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‘I sure did.’

‘He sent you a message.’ He handed me the paper. I read the neatly typed words.

Tell that Pommie painter Thanks.’

‘Will you send a message back?’

He nodded. ‘What is it?’

‘No sweat,’ I said.

I stood in the dark outside my cousin’s house, looking in.

He sat in his lighted drawingroom, facing Regina, unframed on the mantelshelf. I sighed, and rang the bell.

Donald came slowly. Opened the door.

‘Charles!’ He was mildly surprised. ‘I thought you were in Australia.’

‘Got back yesterday.’

‘Come in.’

We went into the kitchen, where at least it was warm, and sat one each side of the table. He looked gaunt and fifty, a shell of a man, retreating from life.

‘How’s business?’ I said.

‘Business?’

‘The wine trade.’

‘I haven’t been to the office.’

‘If you didn’t have a critical cash flow problem before,’ I said. ‘You’ll have one soon.’

‘I don’t really care.’

‘You’ve got stuck,’ I said. ‘Like a needle in a record. Playing the same little bit of track over and over again.’

He looked blank.

‘The police know you didn’t fix the robbery,’ I said.

He nodded slowly. ‘That man Wall... came and told me so. This morning.’

‘Well, then.’

‘It doesn’t seem to make much difference.’

‘Because of Regina?’

He didn’t answer.

‘You’ve got to stop it, Donald,’ I said. ‘She’s dead. She’s been dead five weeks and three days. Do you want to see her?’

He looked absolutely horrified. ‘No! Of course not.’

‘Then stop thinking about her body.’

‘Charles!’ He stood up violently, knocking over his chair. He was somewhere between outrage and anger, and clearly shocked.

‘She’s in a cold drawer,’ I said, ‘And you want her in a box in the cold ground. So where’s the difference?’

‘Get out,’ he said loudly. ‘I don’t want to hear you.’

‘The bit of Regina you’re obsessed about,’ I said, not moving, ‘is just a collection of minerals. That... that shape lying in storage isn’t Regina. The real girl is in your head. In your memory. The only life you can give her is to remember her. That’s her immortality, in your head. You’re killing her all over again with your refusal to go on living.’

He turned on his heel and walked out. I heard him go across the hall, and guessed he was making for the sittingroom.

After a minute I followed him. The white-panelled door was shut.

I opened the door. Went in.

He was sitting in his chair, in the usual place.

‘Go away,’ he said.

What did it profit a man, I thought, if he got flung over balconies and shot at and mangled by rocks, and couldn’t save his cousin’s soul.

‘I’m taking that picture with me to London,’ I said.

He was alarmed. He stood up. ‘You’re not.’

‘I am.’

‘You can’t. You gave it to me.’

‘It needs a frame,’ I said. ‘Or it will warp.’

‘You can’t take it.’

‘You can come as well.’

‘I can’t leave here,’ he said.

‘Why not?’

‘Don’t be stupid,’ he said explosively. ‘You know why not. Because of...’ His voice died away.

I said, ‘Regina will be with you wherever you are. Whenever you think of her, she’ll be there.’

Nothing.

‘She isn’t in this room. She’s in your head. You can go out of here and take her with you.’

Nothing.

‘She was a great girl. It must be bloody without her. But she deserves the best you can do.’

Nothing.

I went over to the fireplace and picked up the picture. Regina’s face smiled out, vitally alive. I hadn’t done her left nostril too well, I thought.

Donald didn’t try to stop me.

I put my hand on his arm.

‘Let’s get your car out,’ I said, ‘And drive down to my flat. Right this minute.’

A little silence.

‘Come on,’ I said.

He began, with difficulty, to cry.

I took a long breath and waited. ‘O.K.,’ I said. ‘How are you off for petrol?’

‘We can get some more...’ he said, sniffing, ‘... on the motorway.’