So obvious, seen in that way. An actress, learning her part. Crispin looked back out to sea. Deapolis showed clearly across the water. He could see more ships in the harbour there. A fleet for an army, sailing west, to his home. He had warned his mother, and Martinian and Carissa. It meant nothing. What could they do? There was a dull fear within him; the memory of the bird in that dark cabin a part of that now.
He said, "And you do this… you come here, because…"
"Because Valerius won't let him be killed. I thought of doing it, despite that. Killing him. But it matters a great deal to the Emperor. The visible hand of mercy, since the family… suffered so much when those… unknown people burned Flavius. So I come here, and do this… performance, and learn nothing. If I am to believe him, Lecanus is broken and vile and purposeless." She paused. "I can't stop coming."
"Why won't he kill him? There has to be so much hatred. I know they think the Emperor… ordered it. The burning." Not a question he'd ever imagined himself asking anyone, let alone the Empress of Sarantium. And not with this terrible inward sense that perhaps the killing of this man ought to have been done by now. Perhaps even in mercy. He thought, wistfully, of a scaffold in the air, shining pieces of glass and stone, memory, his girls.
Sorrow was easier than this. The thought came to him suddenly. A hard truth.
Alixana was silent for a long time. He waited. Caught the drift of her scent. That gave him pause for a moment, then he decided that Lecanus couldn't have known about the personal nature of that perfume. He'd been here too long. And then he realized that that wasn't it either: the man's nose was gone. The Empress would have realized that. Crispin shuddered. She saw it. Looked away.
She said, "You can have no idea what it was like here in the time when Apius was dying."
"I'm certain of that," Crispin said.
"He had his own nephews blinded and imprisoned here." Her voice was flat, lifeless. He had never heard her like this. "There was no heir. Flavius Daleinus was behaving, for months before Apius died, as an Emperor-in-waiting. Receiving courtiers at his estate and even his city home, on a chair in a receiving room on a crimson carpet. Some of them knelt before him."
Crispin said nothing.
"Petrus… believed Daleinus would be entirely, dangerously wrong as Emperor. For many reasons." She looked at him, the dark eyes searching his. And he understood what was unsettling him so: he had no idea how to react when she spoke, or looked, as a woman, a person, and not as an Imperial power beyond comprehension.
He said, "So he helped put his uncle on the throne instead. I know this. Everyone does."
She refused to look away. "Everyone does. And Flavius Daleinus died in Sarantine Fire on the street outside his house. He was… wearing porphyry. He was on his way to the Senate, Crispin."
The clothing had all burned away, Carullus had told him, but there had been rumours of the purple trim. Crispin, sitting on an island strand these long years after, had no doubt of the truth of what the Empress was saying.
He took a breath and said, "I am lost here, my lady. I don't understand what I am doing here, why I am hearing this. I am supposed to call you thrice-exalted, kneel in obeisance."
She smiled a little then, for the first time. "Indeed, artisan. I had almost forgotten. You haven't done either in a while, have you?"
"I have no idea how to… act here."
She shrugged, her expression still amused, something else in her voice, however. "Why should you know? I am being capricious and unfair, telling hidden things, enforcing the illusion of intimacy. But I can have you killed and buried here if I say but a word to the soldiers. Why should you assume you might know how to conduct yourself?"
She reached over and chose a pitted olive. "You can't know this, either, of course, but that ruined figure we just saw was the best of them all. Clever and brave, a splendid, handsome man. He went east himself, many times, with the spice caravans, past Bassania, to learn whatever he could. I regret what the fire did to him more than what happened to his father. He should have died, not lived to become-this thing."
Crispin swallowed again. "Why the fire? Why that way?"
Alixana’s gaze was steady. His awareness was of her courage… and simultaneously of the fact that she might be showing him courage, leading him to see it in her, for her own purposes. He was adrift and afraid, continuously aware of how many layers and contours of meaning there were with this woman. He shivered. Even before she answered, he was sorry he'd asked.
She said, "Empires need symbols. New Emperors need powerful ones. A moment when all changes, when the god speaks with a clear voice. On the day Valerius I was acclaimed in the Hippodrome, Flavius Daleinus wore purple in the street, walked out to claim the Golden Throne as if by right. He died appallingly, as if by a bolt from Jad, a striking down from above for such presumption, never to be forgotten." Her eyes never left his own. "It would not have been the same had he been stabbed by some soldier in an alleyway."
Crispin found that he could not look away from her. The exact, worldly intelligence within her beauty. He opened his mouth, found he could not speak. And seeing that, she smiled. "You are about to say again," said the Empress Alixana, "that you are only an artisan, that you want nothing to do with any of this. Am I right, Caius Crispus?"
He closed his mouth. Took a deep, unsteady breath. She could be wrong, and she was, this time. His heart pounding, an odd, roaring sound in his ears, Crispin heard himself say, "You cannot deceive the man in that house, my lady, even though he is blind. He has an unnatural creature with him that can see, and speaks to him silently. Something from the half-world. He knows it is you and not his sister, Empress."
She went white. He would always remember it. White as a shroud. As the winding sheet in which the dead were wrapped for burial. She stood up, too quickly, almost fell, the only graceless movement he had ever seen her make.
He scrambled to his feet as well, the roaring in his head like a surf or a storm. He said, "He was asking the bird-it is a bird-why you were here, today… of all days. They decided it was accident. That you were only worried. Then the bird said that… that it wanted to be present when… something happened."
"Oh, dearest Jad," said the Empress of Sarantium, and her flawless voice cracked like a plate on stone. And then, "Oh, my love."
She turned and began to move, almost running, back through the trees on the path. Crispin followed. The Excubitors, alert and attentive as soon as she had stood up, followed them both. One of them sprinted ahead, to guard the path.
No one spoke. They came back to the clearing. It was silent, as before. The smoke was still rising, as before. No movement could be seen.
But the door to the prison house of Lecanus Daleinus was unbarred and open and there were two dead guards lying on the ground.
Alixana stood frozen, rooted to the spot, like one of the pines in the windless air. Her face was riven with anguish, like a tree by a lightning bolt. There were legends, from long ago, of women, wood spirits, changed into trees. Crispin thought of them, seeing her now. There was an appalling, choking sensation in his own chest and the roaring sound had not stopped.
One of the Excubitors swore furiously, shattering the stillness. All four of them dashed across the open space, drawing their blades, to kneel in pairs by the two slain men. It was Crispin who walked over-he saw that each man had been cut down by a sword, from behind-and re-entered the silent, open house.
The lamps were gone. The front room was empty. He strode quickly to the back and to the kitchen room at the side. No one there. He came back to the main room, looked at the ledge of the window by the door. The bird, too, was gone.