“Oh. But you said—”
“I know what I said. I’m telling you, we struck out.”
“I’m sorry. I guess I got my hopes up. You seemed so sure last time I talked to you. I’m just disappointed is all. There’s coffee there if you want it.”
“Thanks.”
“I still appreciate everything you’re doing for me.”
“It’s okay, Unk.”
“I mean it. I know you get tired of my saying it, but I do. You’re all I got. You’re like the kid I never had, Reggie.”
“Not a kid anymore.”
“No, no — you’re all grown. You grew up fast, and early.”
“Didn’t have much choice. Coffee’s good.”
“I’m just sorry I wasn’t there for you sooner.”
“I’ve never blamed you. You know that. We don’t have to keep going over this. You see me obsessing about this? Huh? And I’m the one it all happened to. So if I can move on, you should be able to, too.”
“It’s hard for me.”
“You live in the past. That’s your problem, Unk. God, that’s what all this latest shit has been about. You have a hard time getting over things.”
“I... I was just hoping you’d found her.”
“I’m not giving up.”
“But I can see it in your face. You think this is all stupid. You think it doesn’t matter.”
“I didn’t say that. Not the last part. Look, I get why this is important to you, why she matters so much. And you’re important to me. You’re one of only two people I give a shit about, Unk.”
“You know what I can’t figure out about you?”
“What’s that?”
“You understand people, you get how they think and how they feel, you’ve got a real insight into them, yet you’ve got no... what’s the word?”
“Love?”
“No, that’s not what I was going to say.”
“Empathy?”
“Yeah, I guess that’s it.”
“Because I love you, Unk. Very much. But empathy? I suppose. I understand what makes people tick. I know what they’re feeling. I need to know what they’re feeling. I need to know when they’re afraid. I very much need to feel that they are afraid, but I don’t feel bad for them. Otherwise, I couldn’t get things done.”
“Yeah, well, I’d be better off if I was more like you. I guess it was empathy I felt for that damned Eli. He seemed like a lost kid — hell, he was no kid. He was twenty-one or — two. Something like that. I thought I was doing right by him, Reggie. I really did. And then the son of a bitch stabs me in the back.”
“I believe he approached the other interested party.”
“Shit, no.”
“It’s okay. Just an initial contact. He was holding back details until there was a face-to-face, which, of course, won’t be happening now. I think he told us the truth about what was done with her, but lied about where. And the teachers’ house was a nonstarter. Also, I’m starting to wonder about whether any of the people know. Whether they’ve given consent.”
“I don’t understand.”
“That’s okay. But what I was going to tell you is, I’m going to need more people, and it’s going to take a lot more up-front money.”
“Eli took all I’d set aside, Reggie.”
“That’s okay. I can put up money of my own. The tax refund thing’s going well. I’ve got reserves. And when this is over, I’ll not only get back my investment, and your money, but plenty of other money, too. There’s a silver lining to all this, as it turns out.”
“I still don’t understand.”
“That’s okay. You don’t have to. You just let me do what I do best.”
“I just can’t believe... after all these years, I finally win her back, and then I lose her again. Eli had no right, you know. He had no right to take her from me.”
“Trust me, Unk. We’ll get her back.”
Three
Terry
Just because Cynthia was no longer living with Grace and me didn’t mean we were strangers to each other. We spoke daily, sometimes met for lunch. Her first week away, the three of us went out to Bistro Basque, over on River Street, for dinner. The girls both had the salmon and I went with the chicken stuffed with spinach and mushrooms. We were all on our best behavior. Not a word about our visit to the hospital, even though Cynthia couldn’t keep her eyes off Grace’s bandaged hand. The unreality of the meal was exceeded only by the end of the evening, when Grace and I dropped Cynthia off at her place and we drove on home alone.
She really lucked into the apartment. Cynthia had a friend at work who was leaving the last week of June for a trip to Brazil and not planning to return until August, or maybe even September. Cynthia remembered her saying she’d tried to sublet the place for the summer, get someone who could take over the rent while she was away. She’d found no takers. A day before her friend was to fly out, Cynthia said she’d take the apartment. The friend cleared it with the landlord, an old guy named Barney, and then it was a go.
I hadn’t expected her to be gone until Labor Day, but as each day passed, and Cynthia showed no inclination to return, I was starting to wonder. At times I lay awake at night, half the bed empty next to me, wondering whether Cynthia would look for another place if this dragged on until early September when her friend returned.
About a week and a half after she’d left, I dropped by her place around five, figuring by then she’d be home from her job with the Milford Department of Public Health, where she was involved in everything from restaurant inspections to promoting good nutrition in the schools.
I was right. I saw her car first, parked between a sporty-looking Cadillac and an old blue pickup I recognized as Barney’s. He was cutting the grass down the side of the house, limping with each step, almost as if one leg was shorter than the other. Cynthia was sitting on the front porch, feet propped up on the railing, nursing a beer, when I pulled up out front of the house.
It was, I had to admit, a pretty nice place, an old colonial house on North Street, just south of the Boston Post Road. It no doubt belonged to some prominent Milford family years ago before Barney bought it and converted it into four apartments. Two on the ground floor and two upstairs.
Before I could say hello to my wife, Barney spotted me and killed his mower.
“Hey, how ya doin’?” he called out. Barney viewed Cynthia and me as minor celebrities, although ours was not the kind of fame anyone would want, and he seemed to enjoy brushing up against us.
“I’m good,” I said. “Don’t let me keep you from your work there.”
“I got two more houses to do after this one,” he said, wiping his brow with the back of his hand. Barney owned at least a dozen homes that he’d turned into rental units between New Haven and Bridgeport, although, from what he’d told me in previous conversations, I’d learned this was one of the nicer ones and he spent more time on its upkeep. I wondered whether he was planning to put it on the market before long. “Your missus is right up there on the porch,” he said.
“I see her,” I said. “You look like you could use a cool drink.”
“I’m good. Hope things are working out.”
“Excuse me?” I said.
“Between you and the wife.” He gave me a wink, then turned and went back to his mower.
Cynthia rested her beer on the railing and stood out of her chair as I came up the porch steps.
“Hey,” she said. I was expecting her to offer me a cold one, and when she didn’t I wondered whether I’d come at a bad time. Worry washed over her face. “Everything okay?”
“Everything’s fine,” I said.
“Grace is okay?” she asked.