Nancy was looking at me intently, clearly delighting in the vicarious experience of exacting revenge on her old foe. She nodded at me to continue.
‘So I sort of . . . ’ I tried to recreate my pose as I had launched myself at Stan: forelegs stretched out, claws bared.
Nancy’s eyes widened.
‘And then I kind of . . . flew. At his nose.’
She squeaked with delight.
‘But then I found I was sort of . . . stuck. On his face.’ I mimed myself hanging from my front paws.
Nancy’s reaction made me see the funny side of the episode for the first time, and I started to enjoy telling the story.
‘He tried to shake me off, but couldn’t, because I was kicking him in the chest.’ I pumped my back legs against the ground to demonstrate.
‘He eventually shook me off, but I took a fair chunk of his face with me.’
‘That. Is. Brilliant,’ she said approvingly. ‘I wish I had been there to see it.’
‘It didn’t really feel brilliant at the time, but Rob seemed to find it hilarious.’
We sat side by side, intermittently washing and comparing experiences of life with Rob and his dogs.
‘So where do you think I should go then, to find a new owner?’ I asked at last. ‘I don’t want to stay around here.’ The thought of Rob finding me and taking me back to his house or, even worse, calling David to come and get me did not bear thinking about.
Nancy lifted her chin and looked around thoughtfully.
‘I suppose the best thing might be to head for town. I think it’s just a few miles that way.’ She jerked her head in the direction of the main road which ran alongside the playground. ‘There will be plenty of potential owners there, I’m sure of it. Although maybe you should spend a few days with me, before you set off,’ she added. ‘I can give you a few pointers. You don’t strike me as a cat who’s had to fend for herself before.’
I had to concede that she was right, and I gratefully accepted her offer.
Over the next few days I stuck close to Nancy as she shared her survival tips, such as how to sneak in through cat flaps to steal other cats’ food, and how to scavenge from dustbins. She showed me how to find overnight shelter, and how to cross busy roads safely. I eagerly absorbed everything she told me, secretly hoping I wouldn’t ever be called upon to use these skills.
She also taught me what she called her feline–human management strategy. It had never occurred to me to have a strategy in my relations with humans – to me, it was a straightforward case of find an owner you love and hope they love you back.
‘Humans always think they know what they want,’ Nancy explained, ‘but they don’t always know what they need. That’s where a cat comes in. You can be the one to show them.’
I wasn’t sure I understood what she meant, but I nodded eagerly nonetheless.
At last Nancy seemed satisfied that I was capable of surviving on my wits alone, and we set off early one morning for the playground at the edge of the estate.
‘Town’s that way,’ she said, looking north along the main road. ‘Stick to the hedgerows. There should be plenty of wildlife in there to keep you going, and farms along the way. And don’t cross this road unless you absolutely have to,’ she added with a look of sincere concern.
I nodded.
‘You know you can always come back, if things don’t work out. I’ll be here. I’m sure we could find you a home, or six.’
Her offer touched me, and for the first time I felt a twinge of disquiet about what lay ahead. Was I doing the right thing? I wondered. I may not have found an owner, but I had found a friend. Was I crazy to be leaving Nancy behind and setting out for an uncertain future in some unknown town?
As if she’d read my mind Nancy said, ‘You’ll be fine, I know it. You’ve been trained by the best, after all.’
She blinked at me and then leant forward. We touched noses briefly, a fleeting gesture that we both knew meant goodbye.
‘Well, go on then – off you go!’ she said, feigning impatience.
‘Thank you,’ I stuttered. Feeling my eyes start to prickle, I turned away. I slipped under the playground gate and across the grassy verge to the hedgerow that ran parallel to the road. I turned and looked at Nancy, who was watching me intently, her tail erect in salutation. I lifted my tail to mirror her posture, before turning to face the track ahead of me, ready to take my first steps as an independent cat.
8
Heeding Nancy’s words, I stayed close to the hedgerow that bordered the road, keeping well clear of the cars that roared past. Before long, Rob’s housing estate had disappeared behind a dip in the road and I was in open countryside.
My days quickly developed a rhythm. I hunted at dawn and dusk, walked during the daylight hours and found shelter overnight in the hedgerows and stone walls that criss-crossed the adjacent fields. My paw pads were soon sore from the constant walking, my legs ached, and I felt permanently exhausted. Having always considered washing to be an aid to meditation as much as a physical necessity, it was a shock to realize that a thorough top-to-toe wash was now a daily essential to remove the mud and burrs my fur had picked up. I was surprised, however, to find that I slept better in the open air than I ever had in Rob’s house. In spite of being exposed to the elements, my physical exertion meant that I slept deeply and soundly, from the moment I closed my eyes, until the sound of the dawn birdsong woke me.
Outdoor life was tiring and uncomfortable, but in those early days it was also exhilarating. Over time, my physical stamina improved and my hunting technique, which had always been somewhat half-hearted, was honed to brutal efficiency. I also became familiar with the natural world in a way that had never been necessary as an indoor cat. My knowledge of birds had been limited to those I could see from my windowsill – I had never troubled myself to wonder where they nested, or what they ate. Now I was learning that certain hedges were guaranteed to attract the songbirds that loved to feast on their berries, and I could be sure of a kill if I lurked, motionless, nearby. I could also tell from the reactions of the smaller birds when a bird of prey was hovering above the trees at the side of the road, a useful indicator that small rodents were in the vicinity.
The only signs of human habitation that I encountered were farm buildings. I would make a detour from my track to walk over to them – a night spent in a hay-filled barn felt like luxury, compared to what I had become used to. If I encountered people I would keep my head down and dart behind a wall or a piece of machinery. They would ignore me, assuming I was a farm cat, and I was happy to let them do so.
I had lost count of the number of days that had gone by since leaving the estate. My awareness of time’s passing came from the changes in light and air temperature. I had rarely felt cold when I had set out, and the sunlight had felt warm on my back. As the days had gone by, I was aware that the sun was rising lower in the sky and that its pale rays no longer exuded any warmth. The wind cut through my fur, and when it rained I was forced to seek shelter, otherwise a chill would soak through to my bones, leaving me shivery and weak. I knew that winter was coming, and for the first time I felt a flutter of panic. I didn’t know how far I was from town, but I would have to reach it before the depths of winter set in. I knew I could not survive outdoors once the months of snow and frost arrived.
One damp, grey afternoon I allowed my mind to wander as I plodded along the muddy track. I had tried not to let myself think about Margery since setting off for the town, but in my downcast mood I summoned up memories of winters at her house. There had been a rug on the floor in front of the gas fire, where I would doze for hours, legs outstretched and belly exposed, stirring only to change position when the heat became too much and I would turn so that a different part of my body faced the flames. I couldn’t help but wonder if I would ever find another home like Margery’s.