The Scream man talks about the film he’s going to make “about a place like Mac,” starring Boulder and the Flying Nun, but Amaryllis doesn’t hear a word: her heart pounds away as she gathers the nerve to approach her after the talk. She plays out the encounter in her head, wondering if Boulder will remember her. She was just reading about her in a magazine at the cottage — the “What’s in Your Makeup Bag?” column of Twist, where they asked Ms. Langon that very thing. Now she stares at Boulder’s Prada purse to calm herself, trying to recall the starlet’s exact response, forcing herself to do a real-time inventory, neuro-perceptually retraining her brain to organize data: a Power Bar and my StarTAC, she said, and lots of sunscreen … — lots of lipsticks … — yes! that’s right. There were lipsticks and lotions that Boulder called “Mac” (for MacLaren?) …
They wanted to know when the movie would be made and if they were going to use any kids from the center. They wanted to know when he was going to make another Scream. They asked Boulder about T’morrow, her show on The WB. They asked how much money she made and where she went to school and if she had a boyfriend — everyone laughed when a cracked voice called out, “Do you want one?” Boulder said she was waiting to find a soul mate (the same thing she said in the article Amaryllis read in All About You!), which elicited more hoots, whistles and offers, quickly suppressed by staff. The last thing she said, with almost rehearsed gravitas, was that her “prime aspiration” was to attend a place called Yale just like her friend Claire Danes, whom she recently had the privilege of meeting at an “affiliates” luncheon at the Ritz-Carlton in Pasadena.
The Scream man brought some CDs and signed glossies, and the boys scrambled for them while most of the girls went over to Boulder, who signed T-shirts, forearms and scraps of paper with her name. The Flying Nun stood off to the side with the fawning staff. Amaryllis thought her best chance was to wait by the door. She stood there patiently, imagining the encounter again, but just when it looked like Boulder was about to leave, a staffer came up to Dézhiree, who then told Amaryllis she had a visitor.
“Who?”
“A visitor,” she slyly remonstrated.
It had to be Lani, with news of the babies.
When she returned to the cottage, Amaryllis was met by a Mac psychologist.
As they walked, she cheerfully engaged the girl in pleasantries, or at least tried to, before arriving at a far-corner office of the main building’s second floor.
Instead of Lani, there stood a man in a brown shirt and thick brown tie. He reintroduced himself as Samson Dowling, the “public servant” who had picked her up at “the Hotel Higgins.” He remarked on how pretty she looked.
“Are they taking care of you?” he bantered, with a wink to the therapist, not really expecting an answer. Amaryllis shrugged diffidently. She wanted to know if he was a policeman, and he said kind of — a detective. He said detectives helped find people. He asked if she really remembered him; the foundling nodded tenuously.
“That’s OK,” he said. “You weren’t in the greatest shape. You’ve been through an awful lot.” He said it was nice to see her looking so much healthier and what a sick little puppy she had been. Then he crinkled his eyes and asked if they could talk about her “friend.”
“Lani?”
“Not Lani,” he said, smiling. “The big fellow. Do you remember me asking about him before? Well, he’s a friend of yours, at least I think he is, and I wanted to ask a few questions about him. Do you think that would be OK?” She nodded. “Can you tell me his name? He’s a pretty unforgettable fellow from how I’ve heard him described! Big beard, very strong. Wears ‘interesting-looking’ suits; probably a better dresser than I am.” He winked at the psychologist again. “Can you remember his name, Amaryllis?”
“Topsy …”
“Yes! That’s right. Was Topsy a nice man?” She nodded. “You got along OK?” Another nod. “I’m going to ask you to remember a few more things, OK? Is that OK, Amaryllis? When you left your mom at the rooming house — remember how they chased after you? That must have been pretty scary, huh. When you left your mom, where did you go?”
“I don’t know.”
“Did you wander around awhile? You were probably frightened, and a little hungry. Did you go see Topsy?”
“He found me.”
“He found you? Where?”
“The building.”
“Which building? The place where we met? The empty building down the street from the St. George?” She nodded. “OK, good. Thank you for helping me answer some of these questions — that’s a big help. Because I’m an older guy, and this way I don’t have to run around so much. Now, after Topsy found you, what did you do? Did you talk? Did you have a little supper?—”
“We went to sleep.”
Detective and psychologist exchanged glances. “You went to sleep. OK. You were tired. You were both probably tired. Now, I want you to be truthful with me, Amaryllis, because I’ll always be truthful with you. OK? Fair enough. Someone saw you — you and your friend Topsy — someone saw the two of you leave that building very late at night. Do you remember that?” She nodded, staring at the floor. “The person who saw you and your friend said Topsy was carrying you. Was he carrying you against your will?”
Amaryllis thought he was asking how she was being carried; the therapist saw her confusion and intervened. “What the detective means,” she said, “is did you not want to go with him. Did your friend make you—”
She shook her head vigorously, still staring groundward. A finger was now in her mouth, and she chewed it.
“Why was he carrying you, Amaryllis?” asked the detective.
“Because I was sleeping.”
“Because you were sleeping. I see. OK. And where did Topsy take you?” She said nothing. “Did he take you to the bakery? Where Gilles works?” She nodded. “Did he say why he was taking you there?”
“He said it would be ‘no good with him.’ That Gilles was his friend. He said Gilles would do ‘right well’ by me.”
“Did he mean that Gilles would take care of you?”
“He said not to say he brought me there.” She looked up, her face filled with worry. “Is Topsy in trouble?”
“He may be,” said the detective. “Would you like to help him? You would, wouldn’t you. Well, he’s missing and we’d like to talk to him — Gilles and Lani want to help him, too. Everyone wants to help him. How long did the two of you know each other?”
“Not very long.”