“Agreed.” I was going to suggest it anyway. Two will be much easier for us to keep an eye on.
Without another word, one of the Deciregi steps forward. He is short for an Invierno, not even Hector’s height, and his snow-white hair is tied back in a single braid that reaches almost to his knees. The others peel off and begin walking away. There are no farewells, not even a glance backward.
“Come,” I say. “I’ll introduce you to the queens of Basajuan and Orovalle.”
We sit at the table in the audience hall. Everyone is straight-backed in their chairs, eyes hard and angry, voices sharp. No one wants the Inviernos within the palace walls, but I personally vouch for their good behavior. Alodia demands that the sorcerers be placed in the prison tower under heavy guard, but I refuse. Cosmé demands reparations for the destruction wrought by Inviernos to Basajuan and its surrounding villages. “Years of destruction,” she says. “Centuries.” But I refuse her too.
For my plan to work, enemies must treat one another as neighbors. And it has to start somewhere.
Beneath the table, Hector sneaks his hand over and grasps mine. I twine my fingers with his.
Our discussion is not going anywhere today. We are too fresh from battle, too exhausted, too frightened. We need time to cool off. To rest. And dear God, I need time to bathe.
I release Hector’s hand and rise to my feet. “Let’s convene an official parliament tomorrow,” I say. “Cosmé, would you mind offering us hospitality for the night?”
“We prepared a whole wing for you when we got your letter, thinking you’d come in state.” Her smile is too bright for the circumstances. “There’s so much room, we’ll just send the Inviernos along with you.”
“Of course.”
“And guards. Lot of guards. For your own protection in these trying times.”
I sigh.
34
THERE are enough rooms for us each to have our own, and at my request, the mayordomo orders baths for everyone. Red is delighted to have a room and bath service of her own, just like a real lady, she says.
The mayordomo ushers us down the hallway. We peel off one by one—first the Inviernos, then Belén, then Red.
Mara sidles up to me. “Are you sure you don’t need me tonight?” she whispers.
“Go with Belén,” I whisper back.
Her answering grin is shy but wide. She wraps me in a quick hug. “See you in the morning,” she says, and then she dashes back down the hall.
“Here we are, Your Majesty,” says the mayordomo, indicating a door. “There are fresh linens and hot bathwater inside. Pull the blue cord by the bed if you need anything.” He opens the door to a small but lovely suite decorated in ivory and royal blue. “Her Majesty said to put the Lord-Commander in the room next to yours, that you might require his counsel as you prepare for tomorrow’s parliament. A door adjoins your suites.”
“Oh,” I manage, glancing up at Hector’s suddenly rigid face. “Thank you.” Cosmé misses nothing.
I turn to say good-night to Hector, but as we stare at each other, speech leaves me. Everything that comes to mind seems so formal, so cold, when all I want to do is wrap my arms around his neck and hold him close, tell him how much I appreciate his steady presence, his enduring encouragement, his sure-burning intelligence. Maybe I should just invite him inside, but with everything that has happened today, I’m not sure it’s the right time.
The mayordomo clears his throat. We’ve stood here too long. Hector’s gaze on me is open and patient, as though he’s waiting for something. I don’t know what else to do, so I stretch up on my tiptoes and give him a light kiss on the cheek. “Good night, Hector,” I say, and I step inside my room.
The door doesn’t slam shut behind me, but I feel like it does, the bang too loud and too echoing, leaving me too alone. I should think about tomorrow’s parliament and prepare my arguments. I should go over everything I observed today and build my strategy around it.
But all I can do is stare helplessly at the other door to my right, the one that joins Hector’s suite to mine, thinking about the slight prick of stubble against my lips when I kissed him, the scents of oiled armor and shaving soap that always tickle my nose whenever he is near.
“When we reach Basajuan,” he said, “maybe I can get you to myself for a while.”
I should knock on the door. This is it. As good a time as any. We might not have another opportunity to be alone for weeks. I raise my fist.
I let my hand drop. Maybe he needs some time to himself. He’s probably as exhausted as I am. Maybe he wants to bathe. Or sleep.
Maybe he’s changed his mind.
I’ve just endured another battle. I killed again. I saw friends and family today I haven’t seen in more than a year. I learned that my father has died. It’s ridiculous that all I can think about is whether or not Hector wants me as much as I want him.
I whirl away from the door, recognizing my own foolishness, my own weakness.
The scent of jasmine draws me toward the tiled bathing area. It’s much smaller than my bathing atrium at home, and the tub is a round wooden creature with iron joints that are worn from so many rustings and polishings. But it brims with steaming water and floating rose petals. Two plush towels lie folded beside it, and hanging on a peg nearby is a lovely white dressing gown trimmed in lace.
I will bathe first, I decide, and then I will screw up my courage to knock on the door.
I shuck my boots, pants, and blouse, and step inside. The water is glorious—fragrant and soothing hot. I sink neck deep and scrub days of travel from my skin, from under my fingernails, from my calloused feet. I admire the shape of my legs. Days on the trail have rounded my calves, brought tautness to my thighs. I’ll never be elegant and willowy like Cosmé or Alodia, but I’m healthy and strong. I’m glad for what I’ve become.
I lather my hair and scrub my scalp, then duck underwater to remove the excess soap. Water sluices off me as I get to my feet. I douse myself with the rinse bucket, then towel down. The cotton weave of my dressing gown is so fine that it feels lovely against my skin. Like silk. Like a lover’s touch. Or so I imagine.
I sit on the edge of the bed and start working a comb through my hair. My hair is always horribly tangled after a bath. The trick is to get it combed out before it dries enough for the waves to set in, which make combing even more difficult.
Even after my hair is tangle free, I continue combing. Finally I fold my dirty clothes into a neat pile so I can either have them laundered or stashed in my pack in a hurry.
I look around for something else to do. Then I plunk back onto the bed, my face falling into my hands. I’m wasting time with my barely acknowledged hope that Hector will be the one to knock.
Yes, our love is a mutual thing, a thing between equals, but we can’t escape the fact that I am his queen. It is up to me whether or not we see each other this night. I must decide.
I walk to the door. I take a deep breath. I knock.
It swings open so fast I recoil a few steps.
Hector’s hair is damp and curling from a recent bath. He wears a fresh pair of pants and a white gentleman’s blouse, untucked. His feet are bare.
Neither of us moves.
“Good evening,” I say, then curse myself for stupidity.
But he answers in kind. “Good evening.” He runs a hand through his hair and says, “I wasn’t sure . . . that is, I thought with the battle today, and learning about your father, and—”
I blurt, “Are you going to come inside or not?”
His face breaks into a wide grin, and he steps inside, shuts the door behind him, and pulls me into his arms.
We fit together so beautifully, and without my bodice, without his armor, I can feel him at last, and I am dizzy with it.