How can I expect to find a girlfriend with similar interests if I am afraid to make efforts so that the knowledge that I have becomes available to all people?
In addition, the girls could give me a chance to get to know me better, but I understand that they think that such facial expressions mean that the person is very sick. They do not know the truth. The best thing I can do is to tell people the truth about the real state of things; that many psychological problems can go away very quickly if a person does everything necessary for this – if he learns. Perhaps then people will give more chances to others, will try to get to know them and, if necessary, will be able to try to help them, teach them the simple truths of life. In the end, we all go to the same school on this planet.
People on the Internet have helped me a lot, but I myself almost never write on forums. Firstly, because I usually like to listen, not talk. And secondly, my knowledge is closely linked to Thiaoouba and the Laws of the Universe. I understand that if I write a short answer, almost no one will understand me. And writing in each comment about my experience with Thiaooubians will take a lot of time, and some forums don’t allow too many symbols to be written anyway. Here we need a different solution…
Seeing how easy it was to publish an e-book, I had the idea of writing a book about what I learned in this life. In fact, thinking of making a video for YouTube, I recently wrote to a file everything that I learned in this life.
I thought to write a fictional story where Michel’s book would play an important role in the story of one of the characters. I did not want to write a non-fiction book about my life, because I still had psychological barriers. I was afraid to tell the truth about myself, as it was clear what many modern people would think of me. But in the course of time and reflection, I realized that it would most likely be a mistake not to write about my life experience with Thiaoouba (Thiaooubians found time in their lives to help me – the best I can do is try to help them in return) and all that I had to experience and learn in my life, since my experience can help others. In the end, what will I lose if I already have nothing and nobody? But I could remove the remaining psychological barriers from my psyche and acquire new spiritual understandings, which is very important since spiritual knowledge is never erased during our lives in the Universe. So, if I publish my book, then I will have already helped one person – myself.
My old fears about the negative consequences almost came to naught. The fact is that I know that not expressing the truth is a 100% mistake that will materialize into 100% suffering. But the telling of the truth is not a mistake if one is in the middle of the previously mentioned sinusoid when writing a book. There is no need to move to either of the two extremes, which would be mistakes in which I would either not tell important details or write too many details. Everything needs a balance.
But I really needed to write all the important details of my life that preceded my experience with Thao and Biastra, because when I wrote in my notes on social networks only about my experience with the Thiaooubians, some people were still skeptical about the small passage of my life’s story, not understanding why I had such an experience and they did not. Then I myself do not know 100% which details are important and which are not, because I can only guess about the real reasons behind the decision of Thao and Biastra to help me get out of my wild psychological state; but I think that people will still be able to learn something for themselves from my life’s experience. If we recall the sinusoid again, then a person, by and large, can: speak the truth, be mistaken in his conclusions (he thinks he is telling the truth, but his words are not true. It is worth saying that a very rare situation may arise when a person may think that he is telling a lie, but at the same time his words are true – such a change in places is inherent to the middle values), and lie; my position should be clear about the “lie”, and I will talk regarding the “be mistaken in his conclusions” part closer to the end of this chapter, where I write my opinion on knowledge and faith.
Further, if I will be born on Earth in my next life, then it is in my interests to have a better chance of finding knowledge from people from Thiaoouba as early as possible so as not to make more mistakes than necessary.
I had a thought in my head that all non-fiction e-books, information of which is important to the general public, should be free (at least my books). For this reason, I decided that my e-book would be free wherever possible. In the end, my target audience would not be able to buy the book in any case – as it was established in a poll in our TPXP group – and therefore it would be a mistake to charge people money for it.
In fact, before that decision, I thought about putting a minimum price on the book, but then I realized that the reason for those thoughts was a psychological barrier, and I just wanted to protect myself that way from critics and other hostile people. Realizing this and remembering the Laws of the Universe about the reckoning of suffering for mistakes, and remembering my knowledge that we ourselves choose to take offense at the negative, I once again firmly knew that the electronic book would be free.
I thought to start writing my book about my story on February 20, 2020.
Around the night of February 19, I had a dream about a small snake that bit my hand. It was not a very strong bite. When I called my childhood Moscow friend to come and take his snake from my apartment, he refused to do it…
On February 19, I got a message from one publishing house; they asked about the availability of a translation agreement. I sent the documents. Soon a man called me and said that they want to publish the book (Тиауба: Золотая Планета). He asked me if I could drive up to their office near Nagatinskaya the next day at ten in the morning to sign the contract. I answered in the affirmative.
I was glad that my efforts had paid off, and my help was about to be completed. But it was still necessary to resolve some issues with copyright holders regarding the royalties. After exchanging e-mails, I went to cut my long hair to look decent, and then I went to the subway to print out documents.
I also needed to translate into Russian all the agreements that I had concerning the book.
So, I was busy with paperwork all day, and I did not have time to think about anything else…
It seemed interesting to me that their office was located on the Varshavskoye Highway. It was along this highway that the driver of the funeral home drove us with my mother and with the lifeless body of my father to the Bitsevskoe cemetery. Mom and I were there later too, when we went to visit dad’s grave. Therefore, I knew very well where to go and decided that I would ride tomorrow on the MCC from the already familiar Lokomotiv station towards Izmailovsky Park, where I sometimes went for my walks, and to Verkhnie Kotly, and then I would walk to the office.
I was not in the best condition and tried to fall asleep without thinking about anything. But it was not easy.
I woke up early. Mom was still sleeping in bed, tossing and turning slightly.
Having quickly eaten, I took all the documents and went to the MCC Lokomotiv station.
Walking through Cherkizovsky Park, I realized that I slept badly that night, as well as the previous one. It affected my condition. Plus, a lot of thoughts were flying in my head.
So, I walked into the MCC and… asked the guards which way is to Izmaylovo. He looked at me for a second and pointed to the right… I went through the left turnstile only to suddenly realize that it leads only to the left… I went back and went upstairs on the escalator. There I asked the supervising woman to let me through, saying that I had just mistaken the entry. She checked the ticket and let me pass. I think I was already sitting on the train when I realized that I was going in the wrong direction – along the long circumference of the circle, not the short one. Here I realized what a stupid thing I did when I asked the guards for the directions – because I already perfectly knew where I needed to go! And then why did I go back from the platform and sat on a different line? My head did not think. I thought I would ride along the long circle, since I got into the train already. But then I made the calculations and realized that it would be very long; it would be profitable to take the train going in the right direction. I just drove one stop anyway.