We sat quietly for a moment. I had to call the police. She knew it, and I knew it.
“Why didn’t you turn yourself in?” I said. “I know how much you love this country. I know how much you appreciate America. I know you consider being a lawful citizen a moral obligation of the highest order.”
“You are correct on all counts. But if I go to the police they will put me in prison where I will die in some infirmary. And that, as I told you, I can’t allow to happen.”
“But why did you leave a clue for me? How could you know I’d find it? Why… all this?”
“I knew you’d find it because you are the smartest girl I know. And if you hadn’t found it, I would have created some other reason to lure you in.”
I tried to understand her motive but my logical reasoning failed me. “Why?”
“A fractured family is the hardest break to mend. Sometimes… sometimes we need a little help from a stranger.”
Visions of my meetings with my brother and mother flashed before me. Rus had said that I’d concocted a murder mystery to satisfy my subconscious need to return to my home. In fact, he was wrong on both counts. There had been a murder, and the killer had ensnared me in its solution for my own benefit.
“You and your brother must take care of one another,” she said. “Some day soon, you will only have each other.”
She opened the tin of mints and slipped one past her lips. I realized the typeface on the tin was printed in red, not blue. This struck me as odd because she’d always carried the blue tin. They contained mints. The red tin contained cinnamon drops. I also noticed that the tin was now empty. It had contained only one mint—
I suspected what she’d done and leapt to my feet. But by then it was too late.
Mrs. Chimchak died in my arms. I was later told she took something know as the “L-pill,” a pea-shaped vial containing liquid potassium cyanide. After she bit down on it, her brain and heart ceased functioning in fifteen seconds.
She passed away in her home the way she told me she would. I held her in my arms the way I told myself I would not. She’d succeeded in her objective of luring me back to my family and community, just as she’d snuck into my camp during my childhood survival test to give me some aspirin.
In both cases, I never saw her coming, and she was gone before I knew it.
CHAPTER 37
Later that night I called Brasilia and asked to speak with my brother. A woman talked to him in his office and said he was unavailable. I told her to tell him a woman by the name of Chimchak had died in my arms that morning. Sixty seconds later he picked up the phone and agreed to meet me at the Thread City Diner in Willimantic.
We had Easter breakfast for dinner. It consisted of scrambled eggs and bacon. The traditional Ukrainian breads, meats, and condiments were missing. Marko bemoaned the absence of mashed beets laced with horseradish. It was his favorite growing up. He said he loved it with ham and paska, the Easter bread. The horseradish stung the nose and brought tears to one’s eyes. In retrospect I suspected he might have loved it because it was the only time he ever permitted himself a good cry.
He listened intently as I recounted my conversation with Mrs. Chimchak in detail, and described how she’d ended her own life. How I called for an ambulance and told the police everything that had transpired. Mrs. Chimchak had avenged her lover’s death by killing my godfather. By my reckoning, there was no justice due any living or deceased person. But I told the police what I knew because that’s what she would have wanted. She was, above all else, a proud American. She would not have wanted American law circumvented on her behalf. Of that I was certain.
I kept my voice low lest someone overhear talk of L-pills, stolen art, or murder. When I was done, I told him her motive for writing DP in my godfather’s calendar.
He sighed and shook his head. “At least she was right about one thing.”
My heart soared. “That we have to take care of each other?”
“No. The devil always takes back his gifts.”
After our food arrived, he asked if I was in any legal trouble for admitting to taking a gun from Donnie Angel’s man in the vineyard and walking around with it.
“I’m not sure,” I said. “I found a lawyer just in case. I don’t have enough money for anyone high-powered. But I found a guy in New Jersey through a friend of mine who’s willing to work cheap. He’s licensed to practice in Connecticut, too. His name is Johnny Tanner.”
Marko raised his eyebrows. “He’s a lawyer and he calls himself Johnny? Not John?”
I shrugged. “He can call himself whatever he wants as long as he’s competent and cheap. Speaking of competent and cheap, I talked to Paul Obon on the phone today. I told him I want to look into our father’s past.” I recounted my mother’s surprising comment in the car that I shouldn’t do so. “He said he knows some guy who knew him in Ukraine. Some guy named Max Milan. Obon is going to set up a meeting. Any interest—”
Marko raised his hand to stop me. “No. You do what you need to do but count me out. I have no interest. None whatsoever.”
My eyes went to his mangled finger, as they always did. This time I didn’t stop myself. I allowed my gaze to linger on the twisted knuckle and misshapen digit. I remembered my father’s voice in the driveway the day he’d discovered Marko had used a typewriter to change an F into an A on his report card. My father opened the door to our Ford, pointed to the doorjamb and said:
“Put your fingers in there.”
I didn’t remember what happened next. In fact, I’m not even sure I was actually in the driveway. Marko or my mother may have told me the story years later about what happened to him. For whatever psychological reason, my brain had erased the memory. It had not, however, erased the image of a subsequent incident. My father had banished my brother for some other transgression and told him to walk laps around the neighborhood in the dark. When he rang the doorbell to return to the house, my father told me to open it and say:
“You’re not welcome in this house.”
Before I could shut the door in his face, per my father’s instructions, Marko put on a brave exterior for my benefit.
“It’s okay, Nancy Drew. It’s not your fault. Don’t you worry about it.”
We sat in the diner and ate the rest of our breakfast quietly. When we were finished, we ordered fresh cups of coffee and savored a silence only people with an indestructible bond can enjoy. The truth was we didn’t have many interests in common. There wasn’t much to discuss. Fortunately, we didn’t need to say a word to each other. We didn’t need to speak.
Except I did.
In the diner, I had told myself I didn’t want to ruin the moment. Nothing ruined the moment more than sentimentality, which we’d been raised to consider to be emotional self-indulgence. I told myself to wait until we were outside and ready to leave. That would have been a more appropriate time for me to say what I needed to say.
But after we paid the bill and walked to the parking lot, I began to fear I was lying to myself. Once again, I didn’t know if I could form the words. Maybe I wasn’t wired to speak them. Perhaps my brother wasn’t built to hear them.
Marko had parked his Harley near the entrance to the diner. We stopped beside it. He held his helmet in his hands. Originally gold, it was shot with scrapes and scratches, like a gladiator’s armor. Still functioning, though. Despite its obvious mileage, it was still battle-worthy.
As he fiddled with the padding inside, I felt opportunity slipping from my grasp. I pictured him prying jewels loose from my mother’s box, heard the thud of my hand against his head, remembered him tumbling to the floor like a drunken, helpless child. And then I saw Mrs. Chimchak sitting in her chair, heard the words of advice coming from her lips, saw the vial snap between her teeth, and watched life leave her body.