Going a little further, I decided to say hello to people who were sitting on a bench by Katya’s house. I only remember a strong man who was without a shirt. His skin was tanned. For some reason, I did not notice them when I was looking at new buildings.
And so, I said hello and… here I realized that my voice was female!
Then, going further, I greeted someone sitting on a bench near Ira’s house. My voice was still female!
I looked down my body to see if it was also female. I do not know why, but I was wearing a lot of clothes, considering that it was, apparently, the summer. Perhaps I could see the outlines of small breasts, and it may well be that the femoral part was also wider than the “usual” that I see in the real self. I do not remember if in the lucid dream I touched “my female breasts” – words that I never thought I would ever be uttering…
Now I was at Vladik’s house, and then Marina came out. She was very glad to see me and rushed to hug me. Realizing that this is a dream, we started… kissing on the lips. My friend did not oppose this at all, and I had the thought that I had been in a male body, everything would have been completely different… I think that it soon became clear that Marina was married and I dismissed all thoughts about sex with her? I do not remember exactly the details.
Then came Vladik, whom I modestly hug with my hand around his back, patting his shoulder blade slightly. Apparently, both Vladik and Marina were adolescents.
In the lucid dream, I knew that Marina knew me, but in the girl’s body, for a long time, and we were friends… well, or girlfriends, given the unusual situation of my body in that lucid dream.
With our hands around each other’s backs, Marina and I went along the road towards the chapel. We were talking about something.
Soon, I remembered to ask Marina to remember “3 6 9” and write these numbers to me in a message on VK when she wakes up. I asked her to repeat what I had told her, but, jokingly, she gave a different number. I think I asked her to remember my words again.
Having passed the house of Yana, we stopped, and after talking about something I mentioned to Marina, who was already standing a meter and a half away from me, that we are currently in a lucid dream. I think I expected surprise from her, but she was not at all surprised to hear this.
As far as I remember, at that time I already had my own male voice – I do not know at what moment the change took place.
Perhaps the conversation continued and it may well be that we went further, since the next thing that I remember, we were already at the chapel.
I do not know why it got dark on the street, as if it was already dusk – either clouds covered the sky, or it was just evening.
If I remember correctly, Marina gave me the choice to go to Natasha, or continue our journey to another part of the village. I wanted to go to Natasha, and I had the thought that I wanted to try to have sex in a lucid dream – with Natasha or Marina, and maybe with both, I do not remember; also at that moment I remembered Marina’s marriage, which for some reason suddenly ceased to be a barrier – was it the fact that it was just a dream, even if it was lucid, that I decided to play naughty and see what happens?
We went through the gate and passed the first house, when suddenly from an indefinite direction an alarming, unpleasant and unique sound began to be heard. I had never heard that sound before. Marina immediately stopped me and exclaimed that this sound means danger. I agreed with her, and we went back. The sound died down as we left and completely disappeared when we were already beyond the fence.
I think we went in the direction of turning to the farm, and I told Marina that I need to meet people like her more often in lucid dreams, people who know something about dreams and can teach me.
The dream disappeared and I woke up.
A long time, I was thinking that while one of our psychic bodies is immortal, the other is born and dies simultaneously with the physical body and, accordingly, also has an effect on how we see and feel ourselves in our new physical body.
I remembered these thoughts, since when in my unusual lucid dream I was in a girl’s body, psychologically I could feel a slight difference in her thinking and worldview coming from her female body – she really felt like a girl, and not like a man in a girl’s body, but at the same time my previous thoughts about how we all think like people remain valid. It is also important to note that at one time I clearly sensed that that girl liked guys.
I thought after that dream that this mortal psychological body might have something to do with why women like men and men like women. But then I thought about animals, who consist of only 3 bodies. Can animals, in addition to a physical and physiological body, also have a psychological body (which is not the psyche of a person)? If not, then there must be another reason why in nature creatures are drawn to the opposite sex…
Why could I even feel in my lucid dream what it is like to be a girl who likes guys, while I am a guy of traditional sexual orientation, and I am more than happy with being a man? People do actions based on the knowledge they have; therefore, I would assume that data (knowledge), that were temporarily recorded in me in that dream, played a role here.
Here I remember how we preview our lives with our Higher Self, and then the material knowledge gained is erased from our soul. Perhaps, during such dreams, the necessary data is written into one of our psychological bodies, for example, and then erased? I do not think that data is written into the soul, since knowledge from the soul can be erased only in the River of Oblivion, and this happens when you do not have a physical body and you are with your Higher Self. Why a psychological body? Because sex drive refers, in part, to psychology, to how we see the world and its various details – knowledge also plays a primary role here.
Here we must also remember that the soul is not the only immortal human body. It may well be that other mortal and immortal bodies can also store knowledge and data that our intellect can use. The psyche, for example, is part of the soul, and, apparently, data can also be stored in it, which remains and passes with us into the next lives.
Here we can also touch on the topic of homosexuality. Thao said that a homosexual is a neurotic. I have always been of a traditional sexual orientation, but I think that because of my childhood homosexual experience due to ignorance in conjunction with the neurosis, I sometimes felt strange urges to get slightly aroused when I saw handsome guys.
Having knowledge from Thiaoouba, I immediately realized what was happening, and, like in the case of planetophobia and the vision of “It,” I simply took these urges for what they were – for the logical consequence of my nervous state – and I removed them. I was not afraid of this condition and did not try to forget about it or “run away” from it – it is important to understand that the problem can be eliminated only with complete openness to it and acceptance of its real existence. As a result, I no longer have these symptoms when I see beautiful people of my gender.
I will return to the topic of homosexuality at the end of the book, but for now I want to draw your attention to what you may have already noticed yourself. In my lucid dream I felt like a girl who liked guys, and yet at the same time she happily kissed a girl. This… contradiction is important.
This lucid dream also led me to realize that in my previous lucid dream, where I was at school, I was still a young man of smaller stature than I am now. In that first long lucid dream, I did not pay attention, but as I recall, I had to raise my head up to look at adults in “my” apartment, and when schoolchildren of short stature, who were no more than 13 years of age, approached me on the street , their eyes were at the level of mine. Most likely throughout all that lucid dream I was a child of short stature, but since I was still in my “familiar” body, I had no reason to try to examine it.