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Lokesh was alone with the lama’s body when Shan reached the hut, sitting at Jamyang’s head, still intoning the words of the death rite. He fed the coals in the small brazier and made tea, then placed a cup at his friend’s side, dropped some juniper on the brazier, and waited.

When at last the old Tibetan paused in his recitation, he had trouble rising, as if his grief were too big a burden. Shan helped him to his feet and handed him his tea. The hot brew revived Lokesh, and as he sipped it he cocked his head this way and that at the dead man, as if listening for something from Jamyang. He was, like Shan, still totally perplexed about what had happened at the shrine.

“We can’t stay with him here for three days,” Shan said, referring to the traditional period observed by most Tibetans for the rites. “There are police in the valley. There will be many more.”

Lokesh nodded solemnly. “Shepherds were here.” His voice was dry as sticks. “They will return with horses and a mule before midnight. It is nearly a day’s ride to the bone flats,” he said, meaning the clearing secreted high in the mountains where the ragyapa, the traditional flesh cutters, readied bodies for consumption by the vultures. The ancient tradition of sky burial, reviled by the government, had, like so many other Tibetan practices, been pushed into the shadows.

“You must go with them,” Shan said. “Stay up there to finish the rites.”

But Lokesh was not listening. He was wiping at the bullet hole in Jamyang’s forehead. “It isn’t the way of things,” the old Tibetan said, wiping again, watching the wound expectantly. “We should send for some of the wise ones. They would know how to call him out.”

Shan studied his old friend, who had been an official in the Dalai Lama’s government before the Chinese invasion. Lokesh communicated more in not speaking than any man he knew, and when he did speak it often seemed to be in riddles. As he watched Lokesh cup some of the fragrant juniper smoke and hold it over the bullet hole he finally understood. The old Tibetans believed that when a man died his soul lingered inside the lifeless husk, confused, and eventually found its natural path out through a tiny hole on the crown of his head. Old lamas would often pluck hairs from the top of a dead man’s head to clear the way. But Jamyang’s skull had two new, and unnatural, holes.

“His spirit was well focused,” Shan offered.

“No,” Lokesh replied slowly, with great conviction. “He killed himself. Which means something had taken over his spirit. Something wrapped around it like a serpent. It is still there. We have to pry it off.” His fingers gently touched the side of Jamyang’s face, lingering over the birthmark on his jaw that looked like a lotus blossom, one of the sacred signs.

Shan opened his mouth to argue, to find some way to comfort Lokesh, but he knew that no matter what he said his friend would suffer this anguish for weeks to come. And perhaps Lokesh hit close to the truth in suggesting an evil spirit had possessed the lama. Certainly something evil had tormented him, had driven him to his abrupt suicide. Evil had also swept over the ancient convent that day, and now four people had suffered violent deaths. The logical part of Shan told him it was impossible that the events were connected. But the instincts of the former inspector said they had to be.

“More police in the valley?” Lokesh suddenly asked, as if just hearing Shan’s warning.

Shan closed his eyes a moment. He was not sure he could summon the strength to tell Lokesh what had happened at the old convent, wanted more than anything to not add to the pain the old Tibetan already felt.

He realized his friend had stopped his ministrations to the body and was staring at him. “You were going for the nuns,” Lokesh said pointedly.

Shan felt a great weight bearing down on him. “I went to find help at the convent. Instead there were bodies.” The words seemed to tear at his throat as he spoke them. “Three people were killed there.”

Lokesh did not speak, only stared with moist eyes at one of the little bronze deities by Jamyang’s pallet as Shan described what he had found at the convent. Lokesh and the oldest lamas had always been pools of serenity amid the horrors of the gulag, had told new prisoners that the inhuman conditions at their prison were nothing more than a test of faith, had stood like rocks against the torture and deprivation. But even stone can crack against a torrent that lasts for years. For the first time since Shan had known him, despair clouded his friend’s eyes. He still had no words when Shan had finished, only lit some incense on Jamyang’s little altar and took up the death chant again. Shan’s heart broke as he watched the old man, seeing the tremor in his hand where none had been before, hearing him falter in remembering words he had recited countless times before.

The moon was high overhead when the shepherds arrived. They would not speak with Shan, would not accept his help in rolling Jamyang’s body into a shroud and tying it to the back of the mule. Lokesh had withdrawn deeper and deeper inside himself. He had become an aged, frail creature who needed help in mounting the horse the shepherds offered to him. He made no reply to Shan’s words of farewell.

Shan found a perch on the ridge above the hut and watched the forlorn caravan as it traversed the moonlit valley then looked toward the stars, struggling to control the emotions that raged inside. Eventually he curled up on a blanket outside the little hut but found only fitful sleep, beset by hideous dreams. Truckloads of troops were pouring into the valley in response to the murders. Farmers were being violently ejected from their homes. He awoke with a groan as a baton hovered in the air, about to slam into Lokesh. Shan gave up on sleep and stared into the sky. By dawn he was back at Jamyang’s shrine.

The mystery behind the suicide began with the mystery of the pistol. He set the weapon on a flat rock in a pool of sunlight. It had been painted, not just with a lotus flower but also with images of a sacred conch shell and a fish. But why? Had Jamyang really meant to pacify the weapon somehow, as Shan had first believed, or to sanctify it for its intended mission? It was a small semiautomatic, the kind issued to police officers and soldiers. Private possession of such a weapon was a serious crime anywhere in China but a Tibetan who possessed one would be treated not just as a felon but a traitor. It seemed impossible that Jamyang would encounter such a weapon without being arrested by its owner, just as impossible that another Tibetan would have given it to him. It was almost as unlikely that he would know how to use it, yet in the last instant of his life he had lifted the gun with the alacrity of one trained in weapons, flipping off the safety and pulling the trigger in one fluid movement. Shan lifted the pistol and released the magazine. It was empty. Jamyang had kept only one bullet.

When Shan had tried to warn him of the dangers in the valley, Jamyang had repeated his own words back to him. You don’t always understand how dangerous it is. Only once, just the week before, had Jamyang probed Shan’s background, showing a surprising interest in his years as an investigator. Had that been why Jamyang had wanted Shan there in his last moments? Had he planned the celebration to be certain Shan would be with him? Had he been inviting Shan to unravel the mystery of his own death and those below? Jamyang’s face rose before him, wearing the cryptic, questioning expression he had shown at the pilgrim shrines. For a moment it was so real Shan could have reached out and touched the smudge of dirt where he had prostrated his forehead to the mountain. It has taken us four billion years to get to where we are, the lama had said.