
He looked surprised.
“We’re a small crowd,” Ellie said with a sympathetic smile. “And much prone to gossip.”
“No kidding. I suppose Donal told you about it.”
Ellie shook her head. “No, Jilly did.”
“It is a small crowd, isn’t it?”
“Pretty much. But don’t worry,” she added. “It’s not like all the details are making the rounds.”
“I guess I should be grateful for that.”
Ellie smiled. “But it does feel weird when it’s our own lives that become grist for the old gossip mill.”
“Tell me about it. Imagine what it’d be like to be famous and to have to read about all your personal ups and downs in the tabloids.”
“No thanks.”
“But I haven’t even asked you anything yet,” a new voice said.
They both looked up to find Jilly standing in front of them, hands on her hips. Her cheeks were flushed, blue eyes sparkling, and a light sheen of perspiration dampened her brow. Loose strands of hair clung to her temples, having escaped from the bun she’d put up in a futile attempt to tame her usual unruly locks. Ellie didn’t think she knew anyone who could cram so much energy into one petite package. Jilly had been dancing since the moment the group of them had arrived and didn’t seem to be even remotely ready to stop. She grinned at the pair of them, her good humor so infectious that Ellie couldn’t help but smile back.
“I know Donal can be a poop,” Jilly said, “but I expected better from you, Ellie. This isn’t a night to be wallflowering it—it’s a night for silly feet and general hullabalooing. So come on.” She took them both by the hand and gave them a tug towards the dance floor. “The band needs our warm bodies thrown about in mad jigging and reeling to keep them all revved up.”
Ellie and Hunter looked at each other, then set their drinks against the wall and let her pull them to where the rest of their friends were dancing.
“Nice to see you out and about,” Jilly said to Hunter.
Ellie had another smile as Hunter gamely tried to get into the swing of things.
“I hear you’ve been telling tales out of court,” he said.
“Only the nicest ones,” Jilly assured him. “Just to let everyone know that you’re available once more. Wouldn’t want you to get all lonely—or worse, all morose like himself.”
“She means Donal,” Ellie told him.
“I knew that.”
9
After the show, Hunter stayed behind with Ellie and her friends to help put away the chairs and generally clean up the community center. It turned out that most of them were members of the Newford Traditional Music Society—no surprise there, Hunter thought, considering how much they seemed to like the music. The rest, like himself, were simply willing to pitch in and give a hand.
They were a much nicer group of people that he’d expected them to be, and that was a surprise. He’d met a number of them before, in the record store, or through Ria at various parties, gallery openings, and the like, but he’d never really interacted with them in the same way as he had tonight.