Yet Yusra and Sara managed to escape and, four weeks after leaving Damascus, they arrived with thousands of others at Vienna’s main train station. Around them, and to their disbelief, crowds of Austrians applauded and cheered, offering food and flowers, holding aloft home-made signs: Wilkommen Flüchtlinge. Welcome Refugees. After a hot meal and medical checks, the sisters were put on another bus.
Eight hours later, in the depths of the night, they pulled off the autobahn and into a courtyard. Another crowd and another handmade sign awaited them: ‘Welcome to Berlin Spandau.’
One hundred miles off the Libyan coast the ghosts wore white protective suits and spoke Italian. They pulled Charity out of the sea and into the Zodiac. She lay on its floor sobbing, as she and the others were ferried to the frigate. On board all were photographed, their nationality and age recorded. Charity claimed that she was eighteen years old. On windswept Lampedusa she was given dry clothes and flip-flops. In the shelter’s yard, Malians wrapped in mylar blankets queued at the free payphones. Guineans and Ghanaians played football as Senegalese women watched from the surrounding balconies. Indoors, Gambian girls cut the blue string from their wrists, tied there by Médecins Sans Frontières nurses to show they were unaccompanied minors. Of the thousands of Nigerian women rescued from the Mediterranean in the last few years, 80 per cent were trafficked for sex work.
Charity hardly left her bunk for the first days. She kept her thoughts to herself, telling the doctors only that she had been kidnapped. Her details were registered with Frontex, the EU border agency, and she was transferred in a group to Messina and then to the Italian mainland. At the camp she was told that she was free, that she need do only what she wanted. But she had no money, and groups of West African men loitered on the breezeblock wall at the entrance. As soon as she received her travel document, she vanished.
Where she went, what she did, how she fed herself, she would not tell me. She simply dropped out of sight, leaving no trace: no mobile phone trail, no asylum registration, no claim for financial support. She ceased to exist, her name and number deleted from the Italian registry after a year. No one looked for her, and it seems no one looked after her, until she turned up in Berlin.
A couple of months before I reached the city she passed through the Moabit LaGeSo Refugee Welcome Centre – around the corner from Thomas Brussig’s home – and was given a bed at Tempelhof. The old airport which had kept the city alive during the Berlin Airlift now sustained its newest residents. Its hangars had been lined with ranks of white tents. On its noticeboards German lessons were advertised in Arabic, Farsi, Russian, Somali and Vietnamese. Syrian fathers pushed hand-me-down prams along the airport apron. Young Uzbeks lounged at mobile phone charge points. To date Germany has given shelter to almost two million refugees in a noble and magnanimous act of humanity and contrition.
Vertriebene has a special meaning for Germans, the word understood more as ‘the evicted’ rather than ‘refugees’. It is replete with the memory of the millions of ethnic Germans expelled from Soviet territories after the war. A Berlin friend of mine works as a volunteer at Tempelhof, manning its dozen washing machines. Every day, all day, refugees bring their clothes to her. Few words are spoken, no names exchanged. The work is numbing, humbling and essential. My friend puts the dirty laundry in a numbered basket and issues a numbered receipt, which is needed to retrieve it.
But Charity lost her receipt. She forgot her number. She hovered near to the machines for a day and a half, hoping to see her clothes. When she didn’t spot them, she summoned the courage to approach my friend. In broken German she explained her loss. She fought to hold back the tears. Together the two women looked through the numbers and in cupboards. After an hour they found the clothes, in a machine that had broken down mid-cycle and was awaiting repair in a far storeroom. In the murky water was all that Charity owned in the world. My friend asked for her name, not her number, and Charity broke down and wept.
Over the next few weeks I met her four or five times in my friend’s apartment. My friend – like tens of thousands of Germans across the country – acted as a kind of foster parent, guiding Charity through the bureaucratic jungle, helping her to translate and file the papers necessary to claim asylum. She also taught her how to ride a bicycle. During that time, when not filling out forms, Charity told me her story – her odyssey – while sitting with us by the kitchen window. There was a delicacy about her: oval face, plain headscarf, teeth as white as her eyes that were always focused on the floor. She sat by a window, she said, to forget the lightless Tripoli cell.
‘Hier bin ich sicher,’ she assured me, a breeze lifting the curtains. I’m safe here. But somehow I sensed that she didn’t believe it.
Charity wanted to make herself useful, she said, and my friend found her unpaid work at a nearby cemetery. Sprawling Weissensee was the largest Jewish burial ground in Europe, the final resting place of more than 100,000 Berliners, yet today it is all but deserted. Ivy has crept into its pre-war tombs and cracked its stones. Brambles have swallowed its grandiose Wilhelmine monuments. Under the Nazis, Weissensee was closed and the city’s Jews sent to distant death camps. Urn fields of ashes from Auschwitz, Bełżec and Bergen-Belsen now fan out from the old mausoleums. Almost no one remains alive in Berlin to remember its dead.
Charity pushed her wheelbarrow around the graves. She walked the overgrown paths and cut back the wild ivy from sunken headstones. As she worked her family often came to her in visions, she told me, her father staring from a far copse of trees, her mother’s shadow falling across a collapsed tomb. She also said that she saw other ghosts but she didn’t understand their language.
‘Sometimes I feel so helpless. Sometimes I wake up asking, “Why did I wake?”’ she told my friend in the quietest voice.
I wasn’t in Berlin when she disappeared again. Her asylum claim had been refused, as first requests often are. My friend had sat with her, explaining how to reapply but Charity just stared out of the window as if she might slip through it. It was winter by then and she’d pointed at the bare chestnut tree in the courtyard garden and said, ‘Soon there will be birds in the tree, and a nest, and leaves to hide the nest.’ Together they’d drunk tea until the pot was empty. When Charity had stood to leave she’d added to my friend, ‘God keep you.’
She didn’t turn up for work in Weissensee. She failed to appear at the refugee cafe at the weekend. At the hostel my friend learned that she had simply left with her raffia bag, telling another Eritrean that she had to meet someone in Italy.
My friend mourned Charity’s passing, blaming herself for not doing enough. She revisited the rejected application again and again. But then she moved on, as she had to do, volunteering to mentor twins from Iraq while keeping Charity’s memory in her heart. She even persuaded two German neighbours to help her at Tempelhof.
‘My neighbours were as scared as the Iraqi girls,’ said my friend. ‘I told them, “Take my hand, and you’ll find a person that touches you, who opens your heart. You may even fall in love with their story and then really be able to help them.”’