“Everything okay?” he asks.
“I’m sorry,” I say quietly. “She’s fine.”
But Hannah’s not done. “Excuse me! Excuse me!” she calls to the bartender. “Did you see what just happened here? I was saving my friend a seat and he took it and then… now… he just pushed her!”
The bartender stares at Hannah. She rubs her forehead with nicotine yellow fingers and looks to Tony.
“Can I get a towel, Maureen?” says Tony. Maureen tosses him a towel.
“Here you go, man,” he says. “This round’s on me.”
The wet patron nods and wipes off his coat.
“I’m sorry,” I say again, putting my hand on his back. Tony smiles at me and winks.
“Why are you saying sorry?” says Hannah.
“Can I get you ladies another couple drinks?” asks Tony. It shouldn’t surprise me that he’s good at managing drunk people, but the ease with which he’s taken control of the situation, careful not to imply fault or favor, is suddenly incredibly attractive. We fucked on our first real date, and it was pretty awesome. He made me come with his hand and afterward, when I turned my head to see his face, he had this enormous smile spread across it, like he’d just won the lottery. Then he slid inside me and made me come again. Could I just drag him into the bathroom right now and spread my legs and get fucked against the tiny sink? I slide my hand down his back and touch his ass through his jeans. He looks down at me, surprised, and pleased. Standing beside him now, the fact that I’d been irritated by his interest in me seems very silly. I hope he forgives me.
“Another round would be great,” I say, leaning in like he’s mine.
But Hannah is over Frau Flannery’s.
“This place sucks,” says Hannah, taking her purse from the hook beneath the bar. “Come on, Jenny.”
Jenny looks at me and Iris. Her eyes are glassy and unfocused. I hug her close and then. Hannah whisks her away. Iris winks and turns toward Brice, leaving me and Tony alone in the crowd.
“That was exciting,” says Tony.
I slide my hand around to his back again and he pulls me to him. I look up-he’s a head taller than me-and to my great pleasure, he kisses me. Right there in front of everybody. I can’t see Iris, but I bet she’s smiling.
“I’m sorry I’ve been an asshole,” I say, loving the way his soft chest feels against mine. He is about to say something when my phone rings. It’s the desk.
“I’ll be back,” I say.
“Promise?”
“Promise.”
I angle through the crowd to a space by the door and answer.
“Hold for Cathy,” says the receptionist. I hold.
“Rebekah, you were on the Gowanus body, right?”
“Right.”
“Who was out there? What was the scene like?”
“Um, how so?”
“They might need a couple extra inches for the second edition. Vic Hubbert told me to check it out.”
Cathy Richards is on the Sunday desk, but she sometimes picks up overnight shifts. Vic Hubbert runs the night shift and compiles the police blotter. He is way past retirement age.
“The workers seemed shook up. The owners were a little weird, but they’re always kinda weird.”
“The owners? What do you mean weird?”
“Sorry. I mean… They were Hasidic.”
“Hasidic?”
“The Jews, in black hats…”
“I know what Hasidic means.”
I hear typing.
“What was the name of the yard?” she asks.
“Um, I forget. Hold on.” Shit. I should know this. I pull out my notebook and flip the pages. “Smith. Like the street.”
“You think it’s owned by Hasidics?”
“I don’t know for sure. I talked to a kid at the gas station across the street and the guy at the counter said the boy’s dad owned the yard.”
“Get his name?”
“The kid? Yakov.”
“Last name?”
“Last name… he said it, I think.”
“Where did you talk to him? Wait, how old?”
“I don’t know, like eight or nine maybe?”
“We can’t quote him. Did he say anything interesting?”
“Not really. He came in with his dad and another man but they left him there.”
“They left him?”
“He seemed comfortable. I mean, if it’s the family yard, I figured he’d been there before.”
“Okay. But you didn’t get a last name.”
“I did… Um, fuck.”
“Find it. I’ll call you back.”
I flip through my notes three times, but the last name isn’t in there. I pull out a pen and circle some possible quotes. The cashier’s reaction: “I can’t believe it.” And the Jewish van. I look up and catch Tony’s eye. He’s back behind the bar. I mouth “work” and roll my eyes. He winks.
Cathy calls back.
“Library is working on an address for the owner. What time did you start?”
“Nine.”
“Vic wants to door-knock.” She is typing. “Let me see who’s on the schedule tonight…”
“I’ll go,” I say. I’ve never volunteered for a double shift before. But I’ve also never been on a story that in any way involved the Hasids. In fact, I don’t think I’ve ever even read a story about them, not in the Trib, anyway. It’s a funny secret, I think, that I’m one of them and they don’t know it. Or maybe I’m not. Can you be Hasidic without all the dress-up and the rules? Is it in my blood?
“Yeah? Okay, hold on, I’m gonna get Vic on speaker.”
I hold.
“Hello?” Vic’s voice is a croak. It’s more than just smoking. He sounds like someone’s scraped his throat out with a fork.
“Hi,” I say.
“You talked to the owner?” asks Vic.
“I talked to a little boy. The bodega worker said his dad owned the yard.”
“They were Hasidic?”
“Yeah.”
“What else?”
“Um… they took her body away in a van. But it wasn’t the police van. It had, like, Hebrew on the side.”
“Really?” says Cathy.
“Did you see Johnny’s film?”
“Johnny?”
“The photographer. He got some shots when they took her down. She was bald. And naked.”
“Bald?” says Vic. “Cathy, call Larry. Ask him if 1PP will confirm the victim was bald.”
“Johnny assumed she was Jewish because she had a shaved head. He said the Hasids make their women shave their heads. But that’s not true, I don’t think.”
“They wear wigs,” says Cathy. “Who knows what the fuck they’ve got underneath. But if a special van came to pick up her body, she’s probably Hasidic.”
“Do they have their own coroner or something?”
“I don’t know,” says Cathy.
“This is all stuff we should find out,” says Vic.
“Exactly,” says Cathy. “Which is why I’m interested in who owns that yard. Rebekah, we’ll call you back when we get an address.”
She hangs up. I stand staring at my phone. I’ve just given away my night. I angle back to the bar, and Tony, who presents me with a fresh, frothy pint.
“Guess what?” I say, taking a sip.
“What?”
“I’m back on the clock.”
“Back to work?”
I nod, and then my phone rings. I set down my pint.
“I’ll be right back,” I say. I push through people to the door and answer.
“Hold for Cathy.”
I hold.
“Smith Street Scrap Yard is owned by an LLC registered at 5510 New Utrecht Avenue. That’s Borough Park. The library has a number, but I called and it’s just a generic machine message. I’m thinking maybe you go down there. Door-knock at 5510 and see if you can talk to somebody. Ask if they own the yard and if they have any info. See if you can get a name.”
“Okay.”
“You’re Jewish, right?”
I hate answering this question. In junior high I changed the spelling of my name to Rebecca because I thought it looked less Jewish. I decided that the way it was spelled “marked” me as Jewish, which I hated because the only Jewish part of me was long gone. My dad wasn’t supportive of my choice, but didn’t put up much of a fight. It was a tough time for us. My questions about my mother had become more insistent and angry by the time I turned twelve, and I think my father was exhausted from the constant struggle to balance respect for the woman who had borne his child and trying to be understanding about the identity crisis of a preteen girl. A few years later, when it was time to start applying to college, I switched it back to Rebekah. Every time I wrote it the new way it felt like a lie, and I decided it was time to learn to live with who I really was.