‘More ghosts,’ Elinor said. ‘It seems that we constantly manufacture them. We are factories of ghosts.’
‘These ghosts will soon lose their power.’
‘Have you read the material, sir?’ She moved back from the brazier, and in doing so stepped nearer to him. ‘Surely there’s not been time?’
‘I saw enough. I came by Mr Oldershaw’s rooms to make sure we had the right valise and went through the contents. It’s vile stuff.’
Holdsworth had already torn the pages out of the books so they would be easier to burn. She crouched and took a handful of papers at random. She heard him draw in a sharp breath but he said nothing, and he did not try to stop her. She angled two or three of the sheets at the flames. Words danced before her in the shifting orange light.
‘My God! Mr Whichcote is writing to the Dean of Rosington! He dined here last term, a most agreeable man, and drank tea with me afterwards. And to Lord -’
‘Pray throw them on the fire, ma’am.’
She let papers flutter into the brazier. She took up another page at random.
‘You should not distress yourself with this trash,’ Holdsworth said. ‘It is indelicate. And worse.’
‘I may be a mere woman, sir, but I am not easily shocked,’ she said without looking up. ‘This is but a record of human folly and there is nothing so out of the ordinary in that. Women are foolish creatures too.’
He did not reply. He stooped and threw more papers on to the flames.
‘Who is this Richenda?’ she asked.
‘It appears that Morton Frostwick, a fellow-commoner at Jerusalem who was the president some twenty or thirty years ago, had a servant girl of that name. Pray let us leave it there.’
‘Good God,’ Elinor said.
It was too late. She had turned over that piece of paper and found on the back a sketch, the likeness of a girl with regular, pretty features, looking over her shoulder at whoever was taking the likeness with a coyly inviting smile. Her finger toyed with a ringlet. Underneath was the single word Richenda.
‘But this – this is so like -’
‘Yes.’ He stretched out his hand for the paper. ‘You must be growing warm, ma’am – pray allow me to feed the fire.’
On the other side of the brazier, the flames made Mr Holdsworth a stranger: half-silhouette, half-fire, all mystery. Richenda. The girl’s face and name came together in her mind with certain rumours about Morton Frostwick that had necessitated his abrupt departure from Jerusalem more than twenty years before. She recalled that there was a person still at college whom rumour (and Dr Carbury) had associated with him. As Soresby’s career showed, it was not easy for a poor and friendless sizar to defray the expenses of a University education, and in those days it had been even harder.
‘I recognize the face,’ Elinor said, studying the sketch. ‘See – do you not remark the likeness?’
‘Give it me, madam.’
‘In a moment. It might almost be Mr Richardson’s sister or daughter. But I know he has none for he told me once he was his parents’ only child and of course he is not married. Is it possible that this is not a servant girl at all, or any sort of girl, but -’
‘Yes,’ Holdsworth said. ‘Pray give me that paper.’
‘But, you see, this explains it.’
‘Explains what?’
‘Oh – many things. And, most recently, why Mr Richardson has been so complacent about allowing Mr Whichcote to find refuge in college.’
Holdsworth pulled another handful of papers from the valise. ‘This is not a pretty business, however one looks at it. I will not make it worse.’
She watched him feeding the last of the papers to the flames. She glanced at the sketch. It might be necessary for her to negotiate with Mr Richardson in the near future and he had no reason to grant her favours. Perhaps this would help tip the balance.
Holdsworth turned aside to empty the rest of the papers on to the fire. To Elinor it was as if he had reproved her, even rejected her, though God knew she had offered him nothing. He took out a pocket knife and slashed at the soft leather of the valise, chopping it into small fragments.
‘I do not know what I shall do,’ she said in a small voice.
She stood with her head bowed and the sketch of Richenda in her hand. She tried not to think of the future. Was not the present enough for anyone?
Holdsworth put down the knife and the ruined bag. He came towards her, making hardly any noise. For a big man, he moved quietly. She did not know what she would do. She did not know what she wanted, either.
The fire was dying. The air was growing cooler as the night advanced. She shivered, though whether it was from cold, fear, desire or a mixture of all three, she could not tell.
‘Let me put that paper on the fire for you, ma’am. It will be for the best.’
Elinor looked at him. What are you really asking? What am I choosing?
He came closer. She saw his face, the skin tinted orange by the light of the dying fire, and the hand he held out towards her. She did not move. His hand closed about her upper arm.
For a long moment, nothing happened. Then she turned towards him like a door swinging slowly on its hinge. His other hand slipped behind her waist. Frowning, she raised her head. He lowered his face and kissed her full on the mouth. She knew this was not possible. This must be a shameful dream.
Her lips moved under his. There was an alien softness there, a warmth, which she had not expected, and also the prickle of stubble on his skin. Anything was possible in dreams. Her lips parted, and so did his. He tasted of smoke and wine and darkness.
She pulled away from him and dropped the sketch on the fire. Richenda, the pretty girl with the coy smile, gained a final lease of life: she glowed with bright colours; she danced in the flames; she curled gracefully; and at last she blackened and crumbled away.
‘It’s growing cold, madam,’ Holdsworth said, in a voice so low she could hardly hear what he was saying. ‘You must go indoors. It would not do for you to catch a chill.’
It was only afterwards, as she lay in bed hugging herself and thinking of what had happened, thinking of the feel of him on her skin and the taste of him in her mouth, that she realized she had forgotten to tell John Holdsworth about the ghost.
46
Philip Whichcote did not sleep. As the long night hours drifted past, he lay in a paralysis of discomfort varied with stabs of cramp that became steadily more frequent and more acute.
He did not know who had attacked him, or why. Did they mean to leave him here to die? Did they mean to murder him?
The temperature dropped lower and lower. A full bladder caused him exquisite unhappiness until at last he lost control of it and there was a new element added to his misery. The bells of Cambridge chimed, muffled and distant, marking the hours of his suffering. He slipped into a trance-like state, neither waking nor sleeping.
A crack of metal roused him. Then another. The bolts were sliding back. He opened his eyes. It was growing light. There were footsteps behind him. He knew there was more than one person because he felt their hands on him and heard their breathing. A dark, coarse material was thrown over his head and pulled down over his shoulders. They lashed the material down with a strap passed around his neck.
They hauled him to his feet. But his legs gave way underneath him and he collapsed. His captors hooked their arms under his armpits, one on either side, and dragged him outside. He lost consciousness from the pain of it.
When Whichcote came to, he was again lying face down. Something was rattling and jolting his body. His limbs were no longer bound and his head was uncovered. The gag had been removed. His mouth was parched and his tongue felt swollen and alien. There was a foul smell in his nostrils and his face was moist.
Iron-shod wheels rattled on paving stones. He retched and brought out a mouthful of sour liquid. He tried to turn himself over and sit up. He called out, ‘Stop!’ but his mouth had lost the habit of speaking and the word came out as another mouthful of thin vomit.