I tried to remember a time when there hadn’t been a Threat Level.
The shelves stocked duct tape (for sealing windows in case of chemical attack), freeze-dried goods and bottled water. A uniformed security guard wearing an American flag armband stood next to a counter displaying handguns and Pro-Life pamphlets.
John kept glancing at him, talking madness, his hands batting at the air about his head. Thank God the dam hit before the hard-faced guard had a chance to call for back up.
I took out my purple notebook and jotted a few lines regarding some of these intriguing mannerisms. John’s case was completely unique, and the bleed was producing several interesting effects. I read my earlier entry: Sept. 21. Breakfast at the Big Box Restaurant. The Standard. Eggs too runny. Ask for them over-easy they come like snot. Ask for them over-medium they come like rock—
I kept ahead of the construct dam. The National Security section gave way to automotive parts. John made a weird little zag, zigging behind a shelf stocked with massive pistons, disappearing. I followed suit.
Behind the shelf a hallway lined with large unopened boxes and lit by a wire-meshed bulb. The floor was gray concrete littered with old advertising flyers and flattened cardboard. I guessed it to be some sort of staff access passage. I spotted John about halfway down its length, his shadow elongating beneath the unnatural light. He headed for an orange swinging door, a door which looked as though it had been repeatedly battered by forklifts.
The doors still swung when I reached them. The light dimmed considerably, bordering on dark.
The space I entered was football field large. The floor, still dirty concrete, was cluttered with tables, around each a tightly packed group of silently working people.
John had apparently vanished.
I walked along an aisle, moving deeper into the warehouse, glimpsing the hospital masked workers and their labors. Some weaved designer shirts. Some attached plastic soles to designer shoes. Some packed Bibles into boxes labeled in Arabic markings. Some assembled pistols and automatic weapons. Some sweated over crude dynamite bombs. I watched a man with missing fingers carefully attach a timer. White signs demanded ‘TOTAL SILENCE’ in big black letters. Still, I couldn’t find John.
I passed a glass room, inside another table, radiation suits delicately piecing together a strange metallic device about the size of a television set. Their foreman, done in the spectacularly real guise of a so-called “gray alien”, drank cola and smoked a cigarette in a clearly marked No Smoking area. No one seemed to care.
Finally I came to the back wall of the warehouse. Following its long length, I eventually spotted a closet-sized door hidden among a forest of acrylic Christmas trees.
I opened the door and entered another dimly lit hallway, this one narrow. It cornered, spilling into a darkened, forgotten storage space. Mannequins sported faded fashions; outdated toys smiled though a child’s hand had never touched them; ancient advertisements beckoned with impossibly low prices. The place was a sort of time capsule, an odd collection of consumer nostalgia marooned in a dirty corner caught outside of time. Not even the construct dam could effect it—for all intents and purposes, the space had already been dammed.
I searched for an exit, finally discovering one behind a garish shoe rack from the 1970s. The door was wider than the last, hard to push open. Something was blocking it on the other side. Again the voice in my ear, the miniature speaker cautioning…the reality tear was becoming unmanageable, the resources allocated extending beyond budgetary parameters. The voice advised the coordinates would be severed if the problem wasn’t soon dealt with…
I put my shoulder against the door, pushing hard, forcing movement. A dusty beam of light bled through.
A crowd, a cacophony of urgent voices. I wormed my way through the crack, joining the mob. The door closed behind me and became a shelf stocked with antacids.
I was in the pharmaceutical section, packed in among a hundred or so individuals chaotically trying to take advantage of the red light torsine special. I spotted John, already in line, his ID vise-clutched in his hand. To the store’s credit the queue was moving relatively rapidly.
The pharmacy was bright whites and hanging, banner-style adverts, some pushing trademarked Sailing Away brand torsine. To my right was a wall stacked floor to ceiling with tampons, and to my left, a triple-paned window into the cold and bleak. I couldn’t see outside though, the view was eclipsed by faces, gaunt faces, the huddled masses, stark and staring in at the products they couldn’t have. A hauntingly sad-eyed little girl caught my attention, not looking at the candy just out of reach, not looking at the riot, but looking at me. It was disconcerting. I turned away, turned to the overhead and ever-present television, to the soothing cathode fire. A news announcer spoke, his words barely heard over the din, a demented monologue riding the heedless, dissonant soundscape, “…and it was impossible to unfold to the people the conspiracy against church and country, to expose them to the secret doctrines—there would have been panic in the streets. It would have meant initiating the multitude, it would have meant lifting the veil of Isis. The only recourse was to find denouncers and false witnesses…easily done, of course. When the temporal, spiritual and political tyrannies unite to crush a victim they never want for serviceable instruments…”
And then it was my turn at the counter, a mean-faced clerk wearing a sidearm and a blue cross on his government-issue ball cap asked for my ID. I passed it to him. He swiped my card through a scanner, the machine beeped its approval. He passed it back, sliding a pair of happy, colorfully stickered ampoules across the counter. His blank eyes looked through me, “Next.”
I turned and was immediately swallowed by the crowd. Tossed, bounced and jostled, I was finally ejected into the adjoining books and magazines section. I thought I heard someone at my ear, a familiar voice, but then it was gone, replaced by a buzz, a fuzz—a fly perhaps.
I browsed magazines not really seeing the pages. Eventually a young clerk approached, her cheeks cartoonishly rouged, gingerly touching my arm, “Is there something I can help you with, sir?”
Her voice reminded me of Mickey Mouse. I found myself staring at a copy of Guns & Ammo, a concept I didn’t really grip until I put the magazine back on the shelf.
“No. Thanks.”
I walked out of the section.
In my pocket the ampoules clinked a cadence. It occurred to me there’d been a time before Sailing Away, a time before the pharmaceutical corporations. You had to give it to them, they’d been clever…prescriptions for synth-torsine called anything but synth-torsine, kickbacks to doctors ensuring complicity. They’d given the shit a legion of names: Poxacet, Dracson, Eulliud, Semoral. They have at their disposal a population so distracted by the loud flashing noises they don’t even know what they’re taking. “Painkillers” for that broken leg. “Painkillers” for that back ache. “Painkillers” after that accident. “What? You’re all out of Tacaset and now you feel sick? Here’s another prescription…I’m sure it’ll help.”
Smile. Touch the arm. Hey, trust your mechanic.
There was that buzz at my ear again. Someone said, “Severed.” I turned to see who’d addressed me, turned to see…
Nobody.
The buzz continued, an odd bit of static with the slightest trace of an echo. I batted at the air around my head—anyone watching would’ve thought me a madman.
I floated along one of the store’s main arteries, aiming myself toward the dreary plastic restaurant tacked onto the back.
The place was quiet; a couple of old ladies and a man in an overcoat similar to mine. He openly stared.