Her smile was tired. “That’ll work for me. Just let me clean up.”
His eyes went back to the table. Among the array of handwritten pages and photographs was a German-English dictionary. His brain started to fire. “Okay, I’m awake now. You snagged me. I am now curious. What is this all about?”
“You want the lowdown on this before or after?”
It wasn’t even close. “After. You got my hopes up, woman.”
“I have no intention of dashing them. Go on. I’ll be there in a minute.”
“I’m going to brush my teeth.”
“Hygiene is a turn-on.” She swatted his rear. “Go.”
“Should I shave?”
“It might wake up Hannah.”
Nix the shaving. He went back into the bedroom, with his expectations and the free-floating anxiety that was now his ever-present companion. He’d become accustomed to the knots in his stomach, gauging his agitation by the constriction of his gut. It was as if an invisible belt encircled his belly. Sometimes it was tight, sometimes it went slack, but it was always there.
Under the covers, his body turned warm, but his feet were still cold. He was careful not to rest them against Rina’s smooth legs when she joined him. To Decker, sex was a beautiful thing. For twenty-plus minutes, he traveled a different universe, a man free of a cerebral cortex. The lack of conscious thought during the act was so incredibly liberating, not to mention the ultimate act of release. Afterward came the intimacy. As Rina nestled in his arms, her head resting against his chest, he stroked her hair, his thoughts flashing on images he didn’t want to think about.
“Okay. Now you can tell me. What’s with the photographs?”
“It happened one day while you were sleeping off jet lag. I passed a police station. I got curious.”
“About your grandmother.”
“Yes, my grandmother.”
“Does your mother know?”
Rina raised her head. “Absolutely not. You can’t tell her, Peter. Not until I get more information.”
“I have no intention of telling her anything. The less I talk to your mother, the better.”
Rina hit him softly.
Decker said, “What brought this on? Being in Munich?”
“I suppose so. The city is haunted with all my ancestral souls. They spoke from the grave, Peter. Does that make sense?”
“Some of my unsolved cases… they still talk to me.”
“So you understand.”
“Unfortunately, I do.”
“It was a very weird trip,” Rina confided.
Who remembers?Decker thought. The fatigue had been overwhelming. Most of the time, he was sleeping. Even when he had been awake, trudging through the wet detritus that covered the mountainous region, his thoughts had been elsewhere. Admittedly, the bitter cold had been invigorating. He wished he were there now-anywhere but back home pretending that things were normal.
Rina snuggled closer. “As I passed a police station, I thought… well, if not now, when?”
“Are you sure you want to know?”
“No. I’m not sure of anything,” Rina told him. “I lost lots of relatives in the war. There was no closure. No bodies to bury, no way of knowing exactly when it happened. Their deaths were the product of unimaginable evil. But with my grandmother… maybe there’s a story behind it. I can’t ask my mother about it. God forbid I do anything that would cause her pain. She’s had enough suffering in her life. But I’m a generation removed. My grandmother is my heritage, too. I feel I have a right to know.”
“And what have you found out?”
There was a pause. Then came the sigh. “Nothing. That’s the problem. I can read the words, and even understand a few sentences. But my German isn’t good enough to comprehend the full text, let alone the nuances. And even if I understood every word in the file, I’m still not a detective. I can’t interpret what it all might mean.” She ran her fingers across his chest. “I can get someone to translate the notes. But I need a well-seasoned homicide professional to give meaning to the results-”
“Rina-”
“But only if you’re interested.”
No one spoke.
Then Decker said, “I know what you’re doing.”
“What am I doing?”
“You’re trying to engage me in your business to keep my mind off my failures.”
“You didn’t fail!”
“I most certainlydidfail!”
She felt his body tighten. It had been months since the New York ordeal. It was time to come clean, even though it was bound to cause discord. She chose her words carefully, speaking in a whisper. “Peter, I don’t know what happened in the warehouse-”
“I know that. And I’m not ready to talk about it.”
“I’m not asking you to talk about it, Peter. All I want to say is…” A sigh. “I know you weren’t alone.”
“What does that mean?”
“It means I know who you were with.”
Abruptly, Decker sat up, knocking her head off his chest. He encircled his knees with his arms and stared straight ahead. “I was with Jonathan.”
“But we both know there was someone else-”
“Have you been talking to my brother?”
Anger in his voice. Rina said, “Do you honestly think Randy would betray a confidence?”
Decker continued to direct his gaze at nothing. He didn’t speak.
“I saw Donatti in New York, Peter. He was following me-”
“What!”
“Can you lower your voice?”
“He waswhat?”
“It wasn’t like it sounds.”
“Thatmotherfuc-”
“Peter,shhhh!”
“That is it!” He sprang out of bed, threw on his robe, and began to pace. “I’m going tokillhim-which is what I should have done in the first place.”
“Are you going to rant or do you want to hear what I have to say?”
He suddenly turned against her. “Andnowyou’re telling me.” His voice was rife with hostility. “Any particular reason for keepingmein the dark?”
“Yes, I had my reasons. And I will tell them to you if you’d like to listen.”
Decker glared at her. He was glad that it was dark so she couldn’t see how furious he was. “What’d the bastard do? Come on to you?”
“Yes, he tried to intimidate me-”
“Thatmotherfucking son-of-a-bitch bastard!I will strangle him with my own-”
“Peter, he took a bullet for me.”
He barely heard her above his own tirade, but he did hear her. In the sudden stillness, he realized he was panting heavily. Sweat was pouring off his forehead. The image materialized in his brain-a shadow lifting up his shirt… the bandage around his ribs.
Now we’re twins.
“Whatdid you say?” His voice was softer now.
“I said, I think he took a bullet for me.”
He sat down beside her, his hands shaking. “Youthink?”
“It happened so fast. He’d been following me, although I hadn’t noticed it. The next thing I knew, I was pressed against the hood of a car and he was on top of me, bleeding from a gunshot wound. I know you hate him. And I’m sure you have every right to hate him. I hate him, too. But even reprehensible people can do noble acts.”
Decker was still breathing hard. “How do you know the bullet was for you? It could have been meant for him, you know.”
“Perfectly true. I’m sure he has scores of enemies. But at the time, you had enemies, too. He acted quickly, Peter. It was strictly by instinct. And now it’s over… all of it. So I guess we’ll never find out.”