‘His mother. The person he loved the most at that age. The person he’d never hurt, no matter what.’
‘No matter what.’
‘Oedipus complex?’
‘I don’t think he was in love with his mother in a romantic way, but he was a very shy kid with few friends. His parents were everything to him. In his mind, they could do no wrong.’
‘Could his feelings have mutated into a combination of maternal and romantic love all rolled up into one?’
Hunter considered the theory. ‘It’s possible, why?’
‘OK, it’s my turn. Let me show you what I found out.’ Garcia flipped open the folder he’d brought with him and took out the music magazine he’d found in Jessica Black’s apartment. He quickly ran Hunter through what had happened with Mark Stratton, how he’d failed to control himself, and how he’d completely trashed a possible abduction scene. ‘By chance I came across this magazine when I was in their apartment. There’s an interview with Jessica Black in it. In a particular section, the interviewer asked her about love.’
‘What about it?’
‘He asked her what true love meant to her.’ Garcia pushed the magazine over to Hunter and pointed to some highlighted lines. ‘That was her answer.’
Hunter’s eyes went over the lines and he paused. His heart skipped several beats. He read them again.
‘To me true love is something uncontrollable. Like a fire that burns really bright inside you and consumes everything around it.’
‘A fire that burns bright inside you?’ Garcia said, shaking his head. ‘It didn’t sound like a coincidence to me. So I went back to the office and searched the net . . . found nothing. I then remembered you told me how good the magazine archives were at the public library, so I took a trip downtown.’
‘And . . . ?’
‘I found this.’ From the folder he retrieved a copy of the printout he had got from the library and pushed it over towards Hunter. ‘An interview with Kelly Jensen for Art Today magazine. Another question about true love and how she viewed the subject.’ He pointed to the highlighted lines. ‘Check her answer out.’
Love hurts, and true love hurts even more. I must admit that I haven’t been very lucky in that department. My last experience was very painful to me. It made me realize that love can be like a crazy knife that sits inside you, and at any moment it can simply flick open. And when it does it cuts you. It slices through everything inside you. It makes you bleed. And there’s very little you can do about it.
‘Shit,’ Hunter whispered, running a hand through his hair.
‘In the library I couldn’t find any similar articles on Laura Mitchell. Then I had this crazy idea of going back to James Smith’s apartment.’
‘Best collection of magazines and articles you’ll ever find on Laura.’
‘Exactly,’ Garcia agreed. ‘It took me a few hours, but I found this.’ He handed Hunter the copy of Contemporary Painters.
Another question about love. Hunter read the highlighted lines – True love is the most incredible thing. Something you can’t control. Something that explodes inside you like a bomb when you’re least expecting it and you’re totally consumed by it.
‘He’s giving them love,’ Garcia said. ‘Not his love, but what they consider to be true love, according to what he’d read. According to their own words.’
Hunter agreed mutely. ‘His mind is in a real mess. He’s got no understanding of what love is. And I’m not surprised. To Andrew real love was what his parents had between them, but what he witnessed that night shattered that understanding into a million little pieces, and he’s been trying to put them back together ever since.’
‘OK, but why now?’ Garcia asked. ‘If the trauma occurred twenty years ago, why is he only acting now?’
‘Traumas aren’t straightforward, Carlos,’ Hunter explained, ‘no psychological wound is. Many traumas suffered by people at one stage or another in their lives will never manifest themselves into actions. A lot of the time not even the traumatized person knows what catalyzes it. It just suddenly explodes inside their heads and they have no control over themselves. In Andrew’s case, just seeing Laura, Kelly or Jessica’s picture on a magazine or newspaper could’ve done it.’
‘Because they didn’t just resemble his mother physically, but they were the same age she was when she died, and they were all artists.’
‘Exactly.’ Hunter’s cell phone started ringing – the screen said Restricted Call.
‘Detective Hunter,’ he said, bringing the phone to his ear.
‘Hello, Detective. How did you like my birth city?’
Hunter’s surprised stare shot in Garcia’s direction. ‘Andrew . . . ?’
One Hundred and Five
Garcia’s eyes widened in surprise. He thought he’d heard wrong, but the expression on Hunter’s face left little doubt.
‘Andrew Harper . . . ?’ Hunter repeated, keeping his voice steady.
A chuckle came down the phone. ‘No one has called me Andrew in twenty years.’ The sentence was delivered in a calm tone. His voice like a muffled whisper. Hunter remembered the whispering voice he’d heard on the recording Myers had retrieved from Katia Kudrov’s answering machine.
‘Do you miss being called by your real name?’ Hunter’s tone matched Andrew’s.
Silence.
‘I know you were there, Andrew. I know you saw what happened that day in your house. But why did you run? Where did you go? Why didn’t you allow people to help you?’
‘Help me?’ He laughed.
‘No one could’ve coped with what you went through alone. You needed help then. You need help now.’
‘Cope? How could anyone cope with watching his father transform into a monster right in front of his eyes? A father who only hours earlier had given me the best presents I’d ever got. A father who’d promised me that everything would be fine. That there’d be no more fights. A father who said that he loved my mother and me more than anything. What kind of love is that?’
Hunter didn’t have an answer.
‘I’ve researched you. You used to be a psychologist, didn’t you? Do you think you could’ve helped me cope?’
‘I would’ve done my best.’
‘That’s bullshit.’
‘No, it isn’t. Life isn’t meant for us to go through it on our own. We all need help from time to time. No matter how strong or tough we think we are. A person alone just can’t deal with certain life situations. Especially not when you’re only ten years old.’
Silence.
‘Andrew?’
‘Stop calling me Andrew. You don’t have the right to do that. No one does. Andrew died that night, twenty years ago.’
‘OK. What name would you like me to call you?’
‘You don’t need to call me anything. But since you were so kind to fuck everything up. To go digging into something you had no right to, I have a surprise for you too. I take it that your phone has video-streaming capabilities, right?’
Hunter frowned.
‘I’m sending you a short video I made earlier. I hope you enjoy it.’
The line went dead.
‘What happened?’ Garcia asked.
Hunter shook his head. ‘He’s sending me some sort of video.’
‘A video? Of what?’
Hunter’s phone beeped – Incoming video request.