'Personally, I think orange is even better,' Bill said. 'That's just my opinion.'
'And this is us,' Holly said, touching a green-and-blue ball. 'That's earth. That's where we are .. . and guess what, Daddy.'
'What, darling?' Did he know that much about the planets when he was four? He didn't think so. In fact, he didn't know that much about the planets at thirty-one.
'The brightest stars you can see are already dead,' she said confidently. 'We see their image, and they look nice and lovely, but they died a long time ago.'
The brightest stars were dead already? Could this possibly
be true? He didn't know if he should correct her or not. She knew far more than he did.
'It's just something I learned,' Holly said.
The ayi ushered her off to brush her teeth before going to school, and Bill heard Becca in the bedroom on the phone to her father. He glanced at his watch. Breakfast time in Shanghai meant that it was around midnight back home.
Becca called her father almost every day. Bill felt a pang of guilt, because he hadn't phoned his own father since they'd arrived.
Perhaps he should give the old man a call, he thought, and immediately dismissed the idea. They wouldn't have anything to talk about. Or they would get into one of their pointless rows about nothing, hang up angry, and that would be even worse.
It was different when his mother was still alive. They were a real family then. But they had stopped being a real family fifteen years ago. Bill and his father tried hard, but they both knew that it was doomed to failure. Two men couldn't be a family. There were just not enough of them, there was no centre, no heart, and there were too many rough edges. Too much testosterone, too many rows. Everything and nothing proved reason for an argument, and then Kill was out of the house and off to university, working in the holidays and weekends because he had to, it was the only way he could afford to stick it, and because he didn't want to go home. It made him feel desperately sad to
admit it.
(iet the old man out here, Bill thought as down in the courtyard the limo appeared and Tiger pulled up behind I he silver Porsche. Yes, get the old man out here for a few weeks. Show him the sights. Let him spend some quality 1111it* with his granddaughter, who he loved to bits. That would work.
His feeling that family life had ended forever didn't change until he met Becca six years later. It was Becca who made him believe that he had a chance to belong to another family. He fell in love with her the night he met her, and it was like starting all over again.
Bill turned as Holly and the ayi came back into the room. His daughter still had the home-made universe in her hands and he smiled at her and got down on his knees to better admire the intricate design.
That's what love is, he thought, as down in the courtyard came the sound of a Porsche 911 pulling away.
A chance to start again.
For five years, between the age of eleven and sixteen, Becca and Alice Greene had been best friends.
It was one of those delirious all-consuming friendships of childhood, gloriously isolationist, a time of shared secrets and energetic recklessness – one night Alice had pierced Becca's ears with a needle that she had heated over a candle, and it was a bloodbath that they laughed about for years. But it was the kind of friendship that was always slightly out of whack.
They were both boarders at a school in Buckinghamshire, a grim Gothic building surrounded by lush wooded hills, like a setting from a fairy tale. When their friendship began they had dressed the same, and wore their hair in the same fashion, and both said they wanted to be journalists when they grew up. Naturally they loved it when their schoolmates and their teachers said that they looked like twins. Yet they were not twins.
Becca's father made a decent living at Reuters, but the school would have been out of reach without a scholarship, while Alice's family owned a string of restaurants on Boat Quay in Singapore, and Alice had that easy confidence
that comes from growing up with money that you haven't earned.
The largesse was one-sided – Becca enjoyed family holidays in Bali with Alice and her parents, shopping sprees in Hong Kong courtesy of Alice's credit card, first-class flights to Singapore during the long summer break. Singy, Alice called it, and before she was twelve years old Becca was calling it Singy too. Coming down to Singy, Bee? So when Becca learned that Alice was working as a freelance journalist in Shanghai, it felt like the best news in the world.
Alice turned up just before Holly's bedtime, and when the two women embraced fifteen years fell away.
The pair of them bathed Holly together, the child chatting excitedly at this admiring stranger, Alice making awestruck cooing sounds at Holly's beauty and newness, and Becca couldn't help feeling happy that perhaps she had restored some of the balance in their friendship. Now she had a child, a husband and a home, it felt like Alice wasn't the one who held a majority share in the good life.
When Holly was sleeping, Becca fetched a bottle of white wine from the fridge and carried it to where Alice was standing by the window.
'You're not writing any more?' Alice said, quite casually, although Becca felt the words press against some sensitive nerve.
'No. I'm looking after Holly, mostly.' She started telling the story of Holly's asthma attack in London, and Alice nodded and looked concerned, but Becca cut it short and (loured their wine. It sounded like an excuse, and it wasn't. It was a reason. 'Anyway, there's lots to do around here,' she said. Why the hell should she apologise for giving up work? 'What brought you to Shanghai, Al? I thought you'd be in Hong Kong or Singy.'
Alice grimaced, and Becca smiled. She could see the ghost
of the girl Alice had been at eleven, twelve, thirteen. Spoilt, generous, dead easy to love.
'You know what it's like for stringers,' Alice said. They clinked glasses and grinned at each other. 'Cheers. We have to follow the story.' Alice sighed. 'And the story they all want these days is the China dream. You know the thing – How China is reshaping our world. One billion new capitalists. The great China gold rush.' Alice looked out of the window. 'They – all the Western news outlets – want you to report the miracle.' She shook her head. 'But it's not all banana daiquiris at M on the Bund.'
'How do you mean?' Becca sipped her wine and felt a pang of foreboding. She really wanted them to have a good time tonight. Just get a bit drunk and talk for hours and feel that nothing had changed.
'I mean the principal reason the economy keeps growing is because foreign idiots want to invest here,' Alice said, and Becca recalled how impatient her friend could be with slowness and stupidity. There were girls at their school who were terrified of her. 'No Western CEO wants to go down as the man who missed China,' Alice said. 'But how can it be an economic miracle when five hundred million Chinese are living on less than a dollar a day? By the middle of the century China will have a bigger economy than the US. And you know what? They will still have five hundred million people getting by on a dollar a day. It stinks. The whole thing.' She sipped her drink. 'Nice wine,' she said.
'But a lot of them are leaving poverty behind, aren't they?' Becca said gently. 'I mean, that's what Bill's boss always says.'
'Some of them,' Alice conceded. 'A few million or so. But the Chinese deserve an affluence that's worth having – clean water, not empty skyscrapers; rule of law, not back-handers; uncensored news, not broadband porn. They need education,
democracy, a free press – not propaganda and Prada bags and traffic jams full of local-made Audis.'