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Down from a hill ran a green rill; its water I drank to my heart's ease. Up its fountain-stair to a country fair of ever-eve I came, far from the seas, climbing into meadows of fluttering shadows: flowers lay there like fallen stars, and on a blue pool, glassy and cool, like floating moons the nenuphars. Alders were sleeping, and willows weeping by a slow river of rippling weeds; gladdon-swords guarded the fords, and green spears, and arrow-reeds.
There was echo of song all the evening long down in the valley; many a thing running to and fro: hares white as snow, voles out of holes; moths on the wing with lantern-eyes; in quiet surprise brocks were staring out of dark doors. I heard dancing there, music in the air, feet going quick on the green floors. But whenever I came it was ever the same: the feet fled, and all was still; never a greeting, only the fleeting pipes, voices, horns on the hill.
Of river-leaves and the rush-sheaves I made me a mantle of jewel-green, a tall wand to hold, and a flag of gold; my eyes shone like the star-sheen. With flowers crowned I stood on a mound, and shrill as a call at cock-crow proudly I cried: 'Why do you hide? Why do none speak, wherever I go? Here now I stand, king of this land, with gladdon-sword and reed-mace.
Answer my call! Come forth all! Speak to me words! Show me a face!'
Black came a cloud as a night-shroud. Like a dark mole groping I went, to the ground falling, on my hands crawling with eyes blind and my back bent. I crept to a wood: silent it stood in its dead leaves, bare were its boughs. There must I sit, wandering in wit, while owls snored in their hollow house. For a year and a day there must I stay: beetles were tapping in the rotten trees, spiders were weaving, in the mould heaving puffballs loomed about my knees.
At last there came light in my long night, and I saw my hair hanging grey. 'Bent though I be, I must find the sea! I have lost myself, and I know not the way, but let me be gone!' Then I stumbled on; like a hunting bat shadow was over me; in my ears dinned a withering wind, and with ragged briars I tried to cover me. My hands were torn and my knees worn, and years were heavy upon my back, when the rain in my face took a salt taste, and I smelled the smell of sea-wrack.
Birds came sailing, mewing, wailing; I heard voices in cold caves, seals barking, and rocks snarling, and in spout-holes the gulping of waves. Winter came fast; into a mist I passed, to land's end my years I bore; snow was in the air, ice in my hair, darkness was lying on the last shore.
There still afloat waited the boat, in the tide lifting, its prow tossing. Weary I lay, as it bore me away, the waves climbing, the seas crossing, passing old hulls clustered with gulls and great ships laden with light, coming to haven, dark as a raven, silent as snow, deep in the night.
Houses were shuttered, wind round them muttered, roads were empty. I sat by a door, and where drizzling rain poured down a drain I cast away all that I bore: in my clutching hand some grains of sand, and a sea-shell silent and dead. Never will my ear that bell hear, never my feet that shore tread Never again, as in sad lane, in blind alley and in long street ragged I walk. To myself I talk; for still they speak not, men that I meet.

16

THE LAST SHIP

Fíriel looked out at three o'clock: the grey night was going; far away a golden cock clear and shrill was crowing. The trees were dark, and the dawn pale, waking birds were cheeping, a wind moved cool and frail through dim leaves creeping.
She watched the gleam at window grow, till the long light was shimmering on land and leaf; on grass below grey dew was glimmering. Over the floor her white feet crept, down the stair they twinkled, through the grass they dancing stepped all with dew besprinkled.
Her gown had jewels upon its hem, as she ran down to the river, and leaned upon a willow-stem, and watched the water quiver. A kingfisher plunged down like a stone in a blue flash falling, bending reeds were softly blown, lily-leaves were sprawling.
A sudden music to her came, as she stood there gleaming with free hair in the morning's flame on her shoulders streaming. Flutes there were, and harps were wrung, and there was sound of singing, like wind-voices keen and young and far bells ringing.
A ship with golden beak and oar and timbers white came gliding; swans went sailing on before, her tall prow guiding. Fair folk out of Elvenland in silver-grey were rowing, and three with crowns she saw there stand with bright hair flowing.
With harp in hand they sang their song to the slow oars swinging: 'Green is the land, the leaves are long, and the birds are singing. Many a day with dawn of gold this earth will lighten, many a flower will yet unfold, ere the cornfields whiten.
'Then whither go ye, boatmen fair, down the river gliding? To twilight and to secret lair in the great forest hiding? To Northern isles and shores of stone on strong swans flying, by cold waves to dwell alone with the white gulls crying?'