Some moments passed, Rizzo sipping his coffee, Carol eating her pie.
“So, kiddo, how’d you do on the police exam? Any feelings about it?”
“Well, I just took it a couple of weeks ago,” Carol answered, shrugging. “Naturally, I haven’t heard anything yet. But it was pretty easy. I think I maxed it.”
“Okay,” Rizzo said, his eyes on hers. “So what’s next?”
“You know how it works, Daddy: written test, medical, physical agility, psychological. Then into the Academy.”
Rizzo began to drum his fingers on the table. Carol reached out a hand, laying it on his to stop the drumming. She smiled as she spoke, her voice soft.
“Relax, Dad,” she said. “You can handle this. So can Mom.”
Rizzo turned his hand under hers, taking hold of it and massaging it gently in his grasp. For reasons unfathomable to him, memories of her First Holy Communion day wafted across his mind’s eye.
“Yeah, Carol,” he said, his voice the equal to hers in softness, “I guess we could.” He paused. “You know, it’s not about your mother and me, honey. I understand it’s hard for you to accept that, but it’s always been about you. About what you could handle, about what was right for you.”
Carol placed her other hand over the one Rizzo was holding. “Yes, I do know. I’ve always known that. But this is what I really want. I’ve just spent the entire week reading about you and Cil, how you solved the Mallard case. I have the Newsday article framed and hanging in my room at school. I’m very proud of you, Dad. That’s why I had to come home and straighten all this out. I don’t like us being mad at each other.”
Rizzo shook his head slowly. “Carol, I’ve never once been mad at you your entire life.”
Carol’s eyes twinkled. “No? Never? Not even that time I found bird crap on the fender of your car and used one of Mom’s emery boards to file it off? Along with some of the paint?”
Rizzo laughed. “Okay,” he admitted. “One time, maybe.”
Carol removed her hands from his and stood, moving toward the coffeemaker. Refilling her cup, she returned to her seat.
“So,” she said, her features set, a grimness affixed to her expression. “Would you like to hear what I came to say?”
Rizzo sat back in his seat, his eyes falling to the table. “Probably not.”
Despite herself, Carol’s expression softened. “Well, you’re going to anyway. My mind is made up. I’m going on the cops as soon as they call me.”
Rizzo raised his eyes to meet hers. “And so you decided to drive two hours to come home and tell me this today?”
“Yes, Dad. Today is as good as any. I know you and Mom still plan on talking me out of this, turning me around somehow. I want it resolved now. I want it behind us. I need you to just accept it.”
“But what’s the urgency, kiddo? This coulda waited till…”
Carol shook her head. “No, it couldn’t. All week I’ve been reading about you, how you broke that case, how you and Cil put a murderer behind bars. And I’ve been wondering, how can he be so against me going on the cops? So now, I’m asking you: Why? Is it the danger? Are you scared? The most dangerous job in America is convenience store clerk. Did you know that? Not cop, not firefighter, not race-car driver. Seven-Eleven night clerk. It’s just life, Dad. You can’t protect me from it. I’m an adult, you have to accept that.”
Rizzo rubbed at his jaw, considering it all. Then he sighed before leaning inward toward his youngest daughter.
“All right, Carol,” he said, weariness apparent in his voice. “All right. You read about your big hero father and his gangbuster partner in the newspaper, how they locked up the bogeyman. Well, I think you need to hear the real story, kiddo, not just the news. The real truth.”
Rizzo sat back and gave Carol a sad smile. “I solved the case, okay, solved the crime. But the truth is, to do it, I took a big chance with someone else’s life, I risked a third murder. Then I falsified a sworn statement. I promised a coconspirator, a person just as guilty as Bradley, that if she played ball, cooperated and recanted her phony alibi story, I’d write a statement for her with more leaks in it than the Titanic. I practically guaranteed she’d have the basis to walk on two homicides, probably just take a fall for a low-weight felony, maybe only a couple a misdemeanors. Then I perjured myself in official sworn court papers. And I’ll do it again when I testify at the trial, if there is a trial. I broke the damned law, Carol, because that’s what I had to do to enforce the law. It’s crimes cops deal with. Just crimes. Not people. I break as many laws as I enforce. Maybe more. That’s how it’s done. Wait. You’ll see. If you go ahead with this quest of yours, you’ll see. Believe me.”
Carol seemed confused. “What are you saying, Dad? That it’s a bad arrest? That this guy Bradley is getting railroaded?”
Rizzo shook his head. “No. I wish it was that simple. The arrest is good, tight as a drum, and the guy is guilty as hell. I just needed that woman’s cooperation to give me the legal ammunition to secure a search warrant for Bradley’s place. Once I did, we had him. We found the physical evidence we needed to throw on top of the circumstantial we already had. Bingo-case closed.” He paused, giving his daughter time to digest what he had just told her, see it for what it was.
“Pretty heroic, isn’t it?” Rizzo asked softly.
Carol sat silently looking at her father. Then she sighed and gave a slight shrug. “Seems to me, Dad,” she said, “you did what had to be done. It is what it is.” She was silent for another moment before continuing.
“You know, Dad, human civilization is built on a foundation. And in this country, we’ve built a lot on our foundation: a free press, great universities, churches, ballets, museums. And do you know what that foundation consists of?”
Her father shook his head. “Sometimes I think I don’t know much of anything, kiddo. Not really.”
Carol continued as though he hadn’t spoken. “The foundation consists of security, Dad. Security and law and order, put there by soldiers, put there by cops. Some people look down on them, criticize them, betray them, feel superior to them. But without those soldiers, without those cops, without the foundation built with their blood and sweat, there is no free press, there is no freedom, there’s nothing. Nothing but tyranny and chaos and crime and violence.”
Carol stood slowly and walked behind her father, placing her hands gently onto his shoulders. She bent her face to his ear, speaking softly into it.
“Maybe it’s not always pretty. Maybe a cop’s job can get dirty. But the truth remains. No cops, no foundation. No foundation, no civilization. It’s the only thing I want to do. Just let me work on that foundation. Let me help keep it sound, let me repair some cracks. If I have to get my hands dirty in the process, so be it. I can do what you do, Dad. I can fight fire with fire. You just watch me.”
Carol stood erect, her hands still on Rizzo’s shoulders. He turned his head, his eyes finding hers as she spoke once more.
“I need you to be there for me on this. I could always count on you. Don’t change on me now. Please, Dad.”
Rizzo, his eyes moistening, smiled up at his daughter.
“Okay, kiddo,” he said. “Okay.”
THE AFTERNOON of Friday, December 12, was slate gray and bitterly cold. A harsh northerly wind swept along Smith Street, buffeting scattered pedestrians as they hurried along the sidewalks.
Rizzo climbed from the Camry and pulled his coat collar over his ears and neck. He crossed diagonally to the Non-Combat Zone and pressed the doorbell. As he waited for a response, he glanced at his Timex: three-thirty sharp. Right on time.