I decided that in the morning I would ask in the message to delete the book and all the other documents that I sent them. But the main thing I needed was to get the response from them that this was done. Thus, I wanted to have a confession from the lawyer, so that if they would begin to publish the book, I had something to go to court with to prove that they recognized the absence of the contract and that they did not publish the book.
In the morning I did so.
It was Friday, and I decided to go get some fresh air and get distracted from yesterday’s problems, and at the same time give the libraries the two remaining copies of books that I would not need anyway, since I use only the English version of the book, because it is as close as possible to Michel Desmarquet’s lost manuscript in French. Michel himself also knew English, and therefore Thiaoouba Prophecy is a very accurate report of the events that happened to him in the summer of 1987. (After the first publication of my book, I learned that almost none of the libraries accepted the books into their collection of books. Some librarians who did answer me, assured that the books were not thrown away and would find their readers in other libraries, which will want to accept them into their book fund).
I went to very distant areas of Moscow, where I tried to get earlier, but turned around halfway, as I started not feeling well.
On the train, I received a message from the lawyer confirming the deletion of the book’s file and of all other documents. I calmed down and breathed a sigh of relief; but just in case I decided to tell the copyright holders about everything and at the same time ask them to write an official appeal to the lawyer so that the scammers would definitely not have any second thoughts regarding the book.
In the end, they did just that, even though I had to ask for it several times. On this my correction of my own mistake was completed.
Here are a few rules that I tried to remember: to learn better about the company with which the contract is concluded – read reviews, etc.; ask the company to send an electronic copy of the contract and read it very carefully, making the necessary amendments, and leave the signing of it until the next day; if possible, print your own contract so that the company signs it; only sign the contract that you just read and did not lose sight of.
In the end, I was not angry with them. I knew that under capitalism, people are looking for ways to survive, and I knew that due to ignorance regarding the Laws of the Universe, some people are ready to step on others for their own benefit. This experience once again showed me that I needed to start writing my book where I would try to contribute to the development of spirituality and morality on this planet, directly telling about everything that I had to go through and learn in my life.
I also thought that if I could see and read Auras, I would probably see that they want to deceive me. The same goes for telepathy.
So, on February 22, 2020, I wrote the first lines of this book that you are reading.
It was not easy to write the details of my life. Sometimes I felt that the publication of this book would be like suicide or masochism, because I understood how I would look in the eyes of some people. But then I made myself a simple rule – I will not think about what might be, but I will just write the book. And when I finish it, then it will be clear what I wrote.
I presumed that I would finish writing by the end of spring and then I would translate everything into English; and then I would learn the French language, and at the same time I would try to think about a fictional book where I would try to reflect on some of the questions that I have about some aspects of life in the Universe. Naturally, I planned to walk outside in the spring, summer, and autumn, and at the same time continue searching for a girlfriend. Perhaps now that I have removed some more psychological barriers and really started to try to help others, life would reward me…
I want to add here how after I wrote my book in Russian and began to translate it into English, I had a dream in which I was sitting in my small village house at the table by the window. There was an open notebook lying in front of me on the table. On its pages horizontal lines were drawn. Three quarters of each line were empty, and only the leftmost part of each line had words. At that moment, a familiar female voice said that such help could do worse than better.
Knowing that not all dreams should be taken literally, in the morning I thought of this dream as of a motivator to think about my book with a purified mind. I realized that some of the things that I wanted to leave for people think about on their own need a better explanation. In the book at that time there really were serious “gaps” that I tried to fill.
My thoughts were to take up my personal life after writing my book. I spent a lot of time on Thiaoouba over these eleven years, and I think that I have learned everything necessary to live as happily as I can in this physical body.
I thought of visiting the group TPXP, where I am still an administrator, only once every couple of weeks…
There were a couple of moments in difficult periods when, due to negativity even in the seemingly spiritual group, I thought about leaving it. In any case, I received almost nothing from it in terms of material knowledge. But I decided that having my experience with Thiaooubians, which allows me to know, not believe, in the full truthfulness of the book Thiaoouba Prophecy, it would be irresponsible to leave it and let erroneous opinions absorb the truth.
Of course, since I have to correct both those who believe in everything and often contradict the truths of life, and those who are on the side of science and also strongly contradict the book, I continue to be, by and large, alone. But I have no choice if I do not want to make mistakes.
I try to be in the middle of the sinusoid, continuing to talk about the truths from Thiaoouba, but at the same time I do not spend my time explaining things to those who refuse to think and learn. It is their erroneous choice to live in ignorance. In addition, life experience taught me that in case of such stubborn people essentially only suffering for their mistakes will give them a chance to see the truth. I cannot physically help them with anything, and it has nothing to do my meager communication skill. So, for example, I gave a couple of tips to people who believe in a flat Earth. By following those tips, they could find out that they are mistaken. But they simply refuse to conduct elementary experiments and continue to sow their ignorance further on the Internet.
During the writing of my book, several interesting events happened.
So, at the end of February, in the late evening, I heard a dull thud on the table to my right. My laptop stands on that table. I looked at the clock, and it showed 11:33.
When I was translating Thiaoouba Prophecy, I often heard knocks in the kitchen, symbolizing the typo that I actually found. And once there were so many knocks in the kitchen that by their perseverance, I realized that I wrote some wrong thing in the translation. I began to read the previous sentences of my translation, and one line had a typo – “Иисусе” instead of “Иисуса” (“Jesus”).
Then, on April 1, I wrote the paragraph about my reasoning whether I can be of a higher spiritual category or not. At that time, something blue and bright flew near the laptop screen. It could be an Astral body. I already saw such lights a long time ago, when on the phone I was scolding my father for his drunkenness. Then a small sphere, suddenly appearing out of nowhere, helped me reflect and understand that I should project more love and less negativity.
I went out for a walk every day after breakfast, but found no opportunities to approach anyone. Either there was nobody in the cold parks, or I could not approach the girl because I was lost in my thoughts. Unfortunately, I still have difficulties living in the present. And it is a pity, as quite a few lovely girls passed by me…