“I do hope so.”
He laced his fingers with hers and pulled her to standing. “I hope your Aunts won’t tax me with not fixing their eaves today, but I find I have other, more pressing commitments.”
“Like me.”
“Exactly like you.” They walked in companionable, contented silence to the edge of the lane that led to Cathcart Lodge, until he had to draw her off into the verge when a four in hand coach sped close by, forcing them to crowd into the hedgerow to let it safely pass.
But immediately after it did, a face popped out of the window, and the coach began to slow, coming to a full stop just at the edge of the village, whereupon a gentleman, followed by a young, fashionably dressed lady, stepped lightly into the grassy lane.
“Mr. Cathcart?” the young lady called. “Hamish!” She smiled and waved. “I thought that was you. I told Papa it was so.”
“Hello?” Hamish shaded his eyes, but suspicion hit him like a shovel to the back of his head. Master Lorimer, a brewer from Edinburgh’s southwest side, climbed down behind his daughter and heir. He had met them but once, at a shooting weekend.
Hamish could all but feel his father’s hand stirring this pot.
“Elspeth, why don’t you go on to the Lodge. I’ll follow you directly.” But Elspeth had no time to respond before the brewer’s daughter had made her way down the lane upon them.
“Don’t go, Hamish. It won’t do you know, running away, looking like a scarecrow, with straw in your hair. Not when we’ve driven all this way to find you.” She smiled in a way that bared her teeth, much like an aggressive dog, grinning before it bites. “Rusticating with dairy maids, have you been, Hamish? Your mother will be all agog to hear.”
So perhaps not his father’s hand. But still, his family was stirring the hot pot he seemed to have landed in. “Miss Lorimer. You will excuse me, please.” He would not introduce Elspeth, for such was the surest way to have her name spread about Edinburgh like a contagion.
“I will not, unless I have your promise that I shall meet with you dancing attendance upon me at the Marchioness of Queensbury’s Masquerade ball in Edinburgh on Thursday next. I expect that will be the perfect evening to announce our betrothal, will it not?”
It would not. But her words had already hit Elspeth like a hard slap to the face—he could see her head snap back with the force of the lie. “Betrothal?”
“No. It’s not like that,” Hamish began.
“But it is.” Miss Brewery’s laughing expression stilled, and became serious. “Your family, not to mention the solicitors, say differently, dear Hamish. And so does my Papa.” She gestured to the man standing near.
The brewer himself stepped forward. “Aye. Beggin' your pardon, sir, but I do.” The man was polite but emphatic. “Signed the papers this morning, Mr. Cathcart. I was given to believe you’d be there to make things all right and tight, and when you weren’t, why I set out for to find you straightaway. And here we are.”
Here they all were. Except for Elspeth, who had already turned tail, and, very sensibly, run away from this fine madness.
Would that he could do the same.
***
Elspeth did what she had always been taught to do—make herself so small and quiet that she erased herself from the conversation. But this time, she could not simply retreat to the privacy of her imagination. This time, she had to run to escape the sharp eyes of Hamish’s betrothed, Miss Lorimer, looking her over as if she were a slattern.
Where she ran was a matter of indifference. Through the trees, along the river and deep into the shadow of the woods was all she could think, letting the branches claw at her skirts and switch at her skin, running onward until her lungs were burning with shame and fury and she collapsed onto her knees, and lay sobbing in the moss-covered bracken.
She sobbed out the ache in her chest until it gradually grew smaller and smaller, hardening into something small enough to manage. Small enough to swallow.
Hamish’s betrothed.
She looked the part, Miss Lorimer—well dressed and well spoken, as if she would belong in Edinburgh, or Cathcart Lodge or the Marchioness of Queensbury’s Masquerade ball. As if she were sure of the world and her place in it. As if she were entirely legitimate.
Exactly as Elspeth was not. Just as she had always known.
But there was nothing Elspeth could do about it. The world was the way it was, and sobbing into the underbrush wasn’t going to do anything but make her face blotchy. So she stood and smoothed her skirts, and did the only thing she could do—headed home to Dove Cottage. Where she belonged.
“Is that you, Elspeth?”
At the sound of her aunt’s voice, Elspeth was enveloped in all the homey comfort of the familiar, and she wanted nothing more at that moment than to cast herself into their arms. Not that they were great comforters—physical displays of affection being few and far between at Dove Cottage. Still, a kind word could be as balming as a posset.
Elspeth took a deep breath and let the calm comfort of knowing she was where she belonged wash over her and soften the sharp edges of her anger and hurt. “Yes, Aunt Molly. I’m home.”
The Aunts met her at the garden door, standing in front of the portal with their arms linked together for support.
“What is wrong?” Elspeth rushed forward to assist them.
But Aunt Molly drew back, getting to her point with characteristic directness. “We’ve had the most alarming report, Elspeth, that you were seen consorting with a young man near the orchard this morning, and then later in the lane.”
Michty me. Dread tightened her belly like a leather belt drawn too taut. She ought to have known, of course. She ought to have understood that there was no privacy in a village this small—someone was always watching. Someone always reported what they thought they saw.
And things never got better but that they got worse first.
“It was only Mr. Cathcart, Aunt. He and I were talking. And walking. And saying goodbye. He’s gone for Edinburgh and his life there.”
“You did more than talk if the moss on your collar, and the grass stains on your skirts, and the look of regret in your eye are any indication.”
“No, I—” Elspeth half-turned to try and find the moss, and, instead, found a grass stain on her shoulder. Not that she had never innocuously smudged or stained a gown or petticoat working in the garden before, but today, riddy heat seared her cheeks. “I went into the wood by myself, after he left. To…” To have a good cry would be too revealing. “To be alone.”
But Aunt Isla wasn’t listening—she had been watching Elspeth’s hot face. “Well, at least you’ve the good sense to be mortified by your actions, but I’ll tell you this Elspeth Otis, we raised you better than to consort in orchards with the likes of him—a tramp.”
“He’s not a tramp. I told you, he’s—”
“I don’t want to hear another word, Elspeth Otis.” Aunt Molly held up her hand and closed her eyes, barring any attempt at explanation. “We don’t care who he is.”
Elspeth did care, but she couldn’t seem to do anything about it. “I’m sorry—”
“We’re more than sorry, too,” Aunt Molly said. “Blood will out, Isla’s always said. We tried to raise you right and keep you from iniquity. We did our best—no one can say we didn’t—but we won’t be made to put up with it, do you hear?” Aunt Molly did not wait for Elspeth’s answer, but continued straight on. “We raised you better, Elspeth, and we won’t be subject to such…”
“Such licentiousness.” Isla supplied the necessary word on a whisper.
“Aunts, please.” Elspeth tried to speak over her rising panic. “I haven’t subjected anyone to any licentious—”
“Don’t lie to us, Elspeth. Close up thine mouth before the devil can take any more of your words.”
Dread and panic brewed a hissing pot of shame that sealed her mouth. Elspeth recognized the trunk on the other side of the door—its meaning becoming apparent with a sort of searing pain that ripped a hole in her tattered heart.