Now, Marty was alone. Watching and waiting. He'd slept solidly in his bunk last night, had over the last few nights, in fact, and dreamed of Vince Carboneau. This time, it was a good dream. He and Vince sat on a bench in the Carboneau's backyard, their backs leaning against the picnic table. It was night in the dream. The stars shone so brightly their pinprick illuminations reflected in the cool drops of water coating their beer bottles. They drank casually but never spoke, simply looked up at the darkened house knowing Margaret was inside, asleep in bed. Vince didn't seem in a rush to go inside. He'd always been like that when Marty would stop over for a drink. Content to share such a rare and drawn-out moment with his best friend, outside under the stars, knowing that the woman he loved would welcome him beside her when he finally went in.
It was a nice dream, and Marty was grateful for it. Whether it was only that, a creation of his overly exhausted mind, or if the moment said more to what his fate might be in a few minutes, he'd soon know. He liked to think that the dream was Vince's quiet way of saying thanks for helping Margaret during the final days of the world. If it meant anything beyond that, Marty didn't care.
Outside Margaret and the teenager, Carl, had rounded up the last of the stragglers. Now the boy was up on deck. Margaret remained at the bottom of the ramp, looking around for anything left behind.
She looked up, saw the chief standing in the window. Marty watched her hesitate for a moment, then raise her hand. She waved slowly.
Marty swallowed, and raised his own hand. Before the moment could become awkward, he turned and walked away from the window. He found a comfortable chair across the room and sat down to wait.
* * *
“All set, Mrs. Carboneau. Everyone's nice and snug. The girls, too.” Carl looked at his watch. “Time to come up, I'd say.”
Margaret could hear the fear in the boy's voice. Their world had been spun on its head and here was Carl, tanned in a tee-shirt and shorts, a boy who should be hanging out at the beach with other kids. Instead he stood atop a fabled ark, telling his former teacher it was time to come aboard.
The temperature was pleasant, high-eighties. The grease smeared along the side of the ark shimmered in the sun, giving the ship a mirage-like appearance. Standing in the midst of the haze, Carl said more quietly, “Mrs. C, you have to come up now.”
Margaret nodded, and looked around the Common. People were camped out across the grass. On one marble bench, a man with a salt and pepper beard sat before an easel. He faced the ark and quietly painted.
Her gaze lingered on one family, a woman and three boys. The woman was making peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, the bread laid out on plates across a large blanket. The mother finished making one, reached into a cooler and produced a can of Coke. She managed to snag one of the boys long enough to shove the meal into his hands and point to an unoccupied corner of the blanket. The boy hesitated to make a show for his older brothers, then sat down and began devouring his food.
It was a nice day for a picnic, Margaret supposed.
She stepped onto the ramp. In the corner of her eye she saw Carl straighten. At first she thought it was from relief that she was finally moving. Then someone grabbed her shirt from behind. She almost stumbled, took a step back.
“I'm sorry,” the young girl said. “I didn't mean to make you fall.”
Carl moved onto the upper portion of the ramp but Margaret held up a hand to stay him. She made a similar gesture to the security guard, past whom the woman had slipped. The girl was familiar, a few years older than Carl. She held a baby in the crook of her left arm. The baby smiled and grabbed at his mother's shirt.
“You work at the lumber store,” Margaret said, trying not to look at her watch but knowing that it was only a matter of minutes by the way Carl was bouncing on the balls of his feet.
The girl nodded, gave Carl a quick sidelong glance then raised the baby between them. “I'm sorry. I know... I know you asked me long ago to join you. I didn’t, but I believed you. I listened to the radio, even saw you on TV. I never stopped believing. I swear!”
Margaret raised her hands, not wanting to touch the child. “It's too late -” she began.
The woman began to cry, heavy, tear-streaked sobs. When she spoke, however, the words were clear and came quickly. “I know. Really, I know. I'm not asking for me. I'll stay down here with the others. It's too late for me. But not Connor. Please! He's a good boy, and never cries, really. He won’t take up any room and I can’t let him die like this, please!”
Margaret moved to gently coax the baby back towards his mother. Holly used the opportunity to push him into her arms. She let go. Margaret was forced to take him. Connor cooed joyfully at this new game.
“Mrs. Carboneau….” Carl's agitation was obvious. “Please.”
Margaret waited a moment, feeling the wriggling child in her arms, not wanting to hold him any closer. The boy reeked of urine and feces, his face streaked with dried food. Margaret hardened herself for what she needed to say. The girl had been given a chance long ago, and she’d blown it.
That was when Margaret noticed the marks on the girl's wrists. She'd thought them tattoos or bracelets. No. They were rope burns. Red, swollen rings.
“How did -” she began but stopped. Seeing where Margaret was staring, the girl folded her arms across her chest.
Carl took a step down the ramp. “Mrs. Carboneau, you said yourself not to trust our watches. Come on!”
Margaret held Connor close now, and looked at the baby’s mother. She believed. This one believed, more so than the woman across the grass who'd managed to pin down her other two sons and give them their sandwiches.
But it was too late.
How strong is your faith, Margaret Carboneau?
The thought chilled her, for they weren't the words of the angel David nor anyone else. They were her own. Try as she might to suppress the next thought, it came. How far could such a faith carry you?
No! She’d gone this far. Damn it, she’d given up everything. What more could she do? In that moment, in the minutes before the world would fall, it no longer felt as if she'd done enough.
How far would you go?
No, please .
In those few remaining moments which seemed to stretch to eternity in her mind, Margaret had already decided.
Without looking away from the pleading face of the girl, she said loudly, “Carl. Hurry down here and take this baby with you. Then drop the ramp.”
No response. Margaret turned to face him. His expression would have been comical if she wasn't so frightened. Carl slowly shook his head.
“Carl, you said it yourself. We have no time. Please don’t question me now!”
“What the fu...” he began. His shoulders sagged. “Why?”
Connor wriggled playfully in Margaret’s arms. Forget it, she thought. Just hand him back to his mother and run onto the ship before this goes too far. Instead she said, “Carl, you haven't questioned one thing I've asked, or God has demanded, since this started. And now there isn’t any more time. Do this. Hurry!”
Carl didn’t move. Some of what had been said must have been heard through the hull, for there came muffled shouts of protest from inside the ark. One of the voices, Margaret was certain, belonged to Katie. Her older daughter screamed for someone to let her out of the harness. Her pleas were drowned out by louder, adult voices. Al’s voice boomed over them all, telling one person to “shut the fuck up and stay put!” She hoped he wasn't speaking to Katie that way.