“I’ll wait in the nave, mes pères.” Charles said. He went out and stood at the foot of the altar steps. As the quiet closed around him, he felt the unquiet he was carrying inside himself. And would go on carrying until-when? He looked up at what he could see of the delicately arched stone ceiling, as though the answer were up there somewhere, under the prayer-soaked roof. Until Lulu was safe in Poland? Until it was clear there was no baby? Until Montmorency was gone from Louis le Grand? Until the Prince of Conti tripped up and was exposed? Until Louis XIV was dead and the burden of his search for gloire was lifted from France and his ineffectual son ruled in his stead? Until sin was unwound and humankind was back in Eden, whatever the weather there might be?
Charles told himself sternly that, for the next hour, all that mattered was the Mass, which he would be more intimately part of than he usually had the chance to be. Serving at Mass was part of a scholastic’s learning, toward the time when he would be ordained priest. But Louis le Grand had many scholastics, and the chance didn’t often come Charles’s way. He closed his eyes where he stood, began a prayer for his serving, felt its self-importance, and let it go. Finally he just stood there letting the quiet hold him.
The sacristy door opened, the two priests came out, and Damiot handed Charles a smoking censer, whose bittersweet scent floated around them as they went to the street doors. When they had the door standing wide, they saw the funeral procession coming down the rue St. Denis, taking up nearly its whole width. The black-draped coffin was carried on the shoulders of Monsieur Delarme’s fellow members of the Congregation of the Holy Virgin. Behind the coffin came the men of the bourgeois Congregation of the Holy Virgin, friends, and family. Behind them a mass of hired mourners shuffled, beggars who’d been given coins and black hooded robes and candles to follow the coffin. People in the street made way for the procession, men doffed hats, and everyone crossed themselves as it passed. One day, they would each want the same courtesy.
The priests led the procession into the church, Charles swinging his censer in the lead. As the familiar and majestic Latin floated through the nave with the clouds of smoke as Mass began, Charles carried the Gospel book and the Mass book from one side of the chancel to the other, and brought water and a towel for Damiot’s ritual hand washing. When Damiot spoke the words of consecration that made the bread and the wine into Christ’s sacrifice for lost humanity, each word sank into Charles’s flesh. When he rang the little silver bell as his friend’s long sinewy fingers held up the Host like a small rising sun, Charles knew with almost physical pain that he wanted more than anything on earth to do what Damiot was doing, knew it in spite of his struggles with obedience, in spite of his arguments with God.
Then the Mass was over and the procession carried Monsieur Delarme out to his tomb, Charles stumbling and blinking in the light like Lazarus, still swinging his censer. Only the priests and the close family went with the coffin into the small stone room under the arcade where the tomb was. Charles stood just outside the door, slowly coming back to the ordinary world as he waited with the hired mourners and the confraternity members. He turned slightly so that he could see part of the cemetery. The bedraggled women and the group of men were gone, and the musicians were leaning against the shady side of what looked like an outdoor pulpit, sharing a loaf of bread and a leather bottle of something. A neatly coiffed woman came in through the rue aux Fers door with several young children, who broke from her shepherding and raced, shrieking with delight, across the cemetery, the two little boys leaping joyously across the empty open grave. The door in the wall opened again and an older boy, wiry and slight, wearing a big plumed hat, came a few steps inside and gazed at the burial ground and the church. Then he backed out of the doorway, but his grace and sureness told Charles his name. What was thirteen-year-old Michele Bertamelli, Charles’s student and wildly talented dancer, doing out of the college alone and at Holy Innocents?
Charles pulled his surplice unceremoniously over his head and thrust it at the startled man beside him. “Monsieur, give this to Père Damiot, I beg you,” he said in the man’s ear. “Tell him, please, to wait for me. I will return.”
Charles ran toward the street door. Behind him, the man hissed, “For the bon Dieu’s sake, just use the wall, maître-it’s no great matter!”
Bertamelli was gone, of course, before Charles reached the door and the rue aux Fers. But he saw the hat’s white plume bobbing as Bertamelli turned left at the corner and started up St. Denis. Loping after him, Charles opened his mouth to call out to the boy, then shut it. He wanted to know where Bertamelli was going. But Bertamelli, nearly as agile with words as with dance, was unlikely to tell him straight out. Following him would yield better results. Keeping the boy in sight, Charles walked seemingly at ease among the crowd, pulling his cassock skirts aside from the street dirt, shaking his head at beggars and vendors, having nothing to give or spend, and nearly falling flat when a dog chased a cat almost under his feet. Bertamelli kept straight on until the rue du Mauconseil, where he turned left again, past a low stone building with scallop shells carved on its gateway. In spite of his hurry, Charles stopped, staring at the sculptures of the apostles across the building’s front and realizing that this was the Hospital of St. Jacques, a shelter for the poor where St. Ignatius himself had lived as a penniless student. Telling himself he’d come back, Charles put on a burst of speed.
He quickly had Bertamelli in sight again. Mauconseil was almost tranquil after the din of the rue St. Denis, and Charles had to follow slowly, keeping the sparse traffic and scattered vendors’ stalls between him and the little Italian. The street curved briefly to the south, and as it straightened, Bertamelli stopped at a corner where crumbling walls enclosed an overgrown garden. In the midst of the tangle of greenery, an old, half-ruined tower rose, looking bereft, as though it had once been part of something more. Charles hung back, thinking that Bertamelli was waiting for a pair of horsemen to turn out of the side street before he crossed. But the boy suddenly disappeared into the garden.
Charles hurried to the breach in the wall, but Bertamelli was gone from sight. The tower, with its empty arched windows and battlemented top, was just the sort of place a thirteen-year-old would want to explore. But surely the boy hadn’t slipped out of the college only for that. How would he even know the tower was here? Charles stepped back out of sight and waited for Bertamelli to come out when he’d satisfied his curiosity and go on to wherever he was really going.
But he didn’t come out, though from somewhere a clock struck the half hour. Charles began to worry. Suppose he’d fallen down the no doubt half-ruined stairs? Charles waded into the rank grass, grunting in exasperation as he stumbled over hidden stones and pulled his cassock out of the grasp of wickedly thorned roses long gone wild. He started to call out, then again bit off the sound before it shattered the quiet. He still wanted to know where Bertamelli was really going.
Halfway around the tower with still no sign of a door, he looked up at the dark blank window arches and saw that the structure was at least five stories high. Wondering who had built it, and why it stood forlorn in this tiny rank wilderness, he kept on until he was nearly where he’d started. And saw the low arched doorway, visible only from the place he’d reached because dense bushes blocked it from every other angle.