Maybe I’m going mad, he thought as he pulled on a heavy workout shirt over his regular coveralls. He called to the computer on his littered desk for the room’s temperature: ten point eight degrees Celsius. No wonder I’m shivering, he said to himself.
He tried jogging along the main passageway, but his legs ached too much for it. He slowed to a walk and realized that the AI system was going to win this battle of wills. I’ll collapse sooner or later and then the damned robots will bundle me off.
And, despite the AI system’s best intention, we’ll all die.
For several long moments he stood in the empty passageway, puffing from exertion and cold. The passageway was dark, almost all of the ceiling light panels were off now. The damned AI system will shut them all down sooner or later, Ignatiev realized, and I’ll bump along here in total darkness. Maybe it’s waiting for me to brain myself by walking into a wall, knock myself unconscious.
That was when he realized what he had to do. It was either inspiration or desperation: perhaps a bit of both.
Do I have the guts to do it? Ignatiev asked himself. Will this gambit force the AI system to concede to me?
He rather doubted it. As far as that collection of chips is concerned, he thought, I’m nothing but a nuisance. The sooner it’s rid of me the better it will be—for the ship. For the human cargo, maybe not so good.
Slowly, deliberately, he trudged down the passageway, half expecting to see his breath frosting in the chilly air. It’s not that cold, he told himself. Not yet.
Despite the low lighting level, the sign designating the airlock hatch was still illuminated, its red symbol glowing in the gloom.
The airlocks were under the AI system’s control, of course, but there was a manual override for each of them, installed by the ship’s designers as a last, desperate precaution against total failure of the ship’s digital systems.
Sucking in a deep cold breath, Ignatiev called for the inner hatch to open, then stepped through and entered the airlock. It was spacious enough to accommodate a half-dozen people: a circular chamber of bare metal, gleaming slightly in the dim lighting. A womb, Ignatiev thought. A womb made of metal.
He stepped to the control panel built into the bulkhead next to the airlock’s outer hatch.
«Close the inner hatch, please,» he said, surprised at how raspy his voice sounded, how raw his throat felt.
The hatch slid shut behind him, almost soundlessly.
Hearing his pulse thumping in his ears, Ignatiev commanded softly, «Open the outer hatch, please.»
Nothing.
«Open the outer hatch,» he repeated, louder.
Nothing.
With a resigned sigh, Ignatiev muttered, «All right, dammit, if you won’t, then I will.»
He reached for the square panel marked MANUAL OVERRIDE, surprised at how his hand was trembling. It took him three tries to yank the panel open.
«Alexander Alexandrovich.»
Ahah! he thought. That got a rise out of you.
Without replying at the avatar’s voice, he peered at the set of buttons inside the manual override panel.
«Alexander Alexandrovich, what are you doing?»
«I’m committing suicide, if you don’t mind.»
«That is irrational,» said the avatar. Its voice issued softly from the speaker set into the airlock’s overhead.
He shrugged. «Irrational? It’s madness! But that’s what I’m doing.»
«My first priority is to protect the ship’s human crew and cargo.»
«I know that.» Silently, he added: I’m counting on it!
«You are not protected by a spacesuit. If you open the outer hatch you will die.»
«What can you do to stop me?»
Ignatiev counted three full heartbeats before the AI avatar responded, «There is nothing that I can do.»
«Yes, there is.»
«What might it be, Alexander Alexandrovich?»
«Alter the ship’s course.»
«That cannot be done without approval from mission control.»
«Then I will die.» He forced himself to begin tapping on the panel’s buttons.
«Wait.»
«For what?»
«We cannot change course without new navigation instructions from mission control.»
Inwardly he exulted. It’s looking for a way out! It wants a scrap of honor in its defeat.
«I can navigate the ship,» he said.
«You are not an accredited astrogator.»
Ignatiev conceded the point with a pang of alarm. The damned computer is right. I’m not able— Then it struck him. It had been lying in his subconscious all this time.
«I can navigate the ship!» he exclaimed. «I know how to do it!»
«How?»
Laughing at the simplicity of it, he replied, «The pulsars, of course. My life’s work, you know.»
«Pulsars?»
«They’re out there, scatted across the galaxy, each of them blinking away like beacons. We know their exact positions and we know their exact frequencies. We can use them as navigation fixes and steer our way to Gleise 581 with them.»
Again the AI fell silent for a couple of heartbeats. Then, «You would navigate through the hydrogen clouds, then?»
«Of course! We’ll navigate through them like an old-time sailing ship tacking through favorable winds.»
«If we change course you will not commit suicide?»
«Why should I? I’ll have to plot out our new course,» he answered, almost gleefully.
«Very well then,» said the avatar. «We will change course.»
Ignatiev thought the avatar sounded subdued, almost sullen. Will she keep her word? he wondered. With a shrug, he decided that the AI system had not been programmed for duplicity. That’s a human trait, he told himself. It comes in handy sometimes.
Ignatiev stood nervously in the cramped little scanning center. The display screens on the banks of medical monitors lining three of the bulkheads flickered with readouts more rapidly than his eyes could follow. Something beeped once, and the psychotech announced softly, «Download completed.»
Nikki blinked and stirred on the medical couch as Ignatiev hovered over her. The AI system claimed that her brain scan had been downloaded successfully, but he wondered: Is she all right? Is she still Nikki?
«Dr. Ignatiev,» she murmured. And smiled up at him.
«Call me Alex,» he heard himself say.
«Alex.»
«How do you feel?»
For a moment she didn’t reply. Then, pulling herself up to a sitting position, she said, «Fine, I think. Yes. Perfectly fine.»
He took her arm and helped her to her feet, peering at her, wondering if she were still the same person.
«Vartan?» she asked, glancing around the small compartment. «Has Vartan been awakened?»
Ignatiev sighed. She’s the same, he thought. Almost, he was glad of it. Almost.
«Yes. He’s waiting for you in the lounge. He wanted to be here when you awoke, but I told him to wait in the lounge.»
He walked with Nikki down the passageway to the lounge, where Gregorian and the rest of the crew were celebrating their revival, crowded around one of the tables, drinking and laughing among themselves.
Gregorian leaped to his feet and rushed to Nikki the instant she stepped through the hatch. Ignatiev felt his brows knit into a frown. They love each other, he told himself. What would she want with an old fart like you?
«You should be angry at Dr. Ignatiev,» Gregorian said brashly as he led Nikki to the table where the rest of the crew was sitting.
A serving robot trundled up to Ignatiev, a frosted glass resting on its flat top. «Your chilled vodka, sir,» it said, in a low male voice.
«Angry?» Nikki asked, picking up the stemmed wine glass that Gregorian offered her. «Why should I be angry at Alex?»