If Tom were physically capable of fathering a child only a DNA test would indicate whether it was his or Lou’s. If at all possible, she wanted to steer clear of the DNA thing. Messy! Plus indicating to all that there was more than one entry in the fatherhood stakes.
As things presently stood, if Tom were the father there could be a marriage. As for whether Pat would divorce Lou, that was beyond Barbara’s control. But no marriage to Lou. Send the money.
But there could be no conclusion written yet. It all came down to Tom Adams. What if he proved to be the father? He was single-even in the eyes of his Church. So marriage was possible. Was it practicable?
She would move up several notches in the social register. There would be lots more money to spend. Tom was attractive, even if Barbara was not attracted. On the other hand, she found Jack Fradet the most romantic of the four, so what good was her taste in men?
All in all, marriage to Tom Adams didn’t look bad.
Barbara began pacing in front of the window wall as she considered the ramifications.
There was Mickey Adams. Turned out to pasture because she’d objected to Tom’s intense committed involvement with and considerable contribution to his church. That certainly wouldn’t change. Did Barbara want to-could she-play a subordinate role to the Catholic Church?
One good thing about Tom’s church: it would not condone abortion. So, for different reasons, she and Tom would be in total agreement on that matter.
However, sensitized by her recent nightmare, she would tread slowly and carefully here. For the time being, let’s just pinpoint Daddy. Then, step by patient step, she would map the course for those involved.
It was like a gigantic game of chess. And she had the controlling move.
While waiting for Tom, she wouldn’t try for a catnap; she didn’t want to chance another nightmare. After she met with Tom, she’d be able to dream peacefully. Until his arrival, she would bury herself in a book. Maybe a murder mystery.
Twenty-Three
The book she’d been trying to read lay on the end table. She just hadn’t been able to concentrate.
The doorbell rang. She went to the door. As expected, it was Tom Adams. He entered without a word.
He was stooped, and seemed drained. In spite of her self-appointed role as grand inquisitor, she felt sorry for him. She took his coat. He wore no hat. “Something bothering you, Tom?” She was all too aware that the bother might well be herself.
He sat down near the window wall and lingered over the view of the city at the height of its midafternoon bustle. “Oh … some trouble at the bank.” After a moment, he added, “Actually, we’re better off than I expected.”
She laughed. “That’s a reason for depression?”
“No. No, of course not. Still, I’d feel better if I completely understood why we’re where we are.”
Was this a poor-mouth rationale for not giving her the generous settlement she was aiming for?
“But we’re not here to talk about banking.” He turned from the window to her. “How are you feeling, Babs?”
None of the others had expressed any concern for her condition.
“Physically, I’m okay. After all, I’m barely into this pregnancy. And this is my first so I’m not even sure how I’m supposed to feel. But I don’t feel much different than I did before I was pregnant. So I guess all goes well.”
Outside of her doctor, her father and mother, and Joyce, no one had known of her prior pregnancy when she herself was little more than a child. Now all those who had known were dead. So, as far as anyone but her obstetrician now knew, the present pregnancy was her first.
“You’re under a doctor’s care?”
“Yes, of course.”
“He’s good, is he? Top-notch?”
“I’ve got an ob-gyn recommended by my GP. So far, I’ve got no negative vibes.” She tilted her head sideways questioningly. “Why this interest in my doctor?”
“I want the best. Give me your doctor’s name so I can check him out.”
“Again: why?”
He seemed surprised. “Why? Because you’re carrying our child. I want you-and the baby-to have the best of care. Why would you wonder about it?”
“It’s just … I didn’t expect …”
“I should’ve told you when it happened.” Adams turned and looked again out the window as if unwilling to face her. “It happened about a little over a month ago … when we were together in my apartment. After you left to go home … well, I had a feeling something was wrong. I was going to dispose of the condom. Just before I wrapped it to throw in the trash I looked at it more closely. There was a substance on the outside that looked like it might be semen. I experimented: I filled the condom with water and watched as a thin stream slowly escaped. Somehow the condom had been perforated.”
Barbara was almost rapturous. At last something that made sense-a credible explanation of how she had become pregnant!
“I debated at the time whether to tell you. It seemed to make little difference. The harm was done; you very probably were carrying my sperm in your vagina. If you were going to get pregnant, you were going to get pregnant.
“Later, I thought that was a stupid decision. You could’ve douched. Not a lot of chance that would’ve made any difference-but it represented the only remaining protection you might have.
“Still, in light of all the protection we always took-the spermicide, the diaphragm … the condom, for that matter … and this was such an infinitesimal perforation … plus it could easily have been a safe time in your cycle.
“With all those considerations I couldn’t think of anything better than to let fate take its course. And” — he turned and gestured in the general direction of her abdomen-“it has.”
Barbara couldn’t get over it. After all this maneuvering with the other three, the execs! The last person she’d expected to readily accept responsibility, the last person on her chronological list of candidates, Tom Adams, admitted to being the father of her child. Who’d a thunk it!
Her initial reaction was relief. And immediately she felt power returning to her grasp.
The failures on Monday with Marty and Jack had taken a lot of wind from her sails. At that point, to relieve her angst, she’d begun to entertain the concept of a virgin birth. Returning to reality, she realized that one of the two on Tuesday’s list had to be the one. Still, she had been shaken.
She hadn’t felt all that ecstatic after this morning’s session with Lou Durocher. And the nightmare concerning marriage to him hadn’t helped. But now that she considered the matter in light of what Tom Adams had just told her, Lou would’ve had to have had an experience similar to Tom’s in order to be in this paternity sweepstakes.
No doubt about it, something, or somethings, had to have gone very, very wrong for her to conceive. There simply were too many precautions taken for this to happen.
Tom Adams had just confessed that his condom had failed. Not much of a failure but, theoretically, enough. Even so, his sperm had to negotiate a diaphragm that was supposed to block them and a spermicide that was supposed to kill them.
On the face of it, Tom Adams, while not a leadpipe cinch, was a most likely candidate. At this point, only a DNA test would confirm paternity. But not now. Maybe never.
She rubbed her abdomen absentmindedly.
Adams chuckled. “Yes, there’s a new life in you. We want to protect it. I do. And I know you do too.”
“It’s getting clearer and clearer: you really are the father of this baby.”
He half turned in the chair to face her. “I’m the father? How could it be otherwise?”
Suddenly she felt weak and abruptly sat down. She had forgotten for a moment: Tom Adams didn’t know about the other three, his executive vice presidents. “I meant Al, of course. Everyone will think it’s Al’s baby. But we know it’s not.”