After some time, I met with Yulia for the second time to take a walk, but I was in even worse shape than when we first met, and I will not be at all surprised if Yulia will never want to meet again. But at least we continue to text each other from time to time.
The reason for this regression lies in the fact that I allowed myself to heavily think about the details of my acquaintance with E, thinking and imagining what went wrong that day, what I should have done differently… The irony of this regression lies in what I said to E about how I managed to make great progress in my life, letting go of almost all thoughts and fantasies… and so she was destined to become one of the links in the chain that temporarily returned me to the abyss of almost constant thinking and fantasies… But I was able to realize the negative effects of my decisions, and I left only the knowledge I learned from that life lesson, regaining control over myself.
Thanks to the people with whom I was able to talk over the summer of 2020, by and large it became clear to me that, on the one hand, my life experience is quite unique and unusual compared to the experience of many other people of our time, but on the other hand, it is quite ordinary experience for a person living on a planet of the first category. I was clearly not the only one who had problems and who suffered.
Simply put, I made a big problem out of my whole life and my experience, but that problem never really existed – this is an ordinary life, and I should not put this or that experience of my life much higher than another. This approach will help to shed the burden from the shoulders that exists only in a person's head, but at the same time is well reflected in his general behavior – body language, speech, and facial expressions.
The material and spiritual knowledge acquired this summer also helped me shed even more light on a dream that I had almost 14 years ago. Mirror reflection told me then in the dream: “I will never let you get out of yourself.” The word “never” is used only when you are absolutely sure that something will happen (or, alternatively, not happen), and so it means 100%. Where can we find one hundred percent in the Universe? At its very foundation – in cause and effect, when absolutely all actions have absolutely precise consequences. Correct decisions will one hundred percent bring happiness, but wrong decisions will one hundred percent bring suffering. The fact is that a person’s decision to have conversations in his head is a mistake, and it causes negative consequences in the form of tense facial expressions which, in turn, after a certain time can cause damage to the physical body. That is, I cannot build fantasies in my head and expect that my face will not show this or there will be no other negative consequences – this is not possible according to the Law of the Universe (this is the same as on an ordinary summer day to put an ordinary metal pot of water over an ordinary fire and wait for the water in the pot to freeze). Perhaps my old dream spoke about this in an abstract way. Dreams do not occur to us to do harm, but on the contrary – to help us. But we need to learn our lesson ourselves and look for the meaning of something. Nobody will give us anything on a plate.
The Golden Mean
In the end, I would like to devote a few pages to how people sense themselves, and to balance in our human lives.
In fact, this is a very serious topic, especially nowadays, when the words “transgender” and “transsexual” can be heard very often.
Unfortunately, due to the lack of knowledge about reincarnation, some people have taken matters to the extreme, and therefore they are making a mistake.
When you pull the swing back from its resting state to its extreme point, you are giving it potential energy. And when you let go of the pulled back swing, it now has kinetic energy. Having it, the swing will not stop instantly in the middle, at the state of rest, but it will almost reach the opposite extreme point. Due to the friction of the rope and the resistance of the air, the swing will be losing some of its energy and eventually will again reach the middle point between the two extremes and come to the state of rest – the balanced state.
I noticed that people, being part of the Universe, also tend to rush from one extreme to another. That is, a person, being at the extreme point, sooner or later will be disappointed in it (since the extreme is a mistake, and all mistakes lead to suffering), and when this happens, that person due to lack of certain knowledge can go to the other erroneous extreme, considering it the right decision, as it seems to him that the opposite of something that is a wrong thing must be the right thing. This is not true. Only the middle point that contains all the best of the two extremes is the right decision (we can determine what is useful and what is harmful, using logic and common sense). And if the swing slows down due to the loss of its energy due to friction of the rope and collisions with molecules in the atmosphere, then people slow down due to the accumulation of spiritual and material knowledge, which more and more protect a person from making serious errors – roughly speaking, a person is brought into balance thanks to the resistance of his knowledge.
I am reminded of a quote that can be seen on the Internet, and the main idea of which is that the person who speaks the truth is often the most hated (It is attributed to Plato, but in fact I could not find the source; nevertheless, I like the meaning of this expression). Since people arrive to the balanced middle point thanks to the accumulation of spiritual knowledge, and those people live on the planets of the ninth category, I am not at all surprised that that quote is very relevant on the planets of the first category, where there are usually not so many highly spiritual people.
On the FAQ page of www.Thiaoouba.com website it is said how, after returning to Earth, Michel found himself in opposition with most people, including his family and even ufologists.[15] Having my above-stated understandings about life, I am no longer surprised by this fact.
Returning to men and women, both of them can think in the same way, being a single part of the Superior Intelligence, and having, in fact, identical souls (except for the accumulated spiritual knowledge), as well as psychic bodies that are part of the soul and also do not die. Knowing this, it should not be surprising that some girls who have not yet accumulated a lot of spiritual knowledge, can easily deceive others for personal gain using their bodies, for example. Material and spiritual knowledge plays a primary role in calculating what decision a person will make in any given situation, and not his appearance – no matter how beautiful it is. Appearance is a part of that life situation.
Further, men and women, by and large, have the same sensations. Only the genitals give each sex its own unique sensations, which are different. By the way, for me the word “man” means a person who from birth, or from nature, has male genitals; and a “woman” is a person who has female genitals from birth. These words have nothing to do with how people think or feel in their bodies – we think and feel the world around us as people, human beings.
I had one case when I was thinking and imagining about children, and suddenly, unexpectedly, I felt inside my being a distinct “feminine” feeling of motherhood. I put the word in quotation marks because it is obviously not feminine – otherwise I, as a man, simply would have been able to physically feel it – but I can see how many men might panic thinking they are a woman. No, you are human.
Masculinity and femininity mean human traits and qualities that people of all genders can physically have. But because of the upbringing of children, many girls began to lean to one extreme, and guys began to lean to the other one. There are situations when it is worth being compassionate, sensual, gentle, while in other situations it is better to be courageous, assertive. Balance is needed everywhere.