‘He bought a new car,’ Sabri repeated.
‘Who?’
‘Abu Omar.’
‘I know. Red. I was watching him cleaning it last night.’
‘You don’t find that strange? The man has no job, has been complaining about poverty for twenty years, the roads around his house have been bulldozed, but he chooses to buy a car. You don’t find that somewhat bizarre?’ Sabri asked.
‘No, not really,’ Rashid shrugged. Give it a rest. Stop spying on the neighbours. Stop obsessing about minutiae. You can’t let yourself become a middle-aged fart, whether you have legs or not. Who cares anyway? It’s irrelevant. London! Lisa! London! Lisa! Lisa! Lisa!
Sabri was watching him. Whatever it was, Rashid wasn’t getting it.
‘With a master’s you should be able to get a teaching post when you get back, pass on what you’ve learnt,’ Sabri continued.
‘And then I can fulfil my national duty?’ Rashid scratched at his neck. His T-shirt sleeve fell open over his armpit as he did so. Sabri read a lot from the exposed armpit hair that he didn’t seem to like. Possibly there was too much of it.
‘Then you can fulfil your national duty.’ Sabri held open a book and looked up at Rashid through the edge of his glasses. ‘If you think that’s funny, then I really can see no reason for you to be taking up this scholarship. There are a number of very hardworking students who would give anything—’
‘Oh, come on. I just… Come on, Sabri. I was… I’m excited that it worked out. Just pleased, really. That’s OK, isn’t it?’
Sabri moved the book pile towards the back of his desk and lined his forearms up so that the fingers of one hand drummed on the back of the other hand.
‘And what reasoning would you attribute to them choosing a Hajjar girl for this suicide mission? They know the Hajjars are loyal to the Authority, to our great, wondrous leaders. Why do you think these religious groups did that?’ Sabri asked with a purpose that made Rashid stop pacing the room, until he realised he didn’t know the answer, which made him start pacing it again.
‘Well, girls are less likely to be checked as thoroughly as boys, so they probably thought that would help, and if she was not veiled and religious-looking like most of the bombers are…’ Rashid cupped his chin with his fingers as though his greatest point was yet to be delivered. It was a mockery of himself in an intellectual pose.
Sabri could not be bothered with either the pose or the point. ‘I’ll tell you what I think, because your assumption is no longer either relevant or accurate. Their security checks everyone: man, woman, girl, boy, stuffed bunny rabbit, veiled or in a bikini, everyone and anything. What I believe is that these religious groups are trying to show how powerful they are getting. What they are saying is, “Hey, look at what we can get one of the women from your most loyal families to do for us.” That’s what they’re saying. It is an internal message, not an external one. You must learn to tell the difference.’ Sabri gestured towards the window. ‘And what we saw last night, that bombing, was a direct result of the pretext handed to the other side by that Hajjar girl’s silly theatrics and the Islamic groups’ divisive politicking.’
‘I don’t think her family will see it that way.’
‘What? Her family? I am not concerned as to what her family think. They’re no concern of mine. But, to be positive about all this, I think we should view these moves as signs of desperation on their part – the Islamic groups that is.’ Sabri looked up at at Rashid as though he had little faith that Rashid could possibly be following what he was saying. ‘Here.’ He moved the books towards Rashid. ‘You better start on these. You only have a couple of weeks before you go.’
Outside the room, the books were too awkward for Rashid to hold; his thoughts were too angry for his mind to articulate. And the door of his brother’s room suddenly seemed sinister and horrible to him. The gunmen were still there, the fat one and the thin one, watching their building. Rashid had wanted to get Sabri’s opinion on them, or better still, tell Sabri about them as he might not have even seen them, but now he didn’t care. The hell with them.
He let a bit of light in for Gloria and snipped off some of her dead leaves with his nail scissors. Her soil was moist; her leaves were green. Everything about her was captivating, luscious, plentiful. She was divine. Gloria – the Finest Marijuana Plant in Gaza.
He looked around his room. A tape was stuck in the mouth of his video and the light was still on. He scraped out the tape with his nail scissors and placed them back into his open drawer of horror. On nights like the previous one when the ground shook, the sky was torn through and chemicals streaked through the air, he would go to this collection after coming down from the roof. He would lock himself into his darkened room with a screen of poltergeists, exorcists, zombies and vampires. He would listen to them scream out with the heightened sensual terror that only Gloria could engineer and would let them walk around his room taking over him and his reality to the exclusion of all else.
And then he could turn them off.
But London! Again he read the admissions secretary’s email that he had printed off, tracing each line with his finger before hugging it to his chest.
There were still two messages from Lisa that he had not even opened yet. He’d been too blown away by the email. The first one was about work and the Centre as it was addressed both to him and to Khaliclass="underline"
Dear Rashid and Khalil,
OK, I hope you guys are doing all right. It sounds a bit rough right now. Sorry that it’s been a while, but we’ve been working late and really slogging at it here, to the extent that we hardly get to see TV and know even what we are working away at! Anyway, I always say that, don’t I? I’m just working so hard – blah, blah, blah. But that’s not what I was writing to tell you, what I am really writing to let you know is that we have managed to get the meeting with the Parliamentary Committee set up! I know, I know, I’m a star and all that. It did take a lot of lobbying and pulling strings but I hope it’s going to be worth it. We agreed that it would be best to present on the following topics:
(1) impact of closure
(2) impact of bombing
(3) assassination policy
(4) situation on the ground in general
The meeting is taking place next week (Thursday at 6 p.m. in Westminster! In the Houses of Parliament!). I told them there was no way you guys could get here by then and they were a bit disappointed, you being the real thing and all that, but don’t worry, they still want to hear from us. Can you get some data together by then? The more numbers the better – you know: declining nutritional rates, increased unemployment statistics etc.?
Have we missed some of the assassinations? I get the feeling only the high-profile ones are being reported over here. Let me know about any small fry, will you?
Anyway, send us what you can get. Look forward to hearing from you guys.
She had delivered. Khalil would not show it, but he would be pleased.
The second message from Lisa was just for him. Rashid read this more carefully.
Rashid,
It was a bad call, I know, and I realise that things aren’t great for you right now, but you do have to think of alternatives to just Getting Out. What you are doing at the Centre with Khalil is really important, honourable work. I know you don’t like voluntary work—