‘Mum, where are you?’
David’s abrasive voice made us jump. He pushed open the bedroom door roughly and I felt the hackles on my back rise. The sight of his mother and me together made him pause for a moment, before he walked round the side of the bed towards us.
‘Mum, come on now, it’s time to go,’ he said. I could tell he was making an effort to sound less impatient, but his insincerity didn’t fool me. I was still curled up beside Margery and instinctively began to emit a growl deep in my throat as he approached.
Margery looked at him blankly, and I wondered whether she even remembered who he was or why he was there. For a fleeting moment I envied her, and wondered whether losing my home would hurt less if I did not understand what was happening. Perhaps that would be preferable to the pain I was feeling.
‘Yes, yes, of course,’ Margery whispered, looking around for her handbag and her scarf. She stood up slowly, and David took her elbow in a show of concern, which I knew belied his desire to hurry her up. I was still growling, in an involuntary expression of distrust.
‘That’s enough from you, cat,’ David said, batting me off the bare mattress as he guided Margery round the corner of the bed. I sat angrily on the landing, listening as he led Margery down the stairs and out through the front door. A few minutes later the car doors slammed and I heard him drive away. The removal men bustled past me into Margery’s bedroom and began to take apart her bed.
‘Are we meant to be taking the cat or what?’ one of them asked.
‘Nah, David’s coming back for it later, so he said,’ the other replied.
I sometimes wonder how my life might have played out differently if I had taken fate into my own paws and escaped through the cat flap before David returned. I cannot honestly tell you why I didn’t do so; why I decided instead to go back into Margery’s bedroom, press myself up against the cold radiator and wait for whatever fate had in store for me. Maybe part of me still hoped that I would be taken to live with Margery in her new home. Or, if I’m being truthful, maybe I was just toofrightened to go out into the world and fend for myself. I had enjoyed a life of comfortable privilege; let’s face it, I was a pampered lap-cat. Courage and self-reliance were not qualities that I had ever been called upon to find within me. At least not yet.
Eventually the men had packed the bed and the last few boxes into the lorry and left. The house was silent once more, but it did not feel peaceful to me. It was an eerie kind of quiet, which set my teeth on edge. I meditated myself into a light doze on the bedroom floor, but even in sleep I could not rest. I dozed fitfully, dreaming that I could hear Margery calling my name, followed by a falling sensation, which jerked me back to consciousness as panic coursed through my body.
I heard a car pull up to the house. It was starting to get dark outside and the bedroom was chilly. The front door slammed, and I heard David sigh. He picked up the cat carrier in the hall and started to check the downstairs rooms, looking for me.
‘Come on, you bloody cat. Where are you?’ David called out, not bothering to hide the malice in his voice.
Even though I knew it was hopeless, my feline self-preservation instinct made me drop to my haunches and prowl around. I was looking for somewhere to hide, but with all the rooms empty, there was no shelter to be found.
As David got to the top of the stairs he saw me running back into Margery’s bedroom and by the time he entered the room I was sitting on the windowsill, determined to meet him with my chin up and defiance in my eyes.
‘All right, you, it’s time to go,’ he said, fiddling with the door of the cat carrier to unlock it. I began to growl again and, as he approached, I flattened my ears and pulled my top lip back in a hiss. He paused, wondering how best to handle me without getting his hands lacerated, and I wasgratified to see a flicker of fear cross his face. I increased the volume and intensity of my hissing, making the most of having some power over him.
He moved the cat carrier into his left hand and, while I was distracted, grabbed the scruff of my neck with his right hand. He shoved me roughly inside, swinging the door shut behind me.
I slipped on the plastic floor of the carrier, trying to find my footing as he swung me round and turned to leave the room. Still growling, I peered through the bars of the carrier door for one final look at my home. The rooms were all empty, devoid of furniture and packing boxes. I was surprised by how cold the house looked, how lifeless without Margery’s possessions and the warmth of her presence. The only sign that she had ever lived there were marks on the carpet, where her furniture had stood, and nails in the walls where her pictures had hung. I tried not to think about the happy times we had had in the house, the meals we had eaten together and our leisurely cuddles on the sofa.
In a matter of seconds we were outside. I heard the front door slam behind me and the key turn in the lock. The cat carrier bumped against David’s leg as he walked across the drive to his car. I was spun around once more and briefly blinded by the light from a lamp post. Then the carrier was plonked unceremoniously into the boot of the car, the door was pushed shut and all was dark and silent.
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The engine revved into life, and I felt the car slide off Margery’s driveway. In an effort to stay calm, I began to observe my surroundings, trying to ignore the hunger pangs telling me that it was almost my dinner time. I circled round and round inside the cat carrier, trying to find a position that allowed me to see the car’s rear windscreen, but the deepening dusk outside meant that all I could make out was the strobing flash of street lamps. Eventually, realizing anything else was futile, I crouched down on the floor of the carrier, with my feet tucked neatly underneath my body, and tried to let the hum and vibration of the engine lull me to sleep.
I must have fallen into a light doze, for I was woken by an incessant bleeping noise from the front of the car that I recognized as David’s mobile phone. I heard David swear.
‘Pat, I’m driving. Hang on – I’ll put you on handsfree.’
I could make out the tinny sound of a woman’s voice on the line. I had met David’s wife Pat on a few occasions, back when she and David used to come for Sunday lunch at Margery’s with their children. She had struck me as a pleasant woman, if somewhat worn down by the demands of two boisterous children and a husband whose emotional level seemed permanently set to ‘stressed’.
‘How’s Mum doing?’ David asked.
‘She’s not too bad. We’ve unpacked and she’s having a cup of tea in the residents’ lounge. You know what she’s like, though, how she gets fixated on things. She keeps asking about the cat, wanting to know when you’ll be bringing her.’
My heart leapt with excitement. Could this whole horrendous ordeal be about to end with an ecstatic reunion at Margery’s new home?
David tutted loudly.
‘For God’s sake, I’ve been through this a million times with her. I’ve explained that she can’t have pets there. She knows that.’
‘I know, David,’ Pat answered, her tone placatory. ‘I’ve reminded her of that today as well. She nods, like she’s taking it in, but I don’t know if she’s really understood.’ There was a short silence before she added, ‘I’ve put a photo of the cat on her bedside table, next to the photo of your dad, but I’m not sure if that’s just going to make her worse.’
I felt as if my heart was going to burst with sorrow. Not for myself, and the crushing disappointment that we were not to be reunited after all, but for Margery. To think of her in strange surroundings, scared and confused– not just wanting butneeding me– was almost more than I could bear.