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Aylaen descended into the hold. She lit a lamp, made of cloth soaked in olive oil, to help her search. The ship was well stocked for their journey. They had flour, olives and olive oil, salted pork, beef in brine. When Sigurd and the others, herself included, had believed Treia’s lie that she was going to help them escape, they had packed the hold of the Venjekar with supplies enough to last for a long sea voyage.
Aylaen was glad to escape the sight of the others. She needed some time to herself, to try to sort out her new feelings for Skylan. She stood at the bottom of the ladder, in the fog-bound darkness, and realized that these feelings weren’t new. That was the problem. She had always loved Skylan. She had loved Garn more, or so she had told Skylan-and Garn.
Aylaen closed her eyes and turned her gaze inward. In that moment, she was forced to see the truth. Her grief over Garn’s death was not because she had loved him well. She grieved because she had not loved Garn well enough. She had loved him because she was afraid Sigurd was going to arrange a marriage to some stranger. She had loved Garn to escape her home and her stepfather’s abuse. She had loved Garn because she had wanted a baby. She had loved Garn because-and this shamed her-she could control Garn. He would do anything she asked for love of her. And ever since she had been a little girl and knocked him flat on his ass for teasing her, she had loved Skylan.
Skylan-brash, handsome, bold. Skylan, who had a string of women hanging from his line like fresh-caught fish. Skylan, who had claimed to love her, but who had really been in love with war and honor and being a hero and rising to power among the Vindrasi. Looking into his blue eyes then she had seen a boy’s arrogance, confidence, the idea that he could do anything he wanted, have anything he wanted.
Now when she looked into his blue eyes, she saw the shadow of grief and loss and the bitter knowledge of his own failure. She saw a man trying to make up for his misdeeds, trying to earn the right to call himself a leader instead of claiming it, trying to regain his lost honor. She saw his love for her, a man’s love for a woman …
He has changed and I have changed, Aylaen thought. We were children then. We are children no longer. We have waded through blood and ridden through fire. We fought the Vektia dragon side by side. He owes his life to me. I owe my life to him. We are bound together by our love for Garn and by grief at his death.
What truly saddened Aylaen and filled her with guilt was that Garn had understood all of this. He knew that she was using him and he had gone on loving her because he also knew that she needed him. He had come back from the dead to make her understand, to make her let go.
She was standing in the hold, lost in her thoughts, when a hand snaked out of the mists and grabbed her wrist. A shrill voice made her heart lurch.
“Is Skylan going to kill me?”
“Treia!” Aylaen gasped. “You scared me half to death!”
Aylaen had forgotten her sister was down here. Treia gripped her, hard.
“Is he going to kill me?”
Treia’s face was livid. Her hair was wet and tangled. The thin robes of a priestess of Aelon clung to her body, revealing her breasts and the bones of her thin, spare frame. Her eyes were large and burned with a frightening luster.
Aylaen shivered in the chill, dank closeness of the hold. The armor she wore was cold and it pinched. She tried to pull away.
“No, of course he’s not going to kill you,” Aylaen said sharply. She tried to behave normally around her sister. All she could think of was Keeper’s body lying on the deck, Treia handing him something to drink.
“Then Skylan’s a weak fool.” Treia let go of her sister’s arm and sank back down onto the sea chest. She smiled an unpleasant smile. “But I’ve always thought that. I overheard the two of you talking and now I know the secret that Vindrash kept from all the world. I know the secret of the Five Vektia dragons. I know that to control one of the Five, you must have all of the Five. And if Skylan does not kill me, I will find all five.”
“And give them to Aelon?” Aylaen asked.
“I won’t ‘give’ the Five to anyone,” said Treia. “The god will have to come to me.”
“You poisoned the guards. You poisoned Keeper,” said Aylaen shakily. “I’ve tried to love you, Treia. I’ve defended you, even knowing you tried to kill me along with our comrades. You sent us into the catacombs knowing that Raegar was plotting our deaths. I am your sister, Treia! These men are your friends!”
Treia gave a bitter laugh. “Friends who mock me, call me ‘spinster,’ term me ‘frigid.’ My own stepfather deemed me too ugly to try to arrange a marriage for me.” She cast Aylaen a scathing glance. “As for you, I never asked you to love me.”
Treia looked away. She sat on the sea chest, her arms clasped tight around her. She was tense, rigid, her jaw clenched. For all her talk, she was afraid.
“Skylan won’t kill you,” Aylaen said. “He won’t kill you because he is Skylan and you are defenseless and alone, just as Keeper was defenseless and alone when you poisoned him.”
“What else could I do?” Treia cried angrily. “You were going to surrender to the ogres. And Raegar was coming to save me. He loves me! No one else. Only him.”
Aylaen understood. Treia was right. With Keeper, one of their godlords, on board the Venjekar to vouch for the Torgun, the ogres would have welcomed them as friends and allies. Keeper and Skylan planned to rally the ogres, urge them to attack Raegar’s new dragonship. Treia couldn’t allow that to happen and she had murdered Keeper.
“I pity you,” said Aylaen softly.
Treia stared into the darkness of the hold. “You should have died. If you had, all would be well now…”
Aylaen turned away, a sick feeling in the pit of her stomach, and went to search for the flour.
“Aylaen,” Skylan called tensely down into the hold. “Are you all right?”
“He must think Treia’s going to murder me,” Aylaen muttered. Remembering Treia’s burning eyes, Aylaen was suddenly glad she was wearing armor.
She called back that she was fine as she made her way to the stern where the jars containing the supplies were stored. The jars were well secured. Only one had broken in the tumultuous trip downriver and that jar had not, thank the gods, contained the flour. Aylaen groped about until she found a piece of the broken jar to use as a crude bowl. She mixed some of the flour with the water to form a whitish paste.
“Give me the spiritbone of the Vektia,” said Treia. “If you don’t give it to me, Skylan will die.”
Aylaen tried to shove past. Treia blocked her way.
“I’ve seen the way you look at Skylan,” Treia sneered. “You little whore. First you jump into Garn’s bed, and now that he’s dead you leap into Skylan’s.”
Aylaen gasped as though Treia had punched her. “I’m not-”
“Be quiet and listen to me. If you keep that spiritbone, Skylan is marked for death. The god, Sund, looked into the future and saw Skylan with the Five bones and the Old Gods defeated. That’s why the gods want Skylan dead.”
“That makes no sense! I don’t believe you,” said Aylaen scornfully. “And I won’t give you the spiritbone.”
Treia shrugged. “Then Skylan is doomed.”
Aylaen swept past her sister and, carrying the paste, she doused the light and climbed the ladder and went up on deck.
CHAPTER 4
The Torgun gathered around Keeper in solemn reverence. Death comes to all, ogre and human, and must be respected. Each of them said something to honor the dead, sharing a story that spoke to Keeper’s bravery and courage. Aylaen spoke a prayer to speed his soul.
“His gods are not our gods,” she said. “I do not know their names, except that they are called the Gods of Raj. If they are listening, let them hear that Keeper was a good man, a brave warrior, and that I counted him as my friend.”