“She needs someone right now,” Dad said, “and that can’t be me. Jake’s not cut out for it, and the only thing Nancy’s going to do is dance when she’s dead. It can only be you. You’re a minister, for God’s sake.”
“Yeah, I’m a minister. And, I would find it easier to minister to anyone in this world other than her.”
“You can’t do it?” he asked.
“I am going to do it,” I said. “I just question how effective it will be.”
“You’ll do great, Son. You’ve got a gift. Now, sit down here, and let’s watch some boxing.” I knew he would say no more about Mom.
“I’ve got to go, Dad. I’ve got a service to do at the prison. Sorry.”
“That’s okay. By the way, how’s the investigation going?”
“Barely going at all, I think, but it’s hard to tell. You can go along and think you’ve got nothing, and then you’ve got everything. Who knows?”
“Well, you keep me posted. This is still my county.” “I will, Dad,” I said. “And, about Mom, too.” “Yeah, thanks,” he said but his mind was back on boxing.
Chapter 26
“I know of no other way to put this,” I said, “so I am just going to come out and say it.”
“Okay,” Jasper said as he nodded his head up and down. He was as big an inmate as we had on the compound-well over six and a half feet tall and well over two hundred eighty pounds. He had skin the color of Tupelo honey and teeth to match. His hair was always unruly, and his two front teeth were separated by nearly a quarter of an inch, causing him to look like a black David Letterman.
“I hear that you’re one of the main suppliers of drugs on the compound.”
We were seated in my office in the chapel on Sunday morning around ten. My eyes stung, and I spoke, as best I could, between yawns. I needed some rest. I needed some sleep. I also needed to know if I had the AIDS virus floating around in my blood.
It was less than an hour until the service, and the sounds of the choir rehearsing could be heard from within the chapel sanctuary. The song they were rehearsing for today’s service was “Power in the Blood.” If Jasper Evans were dealing drugs, then I wanted him to deal himself out of that choir.
Would you be free from the burden of sin? There’s power in the blood, power in the blood; Would you o’er evil a victory win? There’s wonderful power in the blood.
I was anxious to get the conversation over because when I had arrived at my office, I had discovered in my mail another letter from the killer. I was dying to read the letter, but I had to wait until I was alone.
Since he didn’t answer, I asked him again, “Are you?”
There is power, power, wonder-working power in the blood of the lamb. There is power, power, wonder-working power in the precious blood of the lamb.
He continued to look as if I had asked him to explain to me the theory of relativity. Finally, he shrugged, tilted his head to the left, and made an expression that said, What can I say?
He didn’t seem overly concerned that I knew.
“How long has this been going on?” I asked.
“A while,” he said.
“And you saw no conflict between what you’re doing and being our minister of music?”
“Two different things. I know that doing dope is a sin, but I don’t do it. And I only sell the small stuff. I don’t sell no crack or shit like that. But, Brother Chaplain, I love to sing in the choir.”
Would you be free from your passion and pride? There’s power in the blood, power in the blood. Come for a cleansing to Calvary’s tide? There’s wonderful power in the blood.
“I know you do, and you are very good. In fact, I don’t know what I am going to do without you, but you must realize that I can no longer allow you to lead the choir.”
“I got to sing,” he said emphatically as if he were saying, I’ve got to breathe.
“Certainly you can sing, but not in the choir and especially not as the choir leader.”
“Why not?” he asked.
“As a leader you take on more responsibility and accountability to the group, not to mention God. You have to attempt to live in such a way as not to bring reproach on the Body of Christ.”
“That what you do?” he asked.
“I certainly do the attempting part, but I do not succeed.”
“How you can be the chaplain then?”
“The requirements do not involve being perfect.”
Through my window I could see the inmates fortunate enough to receive a visit from their loved ones in the fenced-in visiting park. Couples walked around the yard holding hands, families sat at tables eating ice cream, children ran and played-remove the chain-link fence and razor wire, and you’d have an average Sunday afternoon in any park in America.
“But you say you don’t do it,” he said, trying to understand.
Would you do service to Jesus your King? There’s power in the blood, power in the blood. Would you live daily his praises to sing? There’s wonderful power in the blood.
“Yeah, but I’m not out doing illegal things either. I mean, I am not as mature or integrated in most areas of my life as I want to be, but I’m not doing anything illegal or even immoral. That’s the difference.”
We were silent for a moment. “You say you don’t sell the hard stuff?” I asked.
“That’s right,” he said with pride.
“Who does?”
“Don’t nobody on the ’pound. It’s too hard to get, too much trouble. Not many inmates can afford it anyway.”
“Are you saying that there is no crack on the compound?”
“None that I know of. And I’d know. When it come to drugs, I the man,” he said defiantly. Then he realized whom he was talking to.
“Did you know Ike Johnson?”
“Knew of him.”
“What can you tell me about him?”
“He was taken care of.”
“What do you mean?”
Jasper rolled his eyes in exasperation over having to explain so much to this naive chaplain.
“Somebody took care of him. But it wasn’t no inmate. It had to be an officer. He do whatever the hell he want. He get high every day, and he stopped getting it from me a long time ago.”
“Is there another inmate he could have gotten it from?”
“No.”
“How do you get the drugs that you sell?”
“Can’t say, sir. Get lotsa people in trouble. People that can give me a world of trouble if they want to.”
“So you’re saying that it comes from the staff?”
“I ain’t saying.”
“Okay. If you think of anything else you can tell me about the drug trade inside here, I would sure like to know. You coming to church this morning?”
“Am I going to be singing?”
“No,” I said.
“No,” he said.
There is power, power, wonder-working power in the blood of the lamb. There is power, power, wonder-working power in the precious blood of the lamb.
As soon as he left, I tore open the letter. “Chaplain, I not going to tell you again. This is your last warning. I will kill the bitch if you don’t back off. I’ll kill you too. It’s going to hurt. Leave Molly Thomas alone, too. Nothing but trouble there. Now’s a good time to take some time off.”
I read and reread it several times. Maybe the letter wasn’t from the murderer. It could be from a witness or about something that was totally unrelated. I wondered if Anna was in any real danger. I thought about taking more precautions, and, as it turned out, I should have.
“Today we are here to receive the holy Eucharist,” I said, beginning my Sunday morning chapel communion service. All week I had been thinking, even obsessing, on the power of blood. I was interested in seeing how it would affect what I was going to say.
“We are here to eat the body and to drink the blood of Christ. On the night of the feast of the Passover, Jesus revealed to his disciples that he was about to become their Passover. His blood would be shed for an entirely new Passover. This was, of course, very familiar to them. Their minds raced back to the time when the people of their great nation were little more than a band of slaves in Egypt. Daily they cried out to God for deliverance. God answered them after four hundred years-for God is never in a hurry. God’s answer came in the form of a deliverer.