“If you want them back…”
“Of course I do,” Walt said. He knew it would come to this; Gail had never been comfortable as a mother. The excuses would follow next.
“I may have overreacted,” she said.
The girls returned, displaying their goodies; Emily got a chocolate bunny she was especially proud of. Walt wondered if it was left over from Easter and wanted a look at it.
They walked as a family down the street to the next house, Walt marveling how uncomfortable he felt in Gail’s company. The girls hurried to the next door.
“I don’t like who you’ve become,” he said.
“I know.”
“I don’t want the divorce to screw up the girls.”
“I seem to screw them up without even trying. Why I can’t do this, I have no idea.” She looked across the street where there was nothing to see, but it kept her face averted.
“Quite a pair,” he said.
“We aren’t a pair,” she corrected. Then she apologized.
“They need us both,” he said. “We need to work this out.”
“I don’t know what you want me to say.”
“I’d rather we work it out than the lawyers. I don’t want lawyers deciding what’s right for the girls.”
Gail didn’t say anything, saved again by the arrival of the girls. The trick-or-treating continued for another forty-five minutes. Snippets of conversation passed between them but none with any content. The mention of lawyers had broken the spell or they’d simply run out of things to say. Over a decade spent together, and they couldn’t find five minutes of things to talk about.
The girls looked anxiously at Walt, then followed their mother to her car. But she stopped them, withdrawing a small overnight bag and handing it to Walt. Emily’s eyes brightened. Nikki took her father’s hand. Gail stared dully at the three of them, forced a grimace of a smile, and, kissing the girls, climbed behind the wheel.
When Walt got home, he put the girls to bed, taking extra time to read to them, wishing he didn’t have to turn off the light.
Returning to his own bedroom, he stopped and looked around. He emptied her closet. Set four black garbage bags of clothes out on the back porch, but that barely scratched the surface. He took off his wedding ring and put it in a drawer with some cuff links he never used. He drank two beers in front of the television and fell asleep in the chair.
70
THE DRIVE UP TO HILLABRAND’S MOUNTAINTOP ESTATE REMINDED Walt again of the man’s power and position, of the enormous wealth in Sun Valley and how carefully one had to tread. He was greeted by an aide and shown inside, exceptionally aware that Sean Lunn was nowhere to be seen.
Hillabrand met him in the living room, with its panoramic views of Ketchum and Sun Valley. He’d lost his tan, replaced by a gray pallor.
“You look better than I’d have expected,” Walt lied.
“Looks can be deceiving. I’ve seen the worst of it. It was only the one glass, after all. I’m told my liver will scar and I’ll pay for it later in life. For now, they say I’m recovering, though it doesn’t feel like it.”
“I was wrong to put you in that position. That’s what I came to say.”
“Yes, you were.”
“So… it’s done.”
“Yes, it is.”
“That’s all I had.” Walt turned to leave.
Hillabrand stopped him. “You ignored James Peavy’s warning. Why was that?”
“I don’t know. I guess it egged me on more than discouraged me. It led to the discovery of the sheep pit. I’m trained as an investigator. What can I say?”
“People like Coats… We can’t let five or ten people have that kind of effect on our country. That has nothing to do with democracy. It’s vile and wrong.”
“Where does warning innocent people about contaminated water come into play?” Walt asked.
“I know you don’t believe it, but we had that pretty well under control. If you tested it now, you wouldn’t find a trace of that spill in the aquifer. We were buying time. Trilogy Springs… that was an oversight. A costly oversight. A mistake that cost us dearly. I don’t have any excuses for it.”
“I thought I had you,” Walt admitted. “It never for a minute occurred to me the INL could possibly be the victim.”
“The real victims were the ranchers,” Hillabrand said. “They were willing to stay quiet to benefit their country.”
“They were willing to stay quiet because you paid them to,” Walt said. “And there’s the rub.”
“How’s that?”
“You, and a couple of others in Washington, convinced yourselves that what you were doing was for the good of the country.”
“Yes. And your point?”
Walt hesitated and looked around the sumptuous room with its stunning views.
“What makes you any different than them? The Samakinn? Weren’t they doing the exact same thing?”
Hillabrand began to speak but bit back his words. Then he said, “But we’re the good guys.”
Walt slipped the DVD out of his pocket and placed it down. “Are you so sure? I want you to watch this. I want you to look real closely at the guy with Coats, the guy doing the girl. I’ll expect Sean Lunn to turn himself in to me within twenty-four hours. If he doesn’t, then it’s a manhunt. And I will personally see that this entire story gets into the papers, NDA or no NDA. I’ll take my chances.”
Hillabrand handled the DVD, flipping it over. He looked into Walt’s fierce expression. “Okay,” he said. “I’ll look at it.”
Walt thought about that: a man with enough power to make a suspect simply walk through his office door.
“Coats worked for Lunn,” Walt said. “Lunn hired him to take down Mark Aker and find out what Mark knew. When that went bad, they targeted Mark’s assistant.” Walt pointed to the DVD, as if Hillabrand could see poor Kira Tulivich. “At some point, Coats turned against him, seeing Mark as an asset to his own cause. But don’t you see what that means?”
Hillabrand’s face went red, his neck veins bulging. “No, Sheriff. What does it mean?”
“If Coats worked for Lunn, then he worked for you,” Walt said. “It was your money.”
Hillabrand rolled his eyes trying to dodge the accusation. “If Sean Lunn did as you say, it was without my knowledge. He went rogue. He probably thought he could earn points with me by handling this himself. It happens. I would never condone such methods. Not ever.”
“That may or may not be true,” Walt said. “The courts will sort it out. But given the events, exactly how does that make you the good guys?”
He turned and left Hillabrand in the living room, in the middle of his private panorama, the indicting DVD pinched between his fingers.
71
SHE AGREED TO MEET ON HER TERMS. SHE CHOSE A BENCH on the snow-covered bike path, overlooking a turn in the Big Wood River. Behind them, the traffic on Highway 75 hummed a little loudly for the picturesque setting. They sat shoulder to shoulder, closer than he’d expected. Some mallards came and went on the river below, their wings etching V’s on the darkly moving water.
“Hate me?” he asked.
“This isn’t seventh grade, Walt.”
“For some of us it still is.”
“I… There are things… I visited Kira, and it brought up some stuff.”
“I wasn’t using you and your relationship with Hillabrand. I know what you thought, but it wasn’t true. When you mentioned it, it made some sense, but that wasn’t how it was to begin with.”
“I want us to be able to work together.”
“Of course.” His voice cracked, belying his attempts to keep his feelings out of this. Her words sounded so final.
“Thank you.”
“What about a dinner… sometime?” He added quickly, “If it was seventh grade, it would have been a movie or an ice-cream cone. At least give me some credit.”