tattooed on the porcelain skin. “When did you get that?”
“Does it matter?”
“Not really. What matters is why you got it.” Faced with open highway, he put on
speed. “How else will I get to know you?”
She scratched the tattoo as if it had moved beneath her skin. “Pyotr made me get it. He
said it was part of the initiation. He said he wouldn’t go to bed with me until I got it.”
“And you wanted to go to bed with him.”
“Not as much as I want to go to bed with you.”
She turned away then, stared out the side window, as if she was suddenly embarrassed
by her confession. Perhaps she actually was, Arkadin thought as he signaled, moving
right through two lanes as a sign for a rest stop appeared. He turned off the highway,
parked at the far end of the rest stop, away from the two vehicles that occupied parking
slots. He got out, walked to the edge, and, with his back to her, took a long satisfying pee.
The day was bright and warmer than it had been in Sevastopol. The breeze coming off
the water was laden with moisture that lay on his skin like sweat. On the way back to the
car he rolled up his sleeves. His coat was slung with hers across the car’s backseat.
“We’d better enjoy this warmth while we can,” Devra said. “Once we get onto the
Anatolian Plateau, the mountains will block this temperate weather. It’ll be colder than a
witch’s teat.”
It was as if she’d never made the intimate statement. But she’d caught his attention, all
right. It seemed to him now that he understood something important about her-or, more
accurately, about himself. It went through Gala, as well, now that he thought of it. He
seemed to have a certain power over women. He knew Gala loved him with every fiber
of her being, and she wasn’t the first one. Now this slim tomboyish dyevochka, hard-
bitten, downright nasty when she needed to be, had fallen under his spell. Which meant
he had the handle on her he was searching for.
“How many times have you been to Eskisёehir?” he asked.
“Enough to know what to expect.”
He sat back. “Where did you learn to answer questions without revealing a thing?”
“If I’m bad, I learned it at my mother’s breast.”
Arkadin looked away. He seemed to have trouble breathing. Without a word, he
opened the door, bolted outside, stalking in small circles like a lion in the zoo.
I cannot be alone,” Arkadin had said to Semion Icoupov, and Icoupov had taken him at
his word. At Icoupov’s villa where Arkadin was installed, his host provided a young man.
But when, a week later, Arkadin had beaten his companion nearly into a coma, Icoupov
switched tactics. He spent hours with Arkadin, trying to determine the root of his
outbursts of fury. This failed utterly, as Arkadin seemed at a loss to remember, let alone
explain these frightening episodes.
“I don’t know what to do with you,” Icoupov said. “I don’t want to incarcerate you, but
I need to protect myself.”
“I would never harm you,” Arkadin said.
“Not knowingly, perhaps,” the older man said ruminatively.
The following week a stoop-shouldered man with a formal goatee and colorless lips
spent every afternoon with Arkadin. He sat in a plush upholstered chair, one leg crossed
over the other, writing in a neat, crabbed hand in a tablet notebook he protected as if it
were his child. For his part, Arkadin lay on his host’s favorite chaise longue, a roll pillow behind his head. He answered questions. He spoke at length about many things, but the
things that shadowed his mind he kept tucked away in a black corner of the deepest
depths of his mind, never to be spoken of. That door was closed forever.
At the end of three weeks, the psychiatrist handed in his report to Icoupov and
vanished as quickly as he had appeared. No matter. Arkadin’s nightmares continued to
haunt him in the dead of night when, upon awakening with a gasp and a start, he was
convinced he heard rats scuttling, red eyes burning in the darkness. At those moments,
the fact that Icoupov’s villa was completely vermin-free was of no solace to him. The rats
lived inside him squirming, shrieking, feeding.
The next person Icoupov employed to burrow into Arkadin’s past in an attempt to cure
him of his fits of rage was a woman whose sensuality and lush figure he felt would keep
her safe from Arkadin’s outbursts of fury. Marlene was adept at handling men of all kinds
and kinks. She possessed an uncanny ability to sense the specific thing a man desired
from her, and provide it.
At first Arkadin didn’t trust Marlene. Why should he? He couldn’t trust the
psychiatrist. Wasn’t she just another form of analyst sent to coax out the secrets of his
past? Marlene of course noted this aversion in him and set about countering it. The way
she saw it, Arkadin was living under a spell, self-induced or otherwise. It was up to her to concoct an antidote.
“This won’t be a short process,” she told Icoupov at the end of her first week with
Arkadin, and he believed her.
Arkadin observed Marlene walking on little cat feet. He suspected she was smart
enough to know that even the slightest misstep on her part might strike him as a seismic
shift, and then all the progress she’d made in gaining his trust would evaporate like
alcohol over a flame. She seemed to him wary, acutely aware that at any moment he
could turn on her. She acted as if she were in a cage with a bear. Day by day you could
track the training of it, but that didn’t mean it wouldn’t unexpectedly rip your face off.
Arkadin had to laugh at that, the care with which she was treating every aspect of him.
But gradually something else began to creep into his consciousness. He suspected that
she was coming to feel something genuine for him.
Devra watched Arkadin through the windshield. Then she kicked open her door, went
after him. She shaded her eyes against a white sun plastered to a high, pale sky.
“What is it?” she said when she’d caught up to him. “What did I say?”
Arkadin turned a murderous look her way. He appeared to be in a towering rage, just
barely holding himself together. Devra found herself wondering what would happen if he
let himself go, but she also didn’t want to be in his way when it happened.
She felt an urge to touch him, to speak soothingly until he returned to a calmer state of
mind, but she sensed that would only inflame him further. So she went back to the car to
wait patiently for him to return.
Eventually he did, sitting sideways on the seat, his shoes on the ground as if he might
bolt again.
“I’m not going to fuck you,” he said, “but that doesn’t mean I don’t want to.”
She felt he wanted to say something else, but couldn’t, that whatever it was was too
bound up in what had happened to him a long time ago.
“It was a joke,” she said softly. “I was making a stupid joke.”
“There was a time when I would’ve thought nothing of it,” he said, as if talking to
himself. “Sex is unimportant.”
She sensed that he was speaking about something else, something only he knew, and
she glimpsed just how alone he was. She suspected that even in a crowd, even with
friends-if he had any-he’d feel alone. It seemed to her that he’d walled himself off from
sexual melding because it would underscore the depth of his apartness. He seemed to her
to be a moonless planet with no sun to revolve around. Just emptiness everywhere as far
as he could see. In that moment she realized that she loved him.
How long has he been in there?” Luther LaValle asked.
“Six days,” General Kendall replied. He was in his shirtsleeves, which were turned up.