They were more talkative than people from farther north, whispering of trysts, thievery, jealousy, and greed. But, as with the northerners, after an hour or two of listening the voices blended into a single aching demand. Amos tried to recall the shape of Evangeline’s mouth, if she had smiled at all when he’d shown her the card. Ryzhkova clucked with appropriate sympathy, laughed when needed, and patted hands. When the time came for answers, she signaled for Amos.
“Young man will show the cards, yes? He has gift, hears fates.” She used her most motherly voice to whisper, “Is why he does not speak. Hears terrible, terrible things.” Ryzhkova’s accent was at its thickest when speaking to customers. Showmanship, Amos thought; not so large as Peabody’s, but there it was. “Secrets,” she said. “They travel to his hand, see? His hand alone makes the cards speak.” The clients watched Amos as if seeing their secrets in his veins.
“Much change. The man here, you see? He is Page. There is obstacle between you and your desire. Ah, I see.” Her singsong voice would have been soothing were Amos not distracted. He’d picked the wrong card; he could have chosen the World, to ask Evangeline to look for possibility, but its meaning was less direct. He’d intended to be clear and instead he suffered for it.
“Three of Swords in past. Poor thing. Heart has broken,” Ryzhkova told a mousy woman.
Three blades piercing a brilliant red heart. An apt image, Amos thought.
Ryzhkova comforted with her ruined hands, touching wrists, calming fears, speaking of future love. Whoever opened her door was told all would be well. It wasn’t true. Amos had seen the cards.
Well into the night, after the last client scurried away, Ryzhkova pulled the drape closed on her cart and shut the door. Amos stood to leave, but she stopped him. “Very important, Amos.” Her eyes were dark with warning. “You must know when to tell truth and when not.” She searched for words. “More money sometimes means less truth. They pay us well,” she shrugged, “we lie a little. Sit with me.”
He sat in a corner and folded his legs, the wood biting into his bare ankles, and watched as Ryzhkova began the lengthy process of unwinding her head scarf. Her hair slid down from the crown of her head, a coarse gray and white rope. Never having seen it out of the scarf, he was surprised at its length. It fell nearly to her waist. He briefly wondered what Madame Ryzhkova had once looked like. He glanced at the portrait of her daughter, searching for similarities that time hadn’t erased.
“I will teach you something,” she said. “Before we begin, you must know you cannot trick me. Only truth between us, yes? No lies. Not for we who tell fortune.” She smacked her palm on the top of a small stool. “You took my cards, yes?”
He nodded.
She laughed. “Good, good. You understand. Do not do this again.”
It was something he could not promise. He remained still.
Ryzhkova inched toward the barrel where the cards lay, still spread from the last client. She leaned over them and gestured for Amos to do the same. The cart felt smaller and warmer than it had moments before. A single candle provided light. Over their heads the portraits of her relatives flickered in light and shadows, their eyes laughing at him. “I will not trick you. No lies for us. But,” she said, raising a gnarled finger, “I will teach you how.”
Until then Amos’s life had been one of unwavering honesty. When he sat with Ryzhkova and watched her fingers play over the cards, he did not know what it meant to lie or that soon he would lie to the very woman teaching him the art of deception.
She showed him how to slip a card into the edge of his sleeve, how to stash one in his scarf, how to reverse a card to change its meaning, all of it too quick for the untrained eye to see. His first attempts were fumbling, clumsy, and sent her into fits of laughter. Hours of quick turns and pocketing, subtle flips and slides later, Ryzhkova grabbed his sleeve.
“You showed my cards to the girl, didn’t you?”
A subtle tic, a twitch of his left hand betrayed him. Anger flared in Ryzhkova’s eyes, then went dead. He had the sudden thought that a strong wind might blow her away like ash.
“You must not see her.”
He raised a hand to protest, but she continued.
“She is beautiful, yes. But she is not like you, not like me. Look at her. She is half a soul, hungry for another. You stay with this girl,” she spat the word, “and she will drown you.”
He shook his head fiercely.
“She will not mean to. She thinks only of love, not the price. She knows only want. That is the way of Rusalki. Drowned girls.” Her voice hitched. “They lure a man, play with him, dance with him until he dies. They drag him into water, not knowing he will perish. When he is dead they grieve. In grief, they look for another to comfort them, and so they go on. Leave her to another boy, to one who is not mine.”
Amos’s stomach lurched. He could not tell Ryzhkova what he’d seen when he’d held Evangeline, or how it had been she who had pushed him away. His teeth dug into his cheek until he tasted blood.
“I say this to protect you. Because I have seen. Because I love you, like my son.” Her boot hit the table. A card bounced. The Page of Cups, a dark-haired boy with an overflowing goblet. “The girl, she may not know, but she will drink your soul. She cannot help it. Half a soul will kill to be whole.” She struck her hands against the card box, bent thumb standing in defiance, shaking with fear and threat. “You will not lie to me. You do not see her.”
11 JULY 17TH
I have a week. The book is a beautifully broken window with an obstructed view of what is killing us, and something is definitely killing us. It isn’t just my family’s endemic sadness. Yesterday I found a newspaper photograph of my grandmother two days before her death. She’s young, an angel in an Esther Williams swimsuit, smiling so brightly it hurt. Genuine happiness, then nothing. Enola is home, falling into trances with tarot cards.
But I’m alive in the water. The bottom swarms with horseshoe crabs. They’ve been here more than a week now, far longer than their mating season. Could be global warming. It’s warmer this summer, and the tides are vacillating to where at low tide I can walk out to the rocks with my feet dry. Joblessness is setting in and each day there is more plaster on the floor. A crab shuffles across my foot. Claws grab and release.
Lavinia Collins drowned in 1876, in Bridgeport, the land of Barnum. If I looked across the water I could see where she died. Born on February 3rd, 1846, to Clara Petrova, daughter of the drowned Bess Visser. Lavinia was dead by thirty. Everything after her birth is in the damaged pages, gone in a wash of spoiled ink and paper. Not a hint of foul play. Last night Churchwarry brought up the Flying Wallendas. Wire walkers, a circus family dating back four hundred years, with a string of falls and accidents tragic enough to be called a curse. Falling wire walkers live in the same world as drowning mermaids. A package arrived this morning, wonderfully musty, with a small note from Churchwarry.
I expect this returned, though there is no rush. I’d let you keep it, but I suspect neither of us can afford that. Marie would shout at me until my ears fell off. It’s rather rare.