I told him the story, then, and he fell asleep smiling before the end; as well he did, I thought, for it is one of those stories that ends without an ending, that the listener may judge for him or herself what happened.
Tales of gods and angels may end that way, for they continue, we know, in the land beyond the end of the world, the true Terre d’Ange. Alas for we who are mortal, and are denied the luxury of dramatic license. We must live, and go onward.
In the morning the fire had burned down to cold ashes and a few buried embers, and we dressed shivering in the chill. Of what had befallen us in the night, we did not speak. What would we have said, if we did? The romances would have it otherwise, but this I will say: There is no point in speaking of love when survival is at issue. I had spoken truly, when I said that we dreamed. It was only the waking that was grim. We went about the business of making ready to leave.
The snows had ended, and the day bid to be overcast, but the lowering clouds held no more in store. A grey light filtered into the cavern from outside. I worked quickly to lash the last of the packs onto my pony, holding my fur mittens between my teeth and working with frozen fingers. Joscelin, much recovered from his wounds, checked the horses' hooves.
"Phèdre!" I heard him gasp as he released the foreleg of one of our Skaldi remounts. The horse stomped, the sound ringing off the stony walls. I looked up to see where he was pointing.
There, etched in rock above the mouth of the cavern, was Blessed Elua’s sigil. Caught by some trick of refracted daylight it gleamed, silvery, in the hard stone. I stared without speaking, then closed my mouth, realizing it gaped. Joscelin and I looked wildly at each other.
"You know what this means?" he asked breathlessly. "They sheltered here, crossing the Skaldic hinterlands! Elua, Cassiel, Naamah…all the Companions!" Approaching the cavern mouth, he laid his hands reverently upon the rock. "They were here."
"They were here," I echoed, gazing at the silvery lines, remembering my wordless, snow-bound prayer. We had dreamed, I thought, in a sacred place. "Joscelin," I said. "Let’s go home."
Tearing himself away from the cavern wall, he glanced at me and nodded, settling the wolf-pelt of the White Brethren in place about his shoulders. "Home," he said firmly, leading the way.
A dream, and the promise of our long-ago celestial begetters, who had not forgotten the distant generations of their children, in whose red blood a thin thread of ichor ran still. Home, a golden memory, from which we were separated by mile upon icy mile.
Outside, the cold of a Skaldic winter awaited us.
Home.
Chapter Fifty-Four
In the days that followed, no further pursuit came upon us. The weather was our only enemy, but of a surety, it was enemy enough. With horses somewhat fresher than our own had been, we pressed harder, stopping when the light failed and setting up camp to fall into an exhausted sleep.
Betimes we encountered steadings along the way, but our senses had grown keen living in the wilderness, and each time either Joscelin or I detected signs of human habitation well in advance. We gave all steadings a wide berth, and never made camp within less than an hour’s ride from the nearest man-sign. Once or twice more, we saw wolves at dusk, and one terrifying time, we disturbed a fierce bear from its winter slumber in a cave that proved not to be abandoned. I thought my gallant pony lost that time as we fled, the longer-legged horses churning snow in their terror, but he floundered in our wake, making a horrid squeal of fear, his hindquarters inches away from swiping claws the length of my whole hand. I have heard the fabled oliphaunts of Bhodistan are the largest creatures living, but if I never see a doughtier beast than a Skaldic bear, I will rest well content. In this one thing, winter proved our friend, for the bear gave up the chase after a short distance and turned to lumber back into the depths of its shelter, and sleep.
Thus did we reach the Camaeline Range without further incident.
There is no easy way to cross from the Skaldic territories into Terre d’Ange. Where the Camaelines give way in the north, the Rhenus River takes over, too deep and fast to be forded, and seldom bridged since the days of the Tiberian Empire. They, with their legions of engineers, could muster a bridge-building brigade in a matter of a day, given sufficient timber. Since then, D’Angelines have held the river border.
If we dared, I would have ridden clear up to the flatlands and begged passage through Azzalle, for I’ve no doubt there were loyal adherents to the Crown there, if only in the person of Ghislain de Somerville, who, to the best of my knowledge, still held command of Trevalion. But to cross the heart of Skaldi wilderness was one thing; to ride the borders during wartime-albeit a war Terre d’Ange didn’t know was coming-was another. No, it had to be the mountains, and expedience demanded that we attempt the southernmost of the Great Passes.
We rode in the shadow of the tall peaks of the Camaelines for a day, and camped beneath them at night. The snow was deeper here, and it was hard going. Still, we were close enough to sense that the air of home lay on the far side of those cruel mountains, and it gave us heart.
In the morning, we came upon a sight that dashed our hopes.
I had feared that Selig would take further measures against us, and my fears were well-founded. Joscelin, heeding them, made a reconnaissance on foot and returned grim-faced, leading me to a secure vantage point. On the snowy plains before the southern pass, we saw them: A party of some two-score Marsi raiders, encamped between us and the pass.
Harald had said he’d traded places with one of Selig’s hand-picked thanes. I saw now what he meant. Selig had sent the steading-riders as well, turning out the Marsi tribe to guard the passes against us.
I looked once, hoping against hope, at Joscelin.
"Not a chance," he said ruefully, shaking his head. "There are too many and on open ground, Phèdre. I’d be slaughtered."
"What, then?"
He met my eyes reluctantly, then turned, gazing up at the vast mountain peaks, towering high above us.
"No," I said. "Joscelin, I can’t."
"We have to," he said gently. "There’s no other way."
On the plain below us, the Skaldi of the Marsi built up their fires, singing and holding games, drinking and shouting and dashing at each other in mock combat. For all of that, they kept scouts posted, watching the horizons. There were probably men of Gunter’s steading among them, I thought; men I’d known, men I’d served mead. We could hear them, occasionally, the clear thin air carrying their shouts. If word of what we’d done to Selig’s thanes had reached them, they’d kill us without blinking. We couldn’t go through them, and we couldn’t go around them.
He was right. There was no other way.
I pulled my wolfskin cloak tight around me and shivered. "Then let’s go. And may Elua have mercy on us."
I will not tell every step of that treacherous journey. It is enough to say that we survived it. Joscelin rode back the way we’d come, flogging his poor mount, and returned in the lowering orange light of sunset to report that he’d found a trail, a mere goat-track, winding up among the crags beyond where the eye could follow. Turning our backs on the Skaldi, we rode back to make camp in the foothills, daring only the smallest of fires. Joscelin fed it all night with twigs, and I daresay it would have fit within his cupped hands. It kept the warmth of life in our flesh, though barely.
In the morning, we began to ascend.