The sheer number of machines was overwhelming. Seventy-eight to be exact. I took the time to count them over and over again. Seventy-eight, no mistake. Eight columns of machines were lined up and facing me, each column extending all the way to the back wall. It was as if chalk guidelines had been drawn on the floor; the columns were not an inch off. The whole place was as motionless as a fly sealed in acrylic. Not the slightest hint of movement. Seventy-eight deaths and seventy-eight silences. My only reflex was to move. If I didn't, I felt as if I too would have been counted in with these gargoyles.
Cold. That and the smell of dead chickens.
I slowly walked down the five narrow concrete steps. It was even colder at the bottom. The place gave me the creeps and I began to sweat. I took a handkerchief out of my pocket and wiped off the sweat, though I couldn't do a thing about the sweat that had poured from my armpits. I sat down on the bottom step and smoked a cigarette, my hands trembling.
My three-flipper "Spaceship" – I hadn't wanted to meet her like this. And the same held for her probably.
After closing the doors, you couldn't even hear any insects chirping. The perfect silence blanketed the floor like fog. The seventy-eight pinball machines planted their three hundred twelve legs firmly on the floor, patiently bearing up their immovable weight. A sorry scene.
I sat there and whistled the first four bars of "Jumping with Symphony Sid," Stan Getz with the Head Shaking and Foot Tapping Rhythm Section.
My whistling echoed magnificently in the unobstructed emptiness of that refrigerator. I began to feel a little better, and whistled the next four bars. Then the next four. I felt as if every machine had its ears pricked to listen. Though, of course, none turned around to look, nor tapped a foot. My whistling simply died away, absorbed into the far corners of the warehouse.
"Awful cold," I muttered after having finished my whistling session. The echo didn't sound like my voice. It bounced off the ceiling and came down like mist across the floor. I couldn't sit here putting on a one-man show forever. Sitting motionless, I felt as if the chill would penetrate to the bone, and I would be soaked through and through with the smell of chickens. I stood up and brushed the cool dirt off my trousers. Then I ground out my cigarette beneath the heel of my shoe, and tossed it into a nearby tin can.
Pinball, pinball. Isn't that why I came here?
The cold was putting a damper on me. Think: It's pinball, right? Seventy-eight pinball machines. Okay, the switch. Somewhere in this building there's got to be an electric switch to bring these seventy-eight machines back to life. A switch, so find it.
I thrust both hands in the pockets of my jeans, and slowly began to walk the inside perimeters of the building. Here and there on the seamless walls hung ripped-out wires and lead pipes from the time when the building had been used for cold storage. Meters and junction boxes and switches had all been gouged out of the walls by brute force, leaving crater-sized holes. The walls were much slimier than they appeared at a distance. Like a giant slug had crawled all over them. It was a monster of a building when you actually started walking around the place. Unbelievably large for one chicken farm's refrigerated warehouse.
Directly opposite the steps I had come down was another set of steps. And at the top of those steps, identical iron doors. So identical that I thought for a moment that I'd done one complete lap around the building. I pushed on the doors tentatively, but they didn't budge a hair. No bolts or locks, yet they betrayed not the slightest sign of motion. It was as if they were painted shut. I withdrew my hand from the door, and without thinking about it, wiped the sweat from my brow. The smell of chickens.
The switch was beside the doors. A big old throw-switch. I threw the switch and all at once the whole floor started to rumble. The sound sent a shiver up my spine. Next, there followed an outrageous fluttering like tens of thousands of birds flapping their wings. I turned around and looked out over the refrigerated warehouse. It was the sound of seventy-eight pinball machines drinking in electricity, their scoreboards clicking down the thousands to zero. After the commotion settled down, only a piercing electric hum like a swarm of bees lingered on. In no time at all, that warehouse full of seventy-eight pinball machines had come to life. The playing field of each and every machine flashed with bright colored lights, the boards all bursting with their respective dream images.
I walked down the steps, and slowly paced the aisles between the seventy-eight pinball machines, a general reviewing his troops. A number were vintage machines I'd only seen in photographs, a number were models familiar to me from the game center. Then there were machines that time had forgotten, the likes of which I'd never seen. What was the name of that astronaut, painted on the board of this Williams' "Friendship 7"? 'Glenn'? Early sixties. A Bally "Grand Tour" with its blue sky, Eiffel Tower, happy American traveler. "Kings and Queens," a model with eight roll-over lanes. A beautifully mustached, crewcut, nonchalant-looking Western gambler, with an ace hidden behind his spur.
Super heroes, monsters, college girls, football, rockets, and women – all worn-out and faded dreams that had done their time in game centers.
These heroes and women smiled at me from their boards. Blondes, platinum blondes, brunettes, red-heads, raven-tressed Mexican girls, Ann-Margaret, Audrey Hepburn, Marilyn Monroe – every one of them pridefully heaving an awesome pair of breasts. Some from underneath sheer blouses unbuttoned to the waist, some from under one-piece bathing suits, some from beneath the pointy tips of brassieres, breasts never losing their shape, but faded all the same. Their lamps kept flashing in time with their heartbeats. Seventy-eight pinball machines, a graveyard of old, old dreams beyond recall. I threaded my way past these old girls.
The three-flipper "Spaceship" waited for me at the far end of the row. She was lined up between more gaudily made-up numbers, looking awfully demure. Like she'd been sitting on a flat stone in a clearing in the forest, just waiting for me. I stood there in front of her looking at the familiar board.
Deep blue space, a spilled-ink ultramarine. And in it, tiny white stars: Saturn, Venus, Mars, while in front floated a pure white spaceship. The portals of the spaceship were lit up, and inside a family gathering appeared to be in progress. A few shooting stars trailed glowing lines through the darkness.
The field was just as I remembered. The same dark blue. The targets smiled bright white toothy grins. Ten raised star-shaped bonus lights slowly pulsed with a lemon yellow glow. The two kick-out holes were Saturn and Venus, and the lotto target, Mars. Stillness permeated everything.
So how's tricks, I said. Or maybe I didn't say it. But in any case, I laid my hand on the glass top.
Cold as ice, it clouded over from the heat of my hand, leaving the white outline of ten fingers. Only then did she recognize me and smile up in my direction. It was a smile just like old times. I smiled, too.
It seems so long, she said. I feigned a preoccupied look, and flexed my fingers. Three years it'd been.
Like no time at all.
We nodded to each other, then fell into a hush. If it had been a coffee shop, we'd have sipped our coffee and fingered the lace curtains.
Been thinking about you, I said, and I've been feeling just miserable.
Sleepless nights?