Dutifully Jenny tuned to Radio Three and adjusted the volume to give them the privacy of the confessional.
“Can’t have that,” said Uncle Albert. “Let me hear myself think, will you, miss.”
“You don’t mind them hearing too?” said Nell.
“What’s the odds any longer? They’re all dead and done with. Dead and done with. That’s how it goes.”
He fell silent again and settled back into the corner. His eyes closed but his lips moved from time to time, and when he spoke it was in a matter-of-fact tone, quiet but confident, suggesting that he had now ordered his thoughts. Jenny strained to hear, but could catch only snatches through the noises from the motorway.
“…didn’t like I was saying. ‘Suppose the bugger gets you, stead of you getting him.’…got it all worked out…boat business at Brightlingsea, and Ben kept a couple of yachts…lost overboard…note to give to Mrs. Matson…not like it was with crooks. Crooks don’t go running to the police soon as someone goes missing…got an answer for everything, so we talked Terry round in the end. It wasn’t only that, of course, it was knowing we couldn’t’ve done it without him. He’s got the contacts. There was this big fellow—forgotten his name—began with a B, didn’t it?…he’d pay whatever it took, but the B fellow…take the rap for the fellow’s brother as long as he could hang on to the money…”
The road surface changed to corrugated concrete, setting up a resonant drumming that vibrated through the bodywork of the car, drowning speech. In the mirror Jenny could see Nell leaning right across to catch Uncle Albert’s words. There was a brief switch to tarmac as they crossed an interchange, and a few more words came through.
“…drove his own cab—he’d been on the Road too, of course— so I told him time and place he was wanted…”
Then they were on the concrete again. Jenny saw Nell put her mouth to Uncle Albert’s ear. He nodded understanding and stopped speaking. Nell settled back in her place, out of Jenny’s line of sight. Uncle Albert closed his eyes and slept until they stopped at a service station for Jenny to take over the wheel.
At first as they drove on he seemed to have forgotten what he’d been doing. Jenny could glimpse him now in the driving mirror, and thought he’d fallen asleep again, but then he began to speak, picking up the story almost where he’d left off, but in a very different voice, a kind of dreamy monotone, like that of a subject under hypnosis, not addressed to Nell or to anyone in particular, but slow and clear enough for Jenny to catch almost every word at her quieter pace of driving.
“…Must’ve been about one in the morning before we got there. Sort of a farm place, by the smell of it, right out at the end of nowhere. No one around, which there wasn’t supposed to be, of course. There was a big shed we could drive the car right in, and we tied Stadding up and let him lay on a pile of straw and we each took a go of watching him while the other two kipped in the car. He never said a word all night and slept better than any of us, far as I could make out. Then soon as it was getting light I did a recce and found a place and we marched him out along the track. Like the end of the world, it was…”
He paused. Glancing in the mirror Jenny saw that he was leaning back into his corner with his eyes closed, a look of contentment, like an old man basking in a deck chair. The story, Jenny was sure, was coming to no good end, but he seemed to have removed himself from it completely. Nell didn’t prompt him, but after a while he did that himself.
“Yes, like the end of the world,” he said. “Dead flat, but for these dikes, and reeking of dried-out mud, and salt in the wind, and gulls, though you couldn’t see the sea, but you could tell it was there all right. I’d picked a flat bit of field in a corner between a couple of dikes so we were well down out of sight. We’d no reason to hang around, so I paced out the distance and we stood Stadding at one end and untied him and gave him a couple of minutes to move around a bit and rub himself where the cords had bit. I’d got the revolver on him, of course, in case he tried anything, but he didn’t act that interested, more like we were setting up to play a game or something and he thought it was a waste of time but he was going along with it to keep us happy.”
He paused again, but went on almost at once, still in the same sleep-walking tone, but more firmly, as if his memory were shedding the last vaguenesses of dream and coming into instant-by-instant focus.
“The Colonel was loading up the pistols and checking them over and when he’d done Terry brought them and showed them to Stadding and he took one, not thinking about it or anything, and Terry took the other one back to the Colonel. I told them the regulations and the signal I’d give, dropping my arm for them to fire, and then I said to raise their weapons, only Stadding didn’t do it right, taking aim like he was supposed to. Stead of that he put his pistol right up against his head, like he was making to blow his brains out, and his lips were moving like he was praying and I thought bugger me—he’s going to get it right in the end.
“Like you’d expect I took a look at the Colonel to see what he wanted, and he’d lowered his weapon and was just watching like I’d been, when I saw from his face something was up and before I’d time to look Stadding had fired, and the Colonel jerks his head aside—I’ve seen men do that as the bullet took them, and I thought he’d got him, but he yells, ‘Stop him,’ and Terry’s yelling, and Stadding’s running for the dike, only he catches his foot in a tussock and down he goes, and Terry’s on him before he’s up, and then I’m there with the revolver, close enough he can see I won’t miss, and he just nods and lets me march him back to where he’d been.
“I stand him up so the Colonel can take his shot at him, and then I move back not to get in the line of fire. The Colonel raises his weapon. There’s blood running down his face but he’s not noticing.
“ ‘So you’re going to shoot an unarmed man, are you, Jocelyn?’ says Stadding, teasing, and the Colonel lowers his weapon.
“ ‘We’ll start again,’ he says. ‘Bring me that pistol, Voss, and I’ll reload it for him.’
“Terry picks up the pistol and takes it over and I move in round behind Stadding and I let him hear me cock the revolver so he knows not to try anything, but that’s not what I’m at, not really. He’s had his chance, and it isn’t right him having another one, not after all he’s done. Soon as I’m near enough I let him have it in the back of the head, and that’s that.
“I look and see the Colonel’s just standing where he was, staring, like he doesn’t know what’s up.
“ ‘All over, sir,’ I tell him.
“It’s like he hasn’t heard me, so I tell him again.
“‘Right,’ he says. ‘Thanks, Fredricks,’ and he goes off and sits down at the bottom of the dike.
“I leave Terry to keep an eye on him and go back to the farm. There’s a sort of a handcart in the shed, and I load it up with the weights we’ve brought, and the young fellow’s body out of the boot of the car, and shove it back out to them. Terry and me, we pile Stadding’s body on top—the Colonel’s still sitting where he was, so we let him be. We shove the cart along to this bit of bog, which is why Terry’s brought us there in the first place. There’s wire round it, and signs saying it’s a quicksand only it’s black as tar and stinking. High tides the sea comes in, Terry says.
“Terry doesn’t like what we’re doing, mind you, not at all. It’s not exactly that he’s scared, but there’s too many of them in there already, he says. But he knows the drill, so we lash the bodies together and tie the weights on, and we put a rope with a slip knot round their ankles—that’s the kind of stuff you’re taught on exercises—and we haul them out across the bog and I pull the other end of the rope to loose the knot, and in a couple of minutes you wouldn’t know they’d been there, ever. Wiped out. Gone.”