Theresa's eyes were open and she looked straight into Alice's. "Alice," she said, "Alice, my dear..." She sighed. Sat up. Stroked her deep-red skirt. Put up a white little hand to smooth her soft dark hair. Dyed, of course. "Your poor mother," said Theresa. "She rang me this morning. She was so upset, Alice."
"She was upset," said Alice at once. "She was."
Theresa sighed. "Alice, why do you stick with him, with Jasper, why - no, wait, don't run off. You're so pretty and nice, my love" - here she seemed to offer that kind face of hers to Alice, as if in a kiss - "you are such a good girl, Alice, why can't you choose yourself someone - you should have a real relationship with someone," she ended awkwardly, because of Alice's cold contemptuous face.
"I love Jasper," Alice said. "I love him. Why don't you under- stand? I don't care - about what you care about. Love isn't just sex. That's what you think, I know...."
But the years of affection, of love, dragged at her tongue, and she felt tears rushing down her face. "Oh, Theresa," she cried, "thank you. Thank you. I'll come in to see you soon. I'll come. I must go, they are waiting...." And she ran to the door, sobbing violently, and out of the door, letting it crash. Down the stair she pounded, tears flying off her face, into the street, and there she remembered the notes in her hand, in danger of being blown away or snatched. She put them carefully into the pocket of her jacket, and walked fast and safely to the Underground.
Meanwhile, back in the beautiful flat, they were discussing Alice. Anthony kept up a humorous quizzical look, until Theresa responded with, "What is it, my love?"
"Some girl," he said, the dislike he felt for Alice sounding in his voice.
"Yes, yes, I know..." she said irritably - her exhaustion was beginning to tell.
"A girl - how old is she now?"
She shrugged, not wanting to be bothered with it, but interested all the same. "You're right," she said. "One keeps forgetting."
"Nearly forty?" insisted Anthony.
"Oh no, she can't be!"
A pause, while the steam from the plate of soup he had brought her, and had set on the little table beside her, ascended between them. Through the steam, they looked at each other.
"Thirty-five; no, thirty-six," she said flatly at last.
"Arrested development," said Anthony firmly, insisting on his right to dislike Alice.
"Oh yes, I expect so, but darling Alice, well, she's a sweet girl - a sweet thing, really."
In Alice's little street the houses were full of lights and people, the kerbs crammed with the cars of those who had returned from work; and her house loomed at the end, dark, powerful, silent, mysterious, defined by the lights and the din of the main road beyond. As she arrived at the gate, she saw three figures about to go into the dark entrance. Jasper, Bert. And the third? - Alice ran up, and Jasper and Bert turned sharply to face possible danger, saw her, and said to the boy they had with them, "Philip, it is all right, this is Alice. Comrade Alice, you know." They were in the hall, and Alice saw this was not a boy, but a slight, pale young man, with great blue eyes between sheaves of glistening pale hair that seemed to reflect all the dim light from the hurricane lamp. Her first reaction was, But he's ill, he's not strong enough! For she had understood this was her saviour, the restorer of the house.
Philip said, facing her, with stubbornness she recognised as being the result of effort, a push against odds, "But I've got to charge for it. I can't do it for nothing."
"Fifty pounds," said Alice, and saw a slight involuntary movement towards her from Jasper that told her he would have it off her if she wasn't careful.
Philip said, in the same soft, stubborn voice, "I want to see the job first. I have to cost it."
She knew that this one had often been cheated out of what was due to him. Looking as he did, a brave little orphan, he invited it! She said, maternally and proudly, "We're not asking for favours. This is a job."
"For fifty pounds," said Bert, with jocular brutality, "you can just about expect to get a mousehole blocked up. These days." And she saw his red lips gleam in the black thickets of his face. Jasper sniggered.
This line-up of the two men against her - for it was momentarily that - pleased her. She had even been thinking as she raced home that if Bert turned out to be one of the men that Jasper attached himself to, as had happened before, like a younger brother, showing a hungry need that made her heart ache for him, then he wouldn't be off on his adventures. These always dismayed her, not out of jealousy - she insisted fiercely to herself, and sometimes to others - but because she was afraid that one day there might be a bad end to them.
Once or twice, men encountered by Jasper during these excur- sions into a world that he might tell her about, his grip tightening around her wrist as he bent to stare into her face looking for signs of weakness, had arrived at this squat or that, to be met by her friendly, sisterly helpfulness.
"Jasper? He'll be back this evening. Do you want to wait for him?" But they went off again.
But when there was a man around, like Bert, to whom he could attach himself, then he did not go off cruising - a word she herself used casually. "Were you cruising last night, Jasper? Do be careful; you know it's bad enough with Old Bill on our backs for political reasons." This was the hold she had over him, the checks she could use. He would reply in a proud, comradely voice, "You are quite right, Alice. But I know my way around." And he might give her one of his sudden, real smiles, rare enough, which acknowledged they were allies in a desperate war.
Now she smiled briefly at Jasper and Bert, and turned her attention to Philip. "The most important thing," she said, "is the lavatories. I'll show you."
She took him to the downstairs lavatory, holding the lamp high as they stood in the doorway. Since the day the Council workmen had poured concrete into the lavatory bowl, the little room had been deserted. It was dusty, but normal.
"Bastards," she burst out, tears in her voice.
He stood there, undecided; and she saw it was up to her.
"We need a kango hammer," she said. "Have you got one?" She realised he hardly knew what it was. "You know, like the workmen use to break up concrete on the roads, but smaller."
He said, "I think I know someone who'd have one."
"Tonight," she said. "Can you get it tonight?"
This was the moment, she knew, when he might simply go off, desert her, feeling - as she was doing - the weight of that vandalised house; but she knew, too, that as soon as he got started... She said quickly, "I've done this before. I know. It's not as bad as it looks." And as he stood there, his resentful, reluctant pose telling her that he again felt put upon, she pressed, "I'll see you won't lose by it. I know you are afraid of that. I promise." They were close together in the doorway of the tiny room. He stared at her from the few inches' distance of their sudden intimacy, saw this peremptory but reassuring face as that of a bossy but kindly elder sister, and suddenly smiled, a sweet candid smile, and said, "I've got to go home, ring up my friend, see if he's at home, see if he's got a - a kango, borrow Felicity's car...." He was teasing her with the enormity of it all.
"Yes," she said. "Yes. Please."
He nodded, and in a moment had slipped out the front door and was gone. When she went into the sitting room, where Jasper and Bert were, waiting - as they showed by how they sat, passive and trusting - for her to accomplish miracles, she said with confidence, "He's gone to get some tools. He'll be back."